I think I did something really shitty in a previous life.

More bad news I’m afraid, so this entry will be a bit shorter than usual.  The MRI showed up more than the two spots the CT scan had picked up on. Although everything is very small, the sneaky disease has reached all corners of my brain and therefore the less invasive gamma-knife treatment is off the cards.  Instead my whole brain will need to be zapped with radiotherapy.

I will lose my hair again and the side effects of nausea and headaches could last for weeks. I am becoming the visible cancer patient once again and I can’t stand it.

It’s difficult to express all that I am feeling at the moment.  I’m angry that this could be happening, I feel utterly terrified that the cancer has the upper hand and I fear we may not ever get on top of it.

The last twenty-four hours have left me, for the first time, asking if the treatment is worth it? Is this a battle that I am written to lose?

This is all early days so I am hoping that in a few weeks time I can pick myself up off the floor and rebuild my emotional strength and courage to be the person I want to be for this latest fight. I know it’s in me somewhere but at the moment I keep asking how it’s possible for such a load of shit to continually be thrown my way.

I’m sorry I haven’t had chance to reply to all your comments but believe me when I say I’ve read every one and they all have helped me. Your words of encouragement, prayers and best wishes are the outstretched hands that can pull me up from the collapsed heap I am currently mentally lying in on the floor.

For those who know me personally and who have texted Tom to offer him your kind words please know I am so grateful. He is supporting me like no one and for you to let him know you are thinking of him, makes this part of the journey so much easier on me.

I will get there, this is just a huge blow and I need to work on bracing myself for the next load of treatment – if I’m off the blog for a while you’ll know it’s because I’m not feeling so well.

And if any of you happen to be wandering around with a cure for cancer in your back pocket please feel free to call your local GP, MP or hospital – this shit is getting heavy and this girl needs a break.

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  1. Ellen
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 09:54:19

    Every night I say a prayer for you Ellie. I just want this to go away for you and hope the big guy upstairs is listening to my each and every prayer.

    I feel like I just want to give you the biggest hug…please keep fighting this Ellie x

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    • Andy Barrow
      Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:51:46

      Hi Ellie,
      I havev been following a company called xenetic biosciences plc as they have a product that may help you.
      Preclinical Testing

      The safety of Oncohist was effectively proven in several toxicology studies. Toxicokinetic studies demonstrate that Oncohist is widely distributed in the body, including bone marrow, and has a favourable half-life. Accumulation of Oncohist in any organ or tissue was not observed.
      from http://www.lipoxen.co.uk/Oncohist.aspx

      I truly hope they can help you.

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    • mary jennings
      Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:32:06

      Hi Ellie. Just read your story in the mail. I felt i had to write to let you know i have been at a conference in Liverpool for the past 4 days. There were research scientists there from all over the world so i hope they will come up with some good news for you . I had breast cancer in 2004 and i am quite well now and work as a volunteer for Breakthrough and macmillan Cancer Support. Feel free to look on both websites for help and advice if you need it . Tom sounds lovely and you are so lucky to have him by your side. I will keep reading you blog.Take care love mary

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  2. Peter Rossiter
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 09:59:38

    Hey mate,
    Gutted to hear your latest piece of news. If anyone can fight this, you can. You have done it before and you will again I am sure. You have said yourself that the “fight” is in you somewhere and we both know how bossy you can be (he he).
    Give em hell missus,
    All my love and hugest respect,

    Peter x

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  3. Nikki greene
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:02:46

    I am so sorry to hear the latest news, my thoughts are with both you and Tom and mum also sends her love to you both, xxxx

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  4. Emma B
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:08:48

    Hey Ellie, I’ve only just found your blog but everything I’ve read says you’ll pick yourself up off the floor in no time. Cancer IS an evil little shit but you can beat it.
    I know we only worked together for a bit, but I’m sending you all my love and thoughts and encouragement to help you crack this. And you are going to make one stunning bride. (P.S. I love the way you write!) xxx

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  5. Alison
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:09:07

    Hi Ellie and Tom
    This must be so tough for you both. Ellie your fight is worth it, dig deep and please keep it up.
    Sending you both all the strength and love I can
    Alison

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  6. Lindsey
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:09:23

    Keep going girl, remember head up chest out. We’re all behind you, so up you get and fight that horrible bully with all your might. We all know you can do it :) xxxxx

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  7. Chloe Greene
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:09:32

    You are a remarkable, brilliant and wonderful woman Ellie. I think about you a lot. Am sending love, prayers and powerful messages to the universe to give you strength.

