Oi, move over.

I want to start this entry with a huge thank you for all the beautiful messages I have received from across the world. Although I am unable to reply to them all individually please know that I have read every single comment and the depth of feeling in each has touched me greatly.  Occasionally one may make me shed a tear but they have also given me a real push to get past this next hurdle. The offers for wedding photography, dresses, DJs, etc, have been beyond generous.  Once again, thank you. And not to brag (well, actually to totally show-off) on Thursday when the Daily Mail ran an article I’d written about my experience the blog got 26,000 hits!

But to bring things up to date I feel I should be tippy tappying on my keyboard with ‘Eye of the Tiger’ playing in my personal soundtrack right now!  I have completed three zapping sessions to the brain and so far so good; there have been few side-effects and the hair is still firmly on my head – in fact, the low-down from the radiotherapy nurses is that I might not even lose it all. This was mentioned in a cautious whisper in order not to raise my hopes too much but, at least for today, I have a full covering and I’m a happy bunny.

The process of the brain radiotherapy is pretty quick; you lie on you back and your head is strapped into a mask that was moulded to your face.  This is a bit uncomfortable but I clamp my yoga fingers together, close my eyes and visualise the cancer being blown to oblivion with every life-saving ray. It takes about ten minutes and then you’re free to go, back on the tube, looking like any other 28-year-old making their way across London.

As I sat on the tube yesterday a six-foot plus man came and plonked himself down next to me. There were other free seats but he stretched his legs out and nudged my elbow from the armrest as he spread his burly frame into a comfortable position. I looked up at him; he’d nonchalantly begun reading his mouldy-smelling book with no apparent awareness of having invaded my space.

Pre-cancer I might just have moved over with a ‘harrumph’ but nowadays I’m less likely to take this kind of shit. I straightened my back and gave him a firm elbow nudge to reassert my position. He looked at me and I stared right back keeping my arm where it rightfully belonged.  We sat like this all the way from Victoria to Brixton.  Sometimes you need to let the invader know you mean business even if it’s just a sharp assertive ‘fuck off’ nudge.

Hopefully radiotherapy will prove to be another nudge to the cancer, and the fact that that I’ve not been very ill has been a massive morale boost. I’m trying to play my part too; on the suggestion of an herbalist I’m juicing carrots and beetroot twice a day and am meditating to try and stay relaxed. These things can’t hurt so I may as well give them a go, and of course follow the advice of my inspiring medical team who are making this journey so much easier.

I’ve found that trying to concentrate on each day rather than the unknown future is also helping. I have to remind myself that none of us know what is round the corner and for the moment my body is stronger than the cancer; I am walking, talking, breathing and laughing. It makes no sense for the worry to become my main problem. The cancer is there but I am living with it and although at times it seems overwhelming I know I must ensure that it doesn’t entirely define me or take over who I am.

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118 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Kirsty
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 19:55:05

    You go girl!! X

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  2. Anna
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 19:58:46

    That’s the fighting spirit. You go girl, such a strong lady! Cancer will be shitting its pants…

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  3. Sue
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 19:58:54

    Evening Ellie, So good to hear that the zapping isn’t having too many side effects at the moment (and that the hair is hanging on in). One day at a time seems a great approach to chip away at anything daunting and I am visualising with you those cancer cells being blasted to b*ggery. Keep strong and we will all keep sending you every ounce of encouragement and positive will which we can. Enjoy your evening Sue xx

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  4. Annie Walkace
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 20:00:04

    Positive thoughts and vibes sent your way 👍🌻💋

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  5. Marion Jones
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 20:04:26

    Truely Inspirational xx

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  6. Alison
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 20:04:57

    Trully inspirational I too had cancer and am sending you positive vibes from Toronto Canada

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  7. Sharon
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 20:10:21

    Ellie, I am one of the 26,000 who caught your article this week.Your writing is beautiful and inspiring! Your attitude is so strong and vibrant. I think one day at a time is a great way to approach life and all it throws at us. Wishing you continued good health, and I am sending good vibes and prayers from Houston. Sharon

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  8. Sue
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 20:40:33

    Hi, Ellie, I was one of the 26,000 hits on your blog after the DM write up on Thursday and I am so pleased I found you because your feistiness through adversity reminds me of someone who went through a similar situation to yours , although not quite so horrible, some 11 years ago, me! You are much younger than I was and treatments have moved on at a pace but it is attitude above all else that will get you through. Many of my colleagues and friends simply didn’t understand why I was still laughing and joking when I was so horribly ill, not that I didn’t have a little cry sometimes, but like you I was determined to be in charge and not let my cancer overwhelm me. Besides, I was on love with the most amazing man and determined to marry him on the date we had set some 2 years earlier and I did, just as you will marry Tom, when you want to, not because some stupid crap determines a change of date. Love to both of you,

    Sue S xxx

    Can’t log in and on my way out for the night so will have to be a guest this time!

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  9. Lynne
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 20:56:23

    Wow – read Grazia article which led to the blog. Your kick ass attitude is fantastic and you are a real inspiration. Haven’t had (but will) time to read through it all but just wanted to mention some alternative treatments I looked into after my bro-in-law was diagnosed. He thankfully responded really well to chemo (not in remission but doing well) but I wanted to look at other options to support that – you may already have looked a these but some of the main ones I have found are the Bugwig diet, the Gerson Therapy and the use of apricot kernels!!!! Stay positive – anything is possible.

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  10. Prue
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 21:02:32

    Ellie,
    FANTASTIC – so wonderful to hear your news….. I hear strength from you, and determination to enjoy/take every day as it comes…. I am following every comment, and with this sending the most powerful healing vibes. Meditation is fabulous, and loving the new juicing regime.
    I love the comment about the “Tube Bully”…. You go girl…
    Love to you and Tom,
    Prue
    xxxxxxxxxx
    Hugs, love & even more love

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  11. Leah Bezares
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 21:13:42

    After reading your story on the Daily Mail site and having recently lost a Best friend to cancer I’m following your blog all the way from Florida, USA!

    You go girl and kick cancers ugly ass!!!