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  8. Kim Kelly
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:11:48

    Be strong, Ellie. You have been dealt such awful cards but keep on fighting. Don’t let the cancer win. You can fight this. You ARE strong enough despite the understandable doubts you are having now. Keep on moving forwards with love and positivity. Xx

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  9. Lee-anne
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:16:10

    This is so unfair that you have to go through this again. You are an inspiration to so many people … You’re strong, you can fight it … come on Ellie!!

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you all!

    Love Lee-Anne xx

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  10. Kordel Rogers
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:23:03

    Good Morning Ellie
    I always seem to read your blogs in the car on the way to work. This morning when your blog popped up on my email, I was saddened to read your new bout of terrible news, this message is the first thing I have done at my desk since getting to work. We are with you all the way, stay strong and positive (as much as you can), I fear you feel a little defeated at the moment, only to be expected. But from all your entries on this site I sense you are all about fighting!!! So keep at it, we want to read good news…..
    You will be in my thoughts as you progress through the radiotherapy and the awful sickness you will endure. Your writing tells us what a beautiful brain you have….
    Much love
    Kordel x

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  11. Midge
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:25:33

    Ellie, I am rubbish with words. But I am still reading- though it is hard to hear and I will continue reading.

    I get my genetics results. I keep looking at my children and thinking about what I might have given them.

    Hoping for a cure any day now
    X

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  12. Adele chambers
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:28:13

    Dear Ellie.

    I’m sorry about your news. But come on girl give this cancer thing the middle finger and fight with all your strength. You are an inspiration to many who are fighting this shitty disease and you can and will beat it! Sending you love strength and all the love and prayers this world. Keep fighting xxxxx

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  13. Carole Weedon
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:28:28

    Oh Ellie. I wish I had the words to console you and comfort you whilst I sit here in tears. My heart goes out to you. It’s so unfair that anyone has to suffer all of this, so young. I feel so sad. Keep fighting. Keep believing. Keep hoping. We will all keep praying.
    Sending my love and positive thoughts to you.
    Carole Weedon (relative to Iain Lee).
    xxx

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  14. Becoming herself
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:31:09

    Keep on keeping on, Ellie. Anything and everything is possible.x

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  15. Melanie Richardson
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:31:11

    Dear Ellie
    Saddened to hear the latest blow. Life can be both wonderful and terrible and it seems you have experienced both in your young life. Please draw from the positive energy coming your way from so many people and remember – in your private moments – don’t feel you have to ‘stay strong’ all the time. It can be exhausting and much more beneficial to have a good weep and move on to the next challenge.
    Much love
    Melanie xx

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  16. Frances Pringle (@FrancesPringle)
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:33:03

    It is worth it, because you are…even when you stand in the background you steal the limelight. You can out shine this x

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  17. Beth Williams
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:36:19

    Ellie – not quite sure what I’m meant to put here to be honest, I cant even begin to fathom the emotional roller coaster that you must be on…… I dont even know you, but from reading your blog I can tell that you are a force to be reckoned with. You know the old saying Dont let the Bastards grind you down – I think you’re the last person that will let the C word beat you without a huge fight. Dont beat yourself up just because youve done the natural human thing and felt fear – you should allow yourself some time to do this, and the fight it back with all guns blazing!!

    I hope this doesnt come accross as preaching to you – I just really felt the need to say it – even if I dont know you in person. Keep fighting xx

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  18. Jo-ellen
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:43:42

    Hi ellie,
    I really don’t know what to say apart from stay strong, your an inspiration to others. I have looked at life totally different since I read your blogs.
    Your a beautiful ladie and have a lot to fight for, think positive :)
    Thinking of you lots… Jo xxxx

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  19. anneliep
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:47:43

    Hey Ellie. We don’t know each other, but have mates in common. I’ve been reading your blog for a liltte while, and I just wanted to say Hi, and say im thinking of you. You can totally kick this filthy dirty sneaky cheating illness’ arse. As Mitchell and Webb quite rightly said “Sod cancer” xxAnnelie

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  20. Lauren Wheeldon
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:48:11

    Hello Ellie

    My heart goes out to you and If I was with you I’d hold your hand and let you lean on me. Your bravery is a necessity and it’s not fair. You’ve done nothing to deserve this. Your an inspiring woman, If you ever feel you need a stranger to talk please contact me. I really want you to know that although I don’t know you, I immediately want to help you and I will say a pray for you so that you have extra strength for whatever lies ahead.

    Love Laurenx

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  21. ladyleftfieldlover
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:51:44

    Thinging of you, still.

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  22. Alan Charnock
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 10:55:11

    So sorry to hear the shitter news, you can use a couple of Lance Armstrongs sayings it may help.
    ““Anything is possible. You can be told that you have a 90-percent chance or a 50-percent chance or a 1-percent chance, but you have to believe, and you have to fight.””
    and
    “Pain is temporary. Quitting lasts forever.”
    So dont give in and fight this new challenge.
    I’m not religious but ill get down on my knees tonight and ask the big guy for a favour, you never know he may listen to me.

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  23. Amanda
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 11:40:50

    Ellie, Your really have been dealt a cruel hand but I believe you have the fight in you to beat this bully!!!
    Try and keep positive my prayers are with you xxxxxxxxx

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  24. Cassy
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 11:45:42

    This message is for Tom.
    Tom you must be an amazing man, you and Ellie are so lucky to have found each other. As someone who has lived very close to this journey, I would like to recommend a book to you: Grace and Grit, written by Ken Wilbur. You may find it helpful.

    And as Winston Churchill said “Never EVER give up”.
    Ellie, stay strong, I know it must seem impossible, but you CAN do it,,, keep up the fight and push the bugger into submission.
    With prayers…..

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  25. julie french
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 12:50:46

    hi ellie ,,iv just started reading your blog,…im devastated for you..I was just wondering re..losing your hair again!! if theres anything i can do to help you feel a little better ..i work in hair replacement ,wigs ,extentions ,i also do semipermanent makeup ..you can have for free if it would help… xx

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  26. Paddy Roche
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 13:05:12

    You have done nothing wrong in any life. Stay strong and know the love of strangers is and friends alike is with you xxx

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  27. Phyllis Elias
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 13:16:37

    Dear Ellie, What a useless language we have when it comes to situations like this. There are no words that can express how badly I feel for you – even though I have not had the privilege of knowing you personally, you are like a close friend who needs help that I am just not able to find the answer to. My prayers and positive thoughts are with you every inch of the way, as they are with your lovely Tom. You will overcome this latest hurdle and continue to inspire everyone who knows you or about your incredible battle with the horrid disease. If there is any practical way you need help or funds, just say the word and I know you will be inundated with offers from all of us.

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  28. Katy
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 14:02:13

    Hi Ellie. I met you once through a friend of a friend and thought you were fab and that was before all of this. I always read your blog and think about you everyday and how hard it must be for you. I have no doubt that you will pick yourself up and soldier on as soon as you get your head around this terrible setback. From what I can tell from your blog and hearing about you through my friend, I don’t think it is in your nature to stop fighting, although I can only imaging how scary that must be. My mam, sister and friends often ask me how you’re getting on and we don’t even know you, so if you imagine how many people there are thinking of you and sending you good thoughts and wishes, that will hopefully be a bit of a boost for you. With love x

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  29. Mrs Richards
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 16:26:49

    You can do it. There is so much positivity coming your way in the shape of thoughts and prayers. Each one of those thoughts makes a difference in the universe – bouying you along. As do you make a difference in the universe, it’s big place – and I don’t know you (have been sliently reading for a while) but your blog makes me stop and think, inspires me to be better as a person, to put things in perspective, to show and tell those I love, that I do. You keep fighting and we’ll all be there alongside you. Love to you, Tom and family xxx

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  30. Jess's Mum
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 17:31:11

    Hi Elly,
    No one can blame you for feeling you’ve been dealt a real low bowler at the moment but don’t let it knock you back too far before you get your fight back!
    I have personally witnessed pictorial evidence that 4 weeks ago you were dancing around a certain pool with a glass of Rondel in hand, looking every inch the lovely, vibrant young woman that you are and that’s the Elly that will always be more than a cancer patient.
    Just wanted to let you know we are all thinking of you and wishing you the very best.
    Jess’s Mum xxx

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  31. Margaret Keeling
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 18:11:24

    I have been reading your blog for a few weeks now. I think it is immensely brave of you to share everything in the way you have. My husband had Myleodysplasia and undertook drastic trial treatment 7 years ago with only a minimal chance of survival but a great deal of hope and courage. I can sense the same determination in you. Sadly he did not survive but he never stopped fighting. Hope was hard to hang on to at times but it saw him through to the very end. I am glad you have Tom. The support of a loving partner is essential when despair is never far away. In spite of everything I believe miracles can and do happen. God Bless You. You are in my thoughts and prayers Margaret Keeling