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  12. alison
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 21:21:17

    Bless you Ellie, you make me smile. Beware fellow tube travellers, this lady ain’t taking no shit! xxxxx

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  13. Jan
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 21:41:03

    Great Blog Ellie, brilliant to hear you sounding so positive, and , as usual with your humorous twist!! Its a brilliant combo, and even gave you the courage to give a guy the ‘Fuck Off ‘ stare on the tube…if only he knew what he was dealing with !!! Every day is a new day , and another step closer to you beating this thing ..you go girl!!! xx

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  14. colette murphy
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 21:48:23

    take it a day at a time, yesterday is gone, tomorrow has’nt arrived yet, today is here and now. Good luck and keep fighting’

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  15. sharon perry
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 21:49:12

    You are so very very brave and i applaud you. you are kicking ass girl and we are all right behind you! Sending all good vibes and love to you and your family x x

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  16. Rebecca W
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 22:01:54

    Abso-bloody-lutely! You’re Eleanor Jeffery, your Tom’s Fiancee, you’re a friend, a daughter, a sister, a broadcaster, a writer, you’re someone not to be messed with (as the guy on the tube will I’m sure testify!) and somewhere after that you’re a cancer patient.

    I’m generating a whole cheer team for you here in Leicestershire. Keep up with the positivity, it’s a very powerful emotion.

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  17. HelenTurner
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 22:15:12

    Another one of the hits after your story appeared in the Daily Mail, just kick that cancer’s ass into touch. Sending strength and positive thoughts your way Ellie. xxx

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  18. tracie roberts
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 22:42:10

    Thank you for sharing your story, with us. I know you have probably had hundreds of people email you with cures and ideas. But I wonder if you have heard of the Power by Rhonda Byrne & The Secret, now there is some controversy with these books, some people swear by them others say modern claptrap – but I followed the visualisation techniques, and the being grateful for the small things and I am pleased to say it helped me so much. My health and life got better. I know that you are already doing visualisation through your blog, and your right meditation and visualisation can only help not hurt – the mind is a powerful thing and research is coming out all the time that supports healing from within, in the next decade they say this will be the next big invention. May I send you a copy of the books I have for you to read I would glady send them to you, they really change your mindset, and really help instill in you strength and hope and a way of thinking yourself well, There have been so many people who have done this and found help , some have been cured, but I don’t want to give you false hope, but I believe that these could really help you and anything is worth a try and it cannot harm you. I have lent my books to others who have been ill and they have helped. I know you have had many ofers of help, and I wish you so much happiness I – If there is anything I can do then please email me – I will glady send my books and DVDs to you no worry of returning them. I am so proud to have read of your strength and courage, ive never posted on a board before, but you inspired me to do so. I will follow your blog. With much love and good wishes to you x

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  19. jocransome@googlemail.com
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 22:48:47

    Carpe diem. Thank you for your inspiring blog 🙂 take care and stay strong x

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  20. Chris
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 22:58:59

    I am also joining the club of people who read your story in the daily mail and am now following your blog with admiration. My brother has rectal cancer and so I understand a little of how a diagnosis like this affects not only the person but their whole family!
    Wishing you luck and love for the future xxx

    Chris

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  21. Sandie75
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 23:05:58

    Keep that smile on your face and stick with your positive thoughts…..and good for you for doing the “Elbow-Nudge” to put that Douchebag back in his place. You are an Inspiration. Thinking of you xxx

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  22. Jess
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 23:17:48

    Good post, my husband’s (born and raised in Harlem in the seventies-eighties) is always telling me “in life you have to check people” and tell them they’re doing something wrong. He’s starting to rub off on me. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve ridden the subway with him or heard a story when he comes home from work that he exchanged serious words with someone over their lack of subway etiquette lol Older I get the more I realize he’s right, if we don’t make a stand and let people know their behaviour is unacceptable they’ll just keep on doing it! I think my initial comment was removed from your blog? I’m sorry if anything I said offended you,I have a tendency to get carried away and write rambling posts – too much time on my hands right now.Have a great week – you’re in my prayers, Jess

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  23. Jess
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 23:23:00

    me again just to let you know I’m insania I realized my comment was still here I left it on a ‘my blog and me’ and not your last post ooops. Sorry I just worried for a sec that I’d written something stupid. Once again wishing you a great week next week 🙂

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  24. Marianna
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 23:40:45

    Seems like you’re making everything move over…….well done Elliexxx

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  25. Mary Burridge
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 00:09:01

    Love your latest blog. I’m sure you’ve heard this before, but I think it bears repeating:
    Yesterday is history
    Tomorrow is a mystery
    Today is a gift, that’s why it’s called the present.
    Do use your gifts of today. You have such a good spirit – keep it up!
    Hugs and prayers from Mary in Canada

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  26. Ann Newman
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 00:10:07

    Your positive attitude will help you through so much Ellie. You deserved those 26,000 hits after the DM article it was so inspiring. ‘yesterday has gone’, tomorrow isn’t here yet and today is here and now’ – how true by Colette, above. We should all live by that attitude. My best wishes to you for the future (and you will have one!). Ann x

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  27. Anna van Heeswijk
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 00:14:48

    I am sending all the positive life affirming vibes I can muster – you are an inspiration Elly and you are so loved, never forget that. xx

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  28. Darragh
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 00:18:39

    I have one word for you and it’s LEGEND 🙂 your an inspiration to anyone who reads this keep up the good fight ! I am one of the 26k who read the article in the daily mail and I hope for you that everything works out for you keep positive dude !

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  29. Heather MacQueen
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 00:41:42

    Ellie, With all these people fighting with you, your going to kick this disease in the butt!
    I looked up Kris Carr’s site today, fantastic! Nothing is impossible, and with all this positive energy coming your way, I think you need to accommodate a few more thousand people for your wedding:-)
    Keep eating and drinking green sludge. That together with meditation, It’s doing you the world of good.
    I am sure you are on a high with all these people sending their love, you deserve it:-)
    Heather MacQueen

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  30. Jian Li
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 00:56:21

    Wow, I’m glad to hear about your positive experience in the treatment. And I agree that sometimes you have to take control of things around and not being a pushover. All the best for the remaining treatment and I really look forward to your blog articles in the future.

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  31. Amelia soegijono
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 02:49:02

    ellie, you totally brighten our days with your positive update!! we believe that more good news will come, keep the fighting and courageous spirit alive 😀

    xoxo

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  32. Francis Cheung
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 03:49:07

    Dear Ellie,

    Every time I read your latest updates, every time I wonder what would it take for the others to realize how lucky they are and how they should be having a different priority in life! Having witnessed how one of my best mates lose his triplets with his wife and having seen my fair share of tragedies due to my work, I have been someone who treasures family and friends over other vague stuff like fame and fortune! Please do keep fighting not just for your self and your fiancée but also to kee giving out positive vibes to this materialistic world we live in! There is not enough people like you!

    BTW, the tube episode is classic, good on you, girl!

    Best regards,
    Francis

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  33. Ysabel Llerena
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 08:31:53

    Hola Ellie, this is your Peruvian supporter friend!!!! Keep smiling!!!! you will win that intruder , We all love you. A nice present from Peru will be mail it to you in June 2012~
    Love,
    Ysabel

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  34. Linda
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 09:15:25

    Hi Ellie

    Just wanted to say how wonderful you are and the up date was really encouraging, my heart goes out to you. Keep up the good fight I am with you all the step of the way.

    Lots of love and hugs Linda xxxx

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  35. Chloe Greene
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 09:45:55

    Loved the way you nudged the guy on the tube’s arm away Ellie. He should have realised he was sitting next to a warrior woman who wasn’t going to take any shit. Love the fight in you. You inspire me.

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  36. Ann
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 09:51:59

    Good for you Ellie! It’s amazing where our strength comes from, but it really is there and not worrying will give you the best strength of all. As for big bully on the train – you go girl!!! I hate bullies and he obviously saw your strength of character and knew not to mess. I am so proud of you and you WILL get through this treatment and you WILL live with cancer, not die from it. I wish you all the love in the world. Ann x

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  37. Becoming herself
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 10:05:42

    Some good news! Wonderful.I’m so glad you updated us and that you are feeling so positive. Maybe you can start imagining the cancer as the space invader on the tube you had the spirit, courage and determination to elbow back so effectively.

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  38. Melanie Richardson
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 13:31:55

    Bravo Ellie! xx

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  39. Lisa Karatzia
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 17:35:45

    Dear Ellie,
    I decided to follow your blog after reading your article in the DM. We all have our own stories to tell, some happy, some sad and some difficult. Although i have been blessed with 4 children and a good loving husband, life isnt easy. I am 39 and its on days like today i feel 59. But then i read your blog and realise my troubles are so small and I shouldnt moan. I honestly believe in god and and our guardian angels, i will pray for you Ellie and truly hope that you will get better, may god keep giving you the strength and courage that you have today. On days like today when things keep going wrong I will think of you and your courage. God bless you.

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  40. kerry
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 18:37:35

    Phew!!!!! So good to read your blog again today, You ARE ‘living and laughing and leading the very, very many that stand behind you and beside you Ellie. Your lovely locks remain in tact…….. and your steely resolve undaunted. Lots of good sleep, and good thoughts, to fill your heart, but you just keep pushing and shoving……..its elbows out and gloves off…. and stuff the Marquis of Queensbury…next week’s mantra is…’All’s fair in love and war’. love and hugs to you.xxxxx

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  41. Helen Cartlidge
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 18:58:44

    Hi Ellie,
    I’m one of the thousands who started reading your blogs following the Daily Mail coverage. I have to say that I find your words inspiring and am so happy for you that your blog from last night sounded so positive. Although I have no personal experience of cancer in my family, thank God, I am tremendously moved by what you write. I shall continue to read your words with great interest, and believe me I am thinking of you and remembering you in my prayers.
    I look forward to hearing all about those wedding plans and to hearing all about the Big Day afterwards! Keep on being so brave and positive!
    Much love, Helen x

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  42. Adrian
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 19:46:00

    Hi Ellie, I’m one of the people who found you’re blog last week too. Many people out there have been touched by your fight. I have lost people close to me and wish I could have found the film Crazy Sexy Cancer by Kris Carr before. It was such a help. I wondered if you have seen it or not. She has such a positive attitude to it all you remind me of her. If you haven’t I will always send you my copy as I can’t find it for sale in uk DVD format. Don’t know if it will help. Keep up the fight. Good thoughts coming your way. Adrian Driver.

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  43. Sarah
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 20:17:35

    Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day, saying…”I will try again tomorrow.”
    Mary Anne Radmacher

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  44. Mrs Smiles
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 21:18:13

    You are actually amazing. Early 90s Cher is always a good motivator 🙂 You’re in my thoughts.

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  45. Helen
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 22:18:09

    Hi Ellie,

    I too read the article in the Daily Mail.
    I just wish to say you are a true inspiration, and I shall continue to follow your blog
    without fail !

    Love & hugs and many thoughts.
    Helen x

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  46. Clare
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 23:39:47

    There was never any doubt that you would conquer this latest challenge – you are meant to beat this!

    Reading about how you have coped with this latest hurdle, gives me hope and strength that when my next challenge comes that I will be able to deal with it.

    Thank you so much for making me feel less alone in this x

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  47. Corina
    Nov 13, 2011 @ 23:43:42

    Glad to hear that you’re feeling better, and although I don’t know you, I admire spirit and kick-ass attitude -I will have to try that next time someone invades my space! Keep your chin up hun, sending positive thoughts.
    Corina x

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  48. scapheapstuart2
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 00:00:53

    Hi Ellie — I’m pleased that your latest bout of treatment seems to be going as well as can be expected. Sincerely hope you keep your hair this time. Your little tube anecdote is interesting. Are you saying that having an aggressive illness has made you more assertive and less likely to allow yourself to be messed around? In a lesser way, this happened to me too. After the trauma of my divorce my discipline improved at school. I figured that I had enough to put up with without being messed around by some ratbag kids( excuse my language.) My tone of voice when I spoke to them reflected this. they knew I meant business. So I turned a negative into a positive. I feel that you have done this too, in numerous ways. I feel you have really grown as a person since becoming ill and have developed qualities far in advance of your 27 years.
    Good luck with everything.
    Stuart.

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  49. Mary
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 00:59:32

    What am amazing and inspirational attitude you have and I so admire you. Your positivity shines through and I am so pleased your hair is hanging on in there! I have found that a positive attitude really helps me move from day to day and putting a smile on my face tells everything and everyone that they won’t beat me. Keep strong and sending hugs x

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  50. kathy
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 02:05:13

    🙂

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  51. Sam
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 05:39:31

    You don’t need a single word of comfort, cos you are already a warrior!
    That’s the spirit!