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  32. Peas and Cougars
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 18:31:25

    I’m so sorry, I can’t imagine how it feels to get a blow like this. On the plus side, you *are* still treatable and there is still hope. xo

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  33. Lindsay
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 19:17:27

    Sorry to hear this latest blow. I was looking up some info to send to you on Manuka Honey. My brother has an auto-immune disease and takes it daily to boost his immune system. I remember hearing about an effective trial that also used it on cancer patients to help prevent infections after treatment. http://www.manukahoneyblog.com/2010/06/manuka-honey-used-in-cancer-treatment.html
    …I don’t know if this will be of any use to you but I also came across this link. http://www.canceractive.com/cancer-active-page-link.aspx?n=146&Title=Cancer survivors
    You might find some of the stories helpful whilst you’re going through your latest battle. x

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  34. Claire Saunders
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 20:11:54

    Keep fighting Ellie, you WILL beat this! I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts every day and I really admire your strength and determination. I know I haven’t seen you since college (good old modern history class!) but you are a true inspiration to me and your blog has, and continues to touch my heart – you are a special talent and a beautiful person. This is just another setback – I know you will WIN this war!!!! xxxx

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  35. Lauren
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 20:15:55

    Hi Ellie
    it’s a rollercoaster good days and shit days , cry for a little while then get your strength back and start fighting again you are strong and this cancer is still beatable !!
    Keep smiling and draw strength from all the people that care for you , tomorrow is a new day get ready to kick some ass !!
    With Love and Best Wishes
    Lauren x

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  36. Ita C.
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 20:53:58

    Ohh Ellie…words can seem so inadequate at times like these. I’ve been following your blog since seeing your letter on twitter a while ago, and all I can say is Cancer ya bollocks ya! When there’s a option for treatment, there’s always an option for hope. You’ve had quite a rough time over the last few days, so give yourself some you time-Tomorrow is another day to wake up to and start plotting your battle plans! Keep fighting lady, the treatment, horrible though it may be, is another way of beating several shades of shite outta that audacious little shit cancer.
    Wishes of love, light, peace and hope to both you and your Tom. XxX

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  37. Jennifer
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 21:00:21

    Ellie – you are 150% allowed to be feeling overwhelmed, angry and down in the dumps every now and then and I am 150% sure you will get your fight back and find the strength to take the next steps in your battle – will say some special prayers for you so that we have all the bases covered and know that you have your own army of supporters who have you in their thoughts and continue to be with you as you conquer this thing. x, Jennifer

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 04, 2011 @ 13:19:08

      Thank you Jennifer – I’m getting there – a weekend of forgetting this bullshit and then onwards and upwards for Monday and the beginning of zapping the little shits to oblivion! xx

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  38. Anna
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 21:13:01

    Ellie, I am so sorry you are having such a tough time. I know it’s so hard to pick yourself up again and again but you will. You are an inspiration to us all, a fighter, and have a spark. My husband had cancer last year and encephalitis. It was a dreadful time and very scary. I feel how hard this is. You sound like you have such a lovely man too, look after each other and you will do beat this together.

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  39. Sue
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 22:03:36

    Ellie, Well if the last news was bugger, bugger, bugger, this has to be worth some stronger swear words from both of us. We have never met but I first saw your posting on the bcc site and followed you over here. I know less invasive treatment has less horrible side effects but my own view of treatment has always been lets give this shitty disease every barrel there is. Total bummer that it will make you lose your hair and make you feel ill. If collective goodwill and good wishes can make their way across the ether, then I hope they do not just help you to keep up strength to fight this but also that our collective determination can beat this. All love and light, Sue xxx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 04, 2011 @ 13:02:18

      Thank you Sue. Yesterday was a bit of a turning point and starting to feel I can take on the next hurdle. The messages of support have made every difference. xx

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  40. Rebecca
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 22:42:57

    I am praying hard for you! Keep on fighting Ellie! You have lots to fight for! This is shit news – I acknowledge as much – but everything I have read thus far tells me you are a fighter and will fight! I am cheering you for lots of reasons, but primarily because your love your man (like I love mine ♥) and I want & look forward to your wedding pics! xoxoxoxox Rebecca

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  41. C
    Nov 03, 2011 @ 23:31:49

    Hi Ellie,

    You don’t me..I’m just a stranger that read your article in Grazia magazine & have followed your blog ever since.