    Fight on and the battle is for you to win. And as you are reading this, do not forget there are many many thousands and thousands of supporters all over the world behind you, giving you all the support and best wishes.

    I want to continue reading this blog of yours for the next 5, 10, 15, 20 years and so on. YOU CAN DO IT! 🙂

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  52. Celestè Steyl
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 07:39:19

    I cannot wait to read your blogs in the hope of good news!

    My Grandfather died of cancer and I really wish I understood what he went throught. You write so truthfully, I feel as thought I know you and have a special place for you in my heart!

    You inspire me to love myself more, to be attentive lover and patient mother!

    I pray that you keep this positivity and focus on each day as you push through…

    XOXO

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  53. Helen
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 09:07:26

    Me again, fab news that you’re feeling so much more positive this week. Just loving the image of you elbow nudging on the tube, maybe one day he’ll find your blog and realise what a twat he was?!! But frankly doesn’t matter in the big scheme of things, you’re a million times more important and inspirational. Love and hugs! xxxx

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  54. Gen
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 10:08:29

    Hi Ellie
    So glad that your fighting spirit has returned and that you are dancing through the latest bouts of treatment like a finely honed muhammid ali! You are a beacon of hope & inspiration and you should be truly proud of yourself. Love and best of wishes to you and Tom. x

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  55. Adrienne Ross
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 10:46:31

    Hi Ellie,

    My son David, a friend of yours, sent me your blog. I just wanted to let you know how impresed and moved I am by your courage and humour. I am thinking of you and really feel for you, and wish you continued happiness in your relationship and success in your treatments. Keep using the elbow!

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  56. Nicola
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 12:18:17

    You’re doing really well, Ellie. Taking one day at a time is the best way forward. Hard though it is, try not to worry about what may or may not happen. If something happens, you’ll deal with it when (IF) it happens. I like to juice beetroot, carrot, apple, orange and ginger (sometimes with a bit of parsley thrown in for extra va-va-vroom) – sweet, zingy earthiness!

    Good vibes heading your way…

    Nicola

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  57. Lisa
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 12:36:56

    Hello again Ellie

    What a fantastic post to read. So glad to hear your news. Keep giving it shit!!

    XXX

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  58. Alan Charnock
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 13:33:11

    Hi Ellie, I tell you something, you are braver than me, I live in Macclesfield and had to see a client in London (Wembley) last week, there was a mess up with the computer on the train and no reserved signs were working, so I ended up standing all the way to London, I know the ticket does have a seat number on it but I was to scared to tell the women to move, even though it was my seat.
    Keep up the bravery and blogging and next time I think I will try the (fuck off) nudge myself.

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    • Ysabel Llerena
      Nov 15, 2011 @ 19:56:23

      Hi Alan, sometimes it is not easy to say things directly, but, older you get easier it comes : ) Sometimes when I travel by plain I see someone seating very comfortable on my sit..and even pretending to be sleeping. I care less. I start with a strong…”EXCUSE ME, I think that this is my sit:””!!! Really no need to be rude. (Even if my teen daughter things that this is enough rude)

      Have a great day.

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  59. Lisa Facey
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 13:35:42

    Great news Ellie, dusted off and carried on, you really are amazing. The only thing you need to worry about is your wedding plans. The offer of a wedding cake still stands and my husband is in a very good band who would be more than happy to play at your wedding and frighten your guests……

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  60. Helen Foudls
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 13:37:39

    Keep up the feisty attitude – totally the right approach. It’s all too easy to let people take you for granted or treat you badly but you are right to give the guy a good stare. Hoping the radiotheraphy continues to be managable. xxxxx

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  61. Magda
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 13:54:40

    All the best wishes Ellie! Have a faith and never give up! Love Magda

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  62. Grayc
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 14:58:34

    Great news Ellie…May our good Lord keep you,make you stronger everyday and His light always shine your path.

    Your determination has inspired my almost drained fighting spirit in life and you know what…Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s to happen next.

    Keep up the spirit honey

    Lots of love from Kenya,
    Love grayc

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  63. Julie
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 14:59:19

    I too am one of your new followers after your brilliant article featured on the DM website. I had my own life shattering/making moments 18 months ago. Not cancer, just surgery which went horribly, horribly wrong. But I want to reinforce how all the wonderful comments that are being made to you along with all the positive energy and light has to make you stronger. As you so rightly say, cancer isn’t defining you. It is your wonderful strength of character, and amazing writing that is. Keep fighting. Embrace the good and the bad days and just live in each and every wonderful moment. As another comment before, I too am looking forward to being part of your world, via your blog for many, many more years to follow. With lots of loving cancer-smashing vibes being sent your way xxx

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  64. Kathleen MacGregor
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 15:31:31

    Hi Ellie, I have been reading your story with great interest. My daughter in law died with cancer just over two years ago having only been ill and in hospital for just over 6 weeks. My son and her had been together for nine years and never got round to getting married but when they told her she had 10 days left on the Wednesday they announced they were getting marrried on the Friday in the Beatson, the families rallied round and on the Friday they were married, it was a lovely day but a very sad day too. There is always something good to come out of bad and we started a fund which is operated by the Beatson in her name for anyone in the same position to be able to get married and not everyone had the family around them like they had to organise and pay for the things they needed at short notice to make the day special, we had flowers, rings, cake, dresses the lot with the exception of the honeymoon sadly. Joan died a week later on the following Saturday but she had got her wish to be a “Mrs”. We still run events to keep the fund topped up and I had a special birthday and asked for no presents which we added to the fund with over £1,000. We as a family do not administer the fund this is done by the hospital to whom patients can apply for funding and keep their names confidential. I wish you all the luck in the world and will keep up to date with how you are doing on your blog, best wishes, Kathleen

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  65. Jenn
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 15:31:49

    Hey Ellie,

    I am so so happy you updated ur blog like 2 days ago. I have been in and out of your blog each time I am online, waiting anxiously for ur updates. I am glad things went well. I am going to be reading and leaving u comments now and then. I am from Malaysia by the way, come here for honeymoon with Tom. I will be your personal tour guide. I will teach you how to eat nasi lemak, our famous coconut milk rice with spicy anchovies and bring you to the beach side, just lazying around doing nothing, enjoying the sunset and listening to the sound of the waves =) Life should be as simple and as beautiful as that. Awaiting for more good news from you. BIG hugs!

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  66. Lisbeth Solheim
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 15:57:04

    Dearest Ellie.
    Thank you for reminding me to live life one day at a time, not knowing what life will throw at us around the next corner… Keep feeding on positivity and don’t let negativity feed on you.

    “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
    Eleanor Roosevelt”

    Best wishes from Norway

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  67. victoria watkin-jones
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 16:03:43

    Hello Ellie – I found a lump a couple of years ago and although in the end I was lucky and all was ok the enormity of the results going the other was was overwhelming. In ten minutes your life either goes on as normal or absolutely everything changes. I hope I would have been as brave as you. A strong mind goes a long way.
    You have probably been inundated with wedding help but do get in touch if I can help in any way. x

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  68. Heather
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 16:30:30

    Hello Ellie, I am another of your new followers as a result of the article in the DM. And like everyone else, I am really pleased that this round of treatment is going well! I had a scare a couple of years ago, when I found a lump, and also found the NHS lacking – useless in fact. I was lucky though, it wasn’t cancer, but it did teach me lessons about standing up for myself, and living life positively. Your wedding will be the best day of your life, treasure every moment! I wish I could live mine again and again! Married life is fab, I wish I could describe how much it has fulfilled me, but you will discover this for yourself. Tell us more about your wedding preparations, it would be nice to hear about your progress towards the big day as well as your treatment!

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  69. Heather
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 16:49:22

    p.s. If you like juices, try experimenting with carrott, apple and ginger. Yummy if you get the proportions right, but watch out for looking as if you’ve been tango’d if you overdo it lol! Seriously!

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  70. Fatima
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 19:07:51

    Following your progress from Saudi Arabia and making prayers for you.

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  71. Cindy
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 19:22:07

    Dear Ellie,
    You are inspirational and I might add, an excellent writer! You have a personal style that is very moving. So glad you are hanging on to your hair and that the radiotherapy has not been too bad. You go, girl and kick some butt!

    I also recommend Kris Carr’s blog….she reminds me of you- a tough chick. Stay strong, stay focused- enjoy your days and your nights. We are all here, thinking of you and sending all of our strength to you!

    Cindy

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  72. karen
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 19:38:26

    I read your article in the Daily Mail. You are amazing. Keep up with the fighting spirit. I send you all my love and best wishes and you will be in my thoughts every day.

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  73. Cate
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 19:42:00

    Delighted to hear you’ve managed to hold onto your hair and your good humour! Fight, fight, fight for what is important to you and keep up that positive spirit. Oh, and keep those elbows sharpened to have a dig at everything and anything that comes along and gets in your way.

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  74. Rae
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 20:25:12

    You definitely deserve all the attention, you write beautifully!

    And I feel you on the pushy people who invade your space. It is one of my biggest pet peeves, although I’m not very good at asserting myself like you did.

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  75. Justine
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 20:38:40

    You are my inspiration for life. Something you are brimming with! Keep fighting girl, I’m with you all the way sending armfuls of positive energy!

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  76. Victoria
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 21:05:20

    Dear Ellie,
    I read an article about you in VG, a Norwegian newspaper, and I couldn’t help but notice what a beautiful and inspiring person you are!

    I’m not this kind of person that believe in God. I have chosen to believe in the things I can touch. And you really inspire me to believe in the small things in life, to believe that everything will be OK, and I’m truly grateful for that!

    When you feel down, just remember;
    “Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

    Love from Victoria

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  77. Mrs Smiles
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 21:49:50

    http://www.fresh-network.com/acatalog/I-beat-cancer-with-a-raw-diet.html

    I’m conscious of not wanting to tout quackery but I read this and thought you might like a read? You sound like a fellow ‘researcher’. X

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  78. Lisa
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 22:31:42

    wow, wow, wow you are an inspiration and i hope you kick the evil monster that is cancer.

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  79. Rosie Butler
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 00:26:24

    Good for you Ellie….
    one day at a time and if a day is too long, an afternoon too long, an hour too long, moment by precious moment… just close your eyes and breathe… A lot can change in just a few days… keep the fighting spirit to the front. My daughter has often said her cancer has a tough time… it has to live with her … not the other way around…. Make it so.. as if you were my child, I am holding you close in my heart, whispering…. this too will pass, better days lie ahead.

    fairy hugs

    Rosie Butler

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  80. Rachel
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 00:34:18

    Ellie

    So glad that the radiotherapy is going well and that you are enjoying life!!

    God Bless

    Rach

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  81. JulieB
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 01:42:23

    Hi Ellie,

    I’m another one of your 26,000 new followers after your DM article and have just spent ages reading through your blog – you really are amazing keeping your sense of humour and your positive attitude in the face of so much unbearable shit! I was going to pop on here to suggest Kris Carr too, but it would appear you have already discovered your American “kick ass” counterpart! Your spirit reminds me of her, and I can only add to the other sentiments on here and wish you the best as you fight on…you’ve got people from all four corners of the world (I’m in Bermuda!) rooting for you – you go girl!
    Julie

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  82. laura
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 10:06:05

    hey hey Ellie!

    I have been thinking of you all the time, everyday infact! I’m so glad that your not too poorly after the zapping!

    Please stay positive, you can beat this, and you will…. how are the wedding plans going???

    LOTS OF LOVE, Laura & Boys.

    P.s , I hope my cousin Matt is looking after you, which I am sure he is, as his heart is as big as the ocean. x x x x x x

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  83. Lesley
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 10:27:07

    Ellie,

    Just wanted to wholeheartedly agree with your anger at being ‘written off’. The medical profession need to leave people some HOPE. This is an extract of something I wrote recently.

    “Being told you have ‘maybe a year’ to live is horrendous to most people. A few decades ago people weren’t even told they had cancer which probably made the last few months more bearable.

    This oft quoted excuse about ‘giving you time to put your life in order (by which they mean make a will)’ is just a load of nonsense. If you were told your illness was likely to curtail your life this would give ample warning to let you do the practical stuff and spend the so called ‘quality time with loved ones’ without removing all hope.

    My parents are now 88 and 90 so I’m sure neither of them think they are going to live another 10 years, but would they be any better prepared if they knew the precise month or year of their expected demise ? More importantly what would be the impact on their happiness to be counting down the time until one or other is left alone.