    I think of you most days & know you are a fighter & while this most recent news will have felt like a punch in the stomach, as you said, how much crap can one person take…
    Its disheartening for sure, but I know you’ll pick yourself back up & soldier on…Be strong & most importantly Keep Fighting!

    My love & prayers to you & Tom x

    C

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  42. Laura smith
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 00:36:49

    Hey Ellie,

    Chin up chuck and remember keep flicking those v’s up to the bugger that is the big C. You’ve beat it before and can again, keep up the big fight!!!!!

    Loads of love and hugs to you both,

    Laura smith “bellas” xxxxxx

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  43. Sarah
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 01:56:08

    For all of you who log on daily and then read each comment desperate to offer support I’m speaking to you. As one of Ellies best friends who’s been with her every step of the way I feel the need to share with you what an amazing person she is. I have seen her grow and blossom with strength and wisdom whilst fighting for her life. Yes she’s angry at the situation but never is she bitter or resentful. As you all know she takes each blow head on with such dignity and grace. Each time I look at El I am astounded at the way she is dealing with this cruel desease.
    Yes she will beat this and live the beautiful,bright future that is ahead of her with Tom by her side x

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  44. Ali
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 02:39:53

    Eleanor it is understandable that you are experiencing all these worries and doubts at the moment. You are shocked. Give yourself a couple of days and you will fully regain your fighting spirit. By the end of your latest blog I can see that you are already getting it back. You do have the courage to cope with this.
    I have every faith that your new consultant will make sure that any side effects of the treatment are minimised. I know that losing your hair is dreadful but sincerely you are one of the most beautiful girls that I have ever met and this could not alter that.
    Try to eat as best as you can and get plenty of rest while you are having the treatment. If there is anything that you need just shout.
    I will keep you and Tom in my prayers and look forward to happier times for you both as soon as this treatment is over.
    Sending you a big hug and much love to you both, Ali xxxx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 04, 2011 @ 12:59:08

      Thank you Ali – we’re getting back up from the blow. There’s no alternative but to move forward and put trust in the treatment. It wouldn’t be offered if they didn’t think it could help! Sending love xxx

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  45. Tara
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 08:26:02

    Ellie,

    You don’t know me but I’ve been following your story through my sister Kim and Matt. I’m so sorry to hear about the latest news but just wanted to say that I think you are absolutely amazing and I am praying for you.

    All the best to you and Tom

    Tara (Hong Kong)

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  46. Helen
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 09:26:09

    Is it worth the fight? Hell yeah!! Those crappy little blighters might be determined to cause you as much trouble as possible… but Ellie, you are a beautiful, amazing woman, and we know that you have the strength in there somewhere to give them a run for their money. But it’s OK to give your fighting spirit a rest sometimes, that’s when the treatment can take up the fight for you, until you’re ready to take up the gauntlet again. Loads and loads of love and prayers xxx

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  47. jennieflorist
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 09:31:41

    Stay strong Ellie, keep fighting remember what the lady in “Waiting Room’s” said? U can beat this. Xxx

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  48. Rachel L
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 10:55:54

    Gosh Ellie, what a massive bastard. I really hope that these messages of love and support give you some strength to keep on fighting. Having read your blog I think if anyone can do, it’s you :) Love to you and Tom xx

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  49. Dia B
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 11:53:59

    Come on Ellie!! Keep at it!! You have reached so many people and we all find you inspirational (I live in France but I’m Hungarian married to an English guy…)!
    I’m literally sitting here with a cup of tea and mentally picturing kicking your cancer’s arse… I can tell you it is not a pretty picture!! I hope it helps… Lots of love xxx

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  50. Nicola
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 12:01:08

    Dear Ellie

    I came across your blog by accident. I’ve never left a comment on a blog before but your writing so eloquently expresses much that I feel as I too am LIVING with secondary bc – but I don’t have the courage to speak publicly about it… until now.

    In Jan 2010 I was diagnosed with multiple liver mets and given 3-6 months. I was very ill, terrified, and hospitalized a few days after diagnosis. But here I am now with a very good quality of life and my mets are under control (in fact no longer visible on a CT scan). This is an unpredictable disease and anything can happen, so it makes sense to keep hoping and believing for the best possible outcome, while there are still treatments out there for you.