    Yet this is what the medics do to the terminally ill cancer patient. HOW CAN THEY THINK THIS IS THE BEST WAY TO TREAT PEOPLE ? “

    Great to see you putting up two fingers to them.

    Lesley

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  84. Meera
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 11:04:19

    Hey Ellie!! I was one of your 26,000 hits from the Daily Mail, & i reposted your link onto my Facebook page so all my friends and family could also take a look! YOu are truly inspirational andI love your way of writing! Despite the sadness of your story sometimes you still never fail to make me laugh with your witty comments! I dont know you….but i feel like i do!
    Sendind you strong vibes and positivity!!

    Meera xx

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  85. Karen
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 12:41:35

    You are an inspiration, your story has made me fill up with tears. Your determination & courage is amazing. I pray you beat this cruel disease & enjoy your wedding day & future with your lovely supportive husband. Be strong x

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  86. Kate
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 14:11:01

    Dear Ellie,
    I am following you and have been inspired by your words. My mother passed away at 72 from secondary breast cancer. She survived 18 years after her initial treatment. I truly hope that your treatment will help you too. However I wanted to share some information I researched. Especially treatments for advanced cancer patients when my mother was in advanced stages of cancer. The one I found that was encouraging was carbon ion therapy. I don’t know if it is available in the UK but the research was done in Chiba near Tokyo in Japan. I wonder if your doctors are aware of any studies or treatment available now in this field. I hope this can help you and if anyone reading this who is a specialist give you more info.

    I look forward to seeing your wedding pictures by the way. You really are an inspiration.
    Kate

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  87. Kate
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 14:15:52

    This is the link to the research I read.
    http://cerncourier.com/cws/article/cern/30578

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  88. Alex H
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 17:12:18

    Hi Ellie,

    I was just having a joke with my brother saying that I couldn’t have a “blog”, mine would have to be called a “whine”!! He then continued to say it should be called “The Grass is Always Greener” to which I replied “It is!!!”

    Then, I read your blog, yr so upbeat, inspirational and positive when dealing with such shit – it totally puts me to shame!! I hope you get well soon.

    My friend posted your blog on Facebook as he is growing a moustache for Movember, I’m going to pop off now and donate some money then I’m going to ring the Dr’s for a screening appt!

    x

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  89. Becki
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 17:33:50

    I too saw your story through DM last week. I read right through your entire blog history and have logged on every day hoping for your next post after your horrible experience last week.

    You are SUCH an amazingly strong woman and no matter how weak you may ever feel inside, never ever forget because you are dealing with this better than most people ever could.

    You are inspirational. I suffer from a long-term chonic illness but it is not serious or life threatening. I probably moan just about every day about how terrible I feel. Before now I would curl up in bed wishing for sleep to come so the pain would be over and I had just about given up. Your attitude has given me the kick up the backside that I SO needed to keep going and fighting.

    You are a wonderful person, never EVER give up! Anything is possible

    Becki xx

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  90. Susie
    Nov 15, 2011 @ 23:21:13

    Ellie
    I also read your story on the DM and then read through your entire blog. I have thought about you a great deal these last few days and will continue to follow your progress. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us – there are so many important lessons others can take from you. Wishing you continued strength and much love.
    Susie

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  91. Cathie Robertson
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 00:08:49

    Ellie

    I’m another person who became aware of you through the DM. Just wanted to wish you all the best. I cant do anything to make you better, but you are an inspiration. Look forward to seeing those wedding pictures.

    Keep fighting

    Cathie xx

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  92. Sarah Bradford
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 01:16:39

    You’re the most inspirational person I have ever witnessed. I inspire to be half the woman you are! Absolute true hero. Stay strong and keep fighting. My thoughts and prays are with you. YOU CAN DO IT! x

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  93. Gary
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 06:20:37

    Hi Ellie, Like everyone who reads your blog, I think of you every day, and wish I could help, YOU are a very special person. But I also want to say thank you for the way you have helped me as well. KEEP FIGHTING ELLIE YOU CAN DO IT. P. S sorry not as good with words as you.

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  94. Hana
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 10:17:25

    Dear Ellie,

    I just happened to find your blog few hours ago.. I just couldn’t resist to read it and then write to you at least that I wish you the best and that..
    your story reminded me of the one we lived through in our family lately (last 2 years) .. you reminded me of my father! For me he is the Hero! I didn’t t have chance to tell him but at least I can tell you that – I totally admire you and your strength! It is very inspiring and all you big fighters really deserve to win! Life is not fair so it does not work that way always.. however I truly believe and wish it will for you!

    Keep going girl!

    Hana (Czech Republic)

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  95. Maria
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 12:05:21

    You are such an inspiration Ellie… My mam is fighting cancer at the moment too and I know how horrible it can get but just to read your up beat, enthusiastic blog has put a big smile on my face! I’m so glad I’ve found your blog… Keep fighting girl! You can do it…

    All my love
    Maria x

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  96. Rachel
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 13:07:09

    Ellie

    I don’t normally bother with these things (hate hate hate the “cancer culture”) but felt compelled to write a short note as your situation is very similar to mine and your attitude the same.

    I was diagnosed with stage 4 melanoma nearly 2 years ago 6 weeks after the birth of our 2nd and 3rd children (twins, obviously, not just some genetic anaomally…..).

    I have had 2 operations to remove lympth nodes, 2 lung resections and gamma knife to my brain in the last 18 months. I am currently on a new, unlicensed drug which seems (fingers crossed) to be working.During this time I have looked after my family, got a new job and basically carried on as normal. As with you now, I have been lucky enough to have an amazing consultant and support team (all NHS). As you know, the fear at first is bad, but then you get determined. A few of my thoughts….

    The face of cancer treatment is changing. One of the worst things I find is the pity. I am not to be pitied!

    Fight for the treatment you need – the red tape is hideous

    We will become a new type of cancer patient – patients, not victims

    You can be fabulous with cancer (in fact the fact that you have it makes you even more fabulous!)

    Lets change peoples attitudes towards this. It is a disease, not a death sentence anymore.

    I don’t know whether you’ve seen the quote, but a leading light of Cancer Research UK recently said; “People will live with their cancer, and die with their cancer, but not of their cancer”

    Get it framed and stick it on your wall and good luck with the wedding. We can do it.