    As you know, the uncertainty is terribly hard and scary to bear. My way of dealing with it is to live one day at a time making the most I can of each day (I try to remember to be mindful) yet I also have a long-term goal (just started a year-long uni course in Mandarin) – so keep on planning that wedding with Tom! Continue drinking the green shit (if you can handle it) or do whatever you believe may help (with your Onc’s approval, of course), as feeling that you may have some control or influence over this disease is, at the very least, good for you psychologically.

    Good luck with the WBR. You and Tom are so lucky to have found one another and will help each other get through this.

    Best wishes

    Nicola

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 04, 2011 @ 12:47:16

      Thank you so much for getting in touch Nicola. I can’t tell you how grateful I am that you’ve got in touch and shown me that there is hope. I am now beginning to turn the corner and get ready to take on the treatment and also try to help myself as much as possible. I went for acupuncture last night and got some good recommendations for an herbalist and a hypnotist to help me through treatment. I’m so pleased your mets are under control – it’s encouraging to know that the disease can be unpredictable. As I’m not on any chemo at the moment I feel like the cancer is growing and there’s nothing I can do to stop it but hopefully after the brain radiotherapy I’ll be put on a drug that whips this cancer into shape.
      Thank you again for getting in touch – I wish you a whole bundle of good thoughts and vibes for your continued recovery,
      Big love, Ellie xxx

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      • Nicola
        Nov 04, 2011 @ 14:10:03

        Thanks so much for your kind wishes, Ellie. Sounds like you’re being very proactive, which is great. My main complementary therapy is FOOD (yum, yum). Don’t know if you’ve come across Dr Servan-Schreiber – I’ve found him very inspirational. He had aggressive brain cancer and sadly died earlier this year – but 20 YEARS after his initial diagnosis and treatment. He was an eminent psychiatrist and collated and analysed lots of existing scientific research and was convinced that diet could not only prevent many cancers, but it could help to delay or slow down progression of existing cancers. On Youtube there is a very compelling lecture on the subject that he gave at Uni of California (it’s an hour long) and he refers a lot to breast cancer in particular. Just thought I’d let you know in case it’s something you want to look into more once you’ve got through the WBR. The lecture always gives me a boost. I’m struck by the fact that at the very best cancer hospitals in the US, like MD Anderson (which gets some of the best results), they practice ‘integrative oncology’ ie they also focus on diet and comp therapies which reduce stress and manage side-effects alongside the conventional treatments.

        Go girl, go!

  51. Martha de Lacey
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 13:35:00

    BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG KISS XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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  52. Simon Lyon
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 13:51:46

    Hi Ellie
    I’m sorry to hear about your news
    Before you do more radiotherapy please read some of the recovery stories here including brain tumors

    http://www.hippocratesinst.org/archives/117-recovery

    If you followed this method your hair would not fall out.
    Cancer isn’t a disease it the body trying to heal itself and when we eat meat the healing process can’t switch off hence tumors occur. it’s the job of the pacreas to switch off the healing process and whilst doing the complex procedure of converting animal protein into human protein, it can’t do this.
    It pains me to read of your experience when I know what I do.
    This is the last I will say about it as I know I am being interfering.

    If you want to discuss any of this feel free to contact me on 01376 529898

    Best Wishes

    Simon

    P.s You don’t have to fight cancer, the cancer and patient are the same thing
    you just have do understand it x

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 05, 2011 @ 20:22:31

      Thanks Simon – you’re not interfering at all – I’m thinking of heading to Hippocrates in the New Year – I’m also consulting a herbalist out in Oxford called Michael McIntyre in the coming weeks. Thank you for all you advice x

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  53. Michaela
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 14:16:33

    Dear Ellie
    I’m a 41 year old mother of two young children & like your good self, have metastatic breast cancer which is progressing despite treatment. I’m about to try mistletoe therapy so I will let you know if it’s any good.
    Anyhow, I just wanted to say you are in my thoughts and you are by no means alone, there are lots of us out there. Stay strong and remember, do your best, no-one can ask more than that from you.
    Best of luck with it all
    Much love & huge hugs
    Michaela

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  54. Barbara Malinowska
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 14:39:17

    Hi Ellie,
    I came across your blog through my friend Kim and since then I’ve been following your story.
    I just wanted to say that I am really sorry to hear about your latest development, I think you are amazing and so is your writing!
    Keep fighting, that’s THE ONLY way forward! You are in my thoughts and prayers…

    Love to you and Tom,
    Barbara xxx

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  55. Charlotte
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 14:47:50

    Please keep fighting