    Rx

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  97. simon wynn
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 13:58:09

    Hiya Elle! Its Wynny here (faxxy + sarahs buddy) from up North,Remember me i hope !? Listen i have some information i eagerly want to get to you,ive tried your email address but im not sure ive got the right one ,its very important i speak to asap………Please get in touch with me,lots of love WYNNY Xxx

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  98. Zoe Springbett
    Nov 16, 2011 @ 17:55:04

    Dear Ellie,

    I felt compelled to write to you. My mum has just sent me a copy of the Daily Mail article that was sent to her by a friend. My mum was sent the article as her friend thought you sounded just like my late sister. You do! Your style of writing, your black humour and your ability to find wit and positivity despite your illness is Josie through and through. I know you probably receive hundreds of these emails everyday but I feel I have to write as Josie’s illness and situation was just like yours and Toms. JoJo was 25 when diagnosed with breast cancer in July 2007. She was diagnosed as terminal when it was found on her liver in Jan 2009. She and her boyfriend (like you and Tom) had only been together 15 months at this point. In April 2008 she got engaged and in the September got married. The doctors had told her she’d never make a September wedding but she thought f£&@ you- I’m HAVING a September wedding! She looked radiant, and her hair had grown back- it was the hottest day ever and the sun shone all day. Josie, after being told she’d never make September went on to live to almost see her 1st wedding anniversary. The only reason she didn’t is because she gave up treatment. She could still be here now if she’d continued medication, but she decided she wanted to live the rest of her life, not have a constant diary full of hospital appointments. Jojo died on 29/8/10 ( just 2 weeks before her wedding anniversary and 29th birthday) and I miss her everyday. However, despite everything she went through getting married and being with her husband extended her life drastically. If it hadnt been for Richard I’m sure she would have given up long before. So, my note to you- stick with June and cherish Tom. You have cancer, true, but you have found the love of your life too, and you’re so lucky to have each other. Enjoy as much as you can, continue to spread your love around by helping lost grannies, continue your inspirational blogs and keep strong. JoJo walked her dogs everyday and by the sounds of things you’re keeping out and about and busy too. I’d love to meet you as you sound just like JoJo. Sending SO much love to you Ellie. Tom is your elixir to life so keep on being happy with him and planning your lovely vintage wedding, and I feel VERY sure that you’ll be around a good while yet!! Xxxxxxx lots of love Zoe xxxxxxx ps as far as clearing out your stuff goes- have a good clear out now anyway….. It will give you a great feeling of satisfaction, will clear your head and is a positive way to spend a day, even if you’re not ill. It will also mean that if the time ever does come, it will give your mum and “turd breath” less to do!! Me and my mum are STILL going through Jojos stuff!! Xxx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 16, 2011 @ 19:18:32

      Hi Zoe, I’m so sorry to hear about your sister. I’m glad she made it to her wedding day and beyond – Jojo sounds an amazing character and I’m glad she proved her doctors wrong. Sending love to you, your mum and Richard, Ellie xxx

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      • Zoe Springbett
        Nov 19, 2011 @ 19:42:51

        Hi Ellie,
        Me again. I read in one of your blogs how you don’t like the thought of those you love, continuing with their lives and you just being a memory. I can tell you that whatever happens THAT WILL NEVER be the case. Since discovering your blog, I just can’t help thinking about you, and I don’t even know you. You are someone who is certainly not forgettable. JoJo started a blog, but never did it regularly. The 4 or 5 pieces she did write were because she found it an easier way to update people rather than having to repeat herself a zillion times. She found it exhausting when people would corner her in Sainsburys with their sorrowful eyes and ask in whispered tones, in a really over sincere way, “So how ARE you?”. She used to get so tired of it! Through reading your entries I’ve been able to have a better understanding of her treatment- she never used to talk about it really. She found it far more amusing to describe the people in the waiting room, her oncologist’s choice of clothing, or any other witty observations. Your comment about the shampoo and body lotion made me laugh. JoJo was in the hairdressers once and went to buy some products. Her hairdresser told her to go for the 3 for 2 offer. Josie just replied “What the hell do I want all of those bottles for?! I’ll be dead before I finish them!” Her hairdresser was mortified, but humour was just how she dealt with things!

        I guess that you must get exhausted reading through these replies, especially when everyone has an opinion/ treatment to try/ suggestion – must be so hard as you want to try everything yet you don’t want to spend your life looking things up/ researching/ investigating/ eating this/ drinking that/ coffee enemas/ apricot kernels bla bla bla bloody bla. I know Josie got sick of it. So, again, let me make things simple. Your best treatment is TOM!!! Seriously, the doctors could not believe how long Josie lived for, and as I said the other day, she could have gone on for so much longer.

        I can’t believe the impact your blogs have had. It’s like having my sister back again. I know that must sound weird/ creepy but I can just tell we have come from similar backgrounds and are similar people. If there is ever anyway I can help you, or if there are any questions you want to ask (about things that people wouldn’t usually ask/answer) then please do. Josie was exactly your age, with exactly the same cancer, at exactly the same stage in her life and I’d love to be able to help you if I can. You have my email and please let me know. I promise I’m not some weirdo and I won’t advise you to try any medicines/doctors/trials!

        Xxx
        Ps I ADORE your letter to cancer!

      • Ellie Jeffery
        Nov 22, 2011 @ 10:02:20

        Hi Zoe,
        I’m glad you found the blog and if in someway it can help then I can’t tell you how much that means to me. It’s helpful for me to know that you manage to write about your sister with such love and admiration and concentrate on all the good she brought you. You were truly lucky to have each other – but of course you don’t need me to tell you that.
        Thank you so much for continuing to read the blog, sending lots of love to you and your mum, Ellie xxx

  99. Jasmine Hall
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 01:59:01

    Hi Ellie,

    I´ve just read your entire story. A friend sent me the link because your story reminded her of the fight my friend Elizabeth Fallon went through. You´re a wonderful writer, keep up the fighting spirit and have a wonderful wedding.

    May the force be with you. x

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  100. SALLY CHESSON
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 13:24:28

    HELLO ELLIE.
    JUST SO GOOD TO READ YOUR WORDS, YOU HAVE BROUGHT A LOVELY SMILE TO MY FACE. I FEEL THAT YOU ARE ACTING AS A TONIC TO ALL OF US WHO READ YOUR PAGE. JUST WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN ON THE TUBE WITH YOU IN ACTION, I DOUBT IT BUT I HOPE YOU MADE HIM THINK.!!!
    THINKING OF YOU . I AM STILL SITTING HERE GRINNING LIKE A CHESHIRE CAT. THANK YOU FOR YOUR INSPIRATION SALLY XXXX

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  101. www.drbunz.de
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 14:47:51

    I will not just write that cancer (in every age) is definitely the biggest shit! I´m a man and I´m more afraid about my prostata 🙂 but you know….you never know what happen till it happens!
    I was fascinated about your description of your first visit in the clinic. I mean this is what I´m talking about every day and what makes me so depressed! I am a dentist from Germany, an orthodontist, and I worked in surgery over years. This behavior of nurses and doctors makes me soooo angry, because they HAVE TO look on people coming to them 200% and with full concentration. You know, last month we lost our nephew in an age of 6 because of brain cancer. I have a better position as a doctor and I am a “member of this pavonine club” , although I´m completely different than they are, but nothing helped. It would, but the cancer was not operable, so he was not the lucky brain caner guy, as the doctors said. It made me sooooo angry and helpless, I mean what the fuck?
    I just wanted to say they it´s up to you, you are your own doctor and you know your body better than everybody else, so fight against this bastard in your body and I´m sure that you will do it! Never trust a doctor, even he is looking intelligent and try to tell you that its hard and stuff like this, they all have no idea!
    I know where the real problem in medicine is: It is dependent on political decisions (and it cannot be!) and there are toooo many doctors only doctors, because their parents were already doctors and had the financial background.
    So keep your head up!And keep on fighting!

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  102. Ruick Walter
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 15:35:35

    Ellie-

    I was deeply moved from your article on the D.M. websight the other day, for reasons of which I will not waffle on about now. I put the article onto favorites as I wanted to respond, but was not sure whether I would ever respond to it in the way that was my first inclination – well….. here we go.
    I am a Master hypnotherapist and Master NLP practioner and would like to volunteer some time, if you would be interested, towards your endeavors – this could only be in conjunction with your current treatments as I am a firm beleaver in traditional medicine as well. You have my e-mail details

    Be well and pratice random acts of kindness!
    Ruick

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  103. lauren dell
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 18:18:32

    🙂 fantastic and inspirational THANK YOU XX Lauren

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  104. Helen Carlson
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 20:37:52

    You are one amazing woman and I hope you beat this horrible illness.
    Keep on keeping on.
    Helen xxxxx

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  105. Caz
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 21:48:42

    Hi Ellie, I just simply want to say that you are an amazingly strong and inspirational person and I wish you all the very best with your current treatment and the future, stay strong x

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  106. Elllen Wetterau
    Nov 18, 2011 @ 08:12:22

    I think you know my son, Jay and his housemate Ric. I have been following your status and condition long before you ever heard my name. I just want you to know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers for a long time. I know that your road has been filled with challenges but they all say that you will not be given more than you can handle. I don’t know if I agree with that but I do know that you are incredibly strong and not one to sit back and just take it. It is a fight, a real fight……keep it going on your end and I assure you that we will all do all we can on our end. The love of my life passed on about 5 years ago suddenly. I do not ask him for many favors but I will use one for you. Keep going.Ellie… We will help all we can.

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  107. Wendie o-c
    Nov 18, 2011 @ 11:21:13

    Well Ellie, so utterly inspired by your story in the Mail and very moved by your strength and courage in fighting your battle. I too have been having treatment for Breast Cancer and can see how your beautiful written words have moved so many and we all truly wish you the very best. As a Physiotherapist I understand your concerns re your medical diagnosis and fully support your Hosp move and a more optimistic approach. Having being forced to get off my busy treadmill of life, I have benefitted from slower more relaxing methods of rehab and +ve thinking.
    I wish you lots of happiness and continue drawing strength from everyone’s genuine concern and love for you.
    Thank you for Storting your wonderful blog
    Wendie

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  108. Gemma
    Nov 18, 2011 @ 12:43:02

    Please please please give this a go: http://www.cancure.org/budwig_diet.htm
    It can only help!! My great aunt’s cancer has gone because of this method – it allows greater absorbtion of oxygen in your bloodstream to self heal. I would be doubtful myself if I hadn’t seen her get better with it. It’s not anything daft like a brocolli diet!

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  109. C.
    Nov 18, 2011 @ 16:23:53

    I’m another who discovered your blog via the Daily Mail article (I covertly read the showbiz gossip during quiet moments at work…); your attitude is inspiring and I’m so glad to hear the treatment is going well so far. I hope things continue to improve and you get the wedding of your dreams – the very best of luck.

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  110. laura
    Nov 19, 2011 @ 09:16:02

    Just wanted to say, I’m still thinking of you Ellie!

    I hope that you’re ok and that your not too poorly from the radiotheraphy!

    LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!! Laura & Boys ! x x x x x

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  111. Robinson Aki
    Nov 19, 2011 @ 23:13:23

    I am delighted as the power of love overcomes obstacles! May God bless them. I’m sure she will live many, many years. I wish all the happiness in the world for them.
    God is healing her day after day!
    There’s a line I read Massaharu Taniguchi of which reads: “We are what we think is all day” Always think: I am very health … I breathe health!
    Robinson – Brazil

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  112. Cate
    Nov 20, 2011 @ 14:07:57

    Hi ellie,

    I found you on Twitter via Coppafeel. I just want to add my positive vibes to the chorus here. You’re so amazingly inspiring, although I’m sure you’d rather we found you via another awe-inspiring route than flaming BC.

    Look after yourself and I wish you more TOWIE editions, although I don’t quite understand this afflication!

    Cate x

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  113. Fatma
    Nov 20, 2011 @ 16:43:10

    I guess u r inspiring the whole world :D.. Your writing is sooooooo touching n very inspiring again 🙂 I have been through such an experience with my mom and ONLY the strong will n insistance to beat this thing coupled with strong faith will make u through this.. Will pray for you..

    longing for your next article 🙂

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  114. Craig
    Nov 21, 2011 @ 12:40:42

    Pmsl about the big fellow and the elbow nudge. Love from the Philip family xx

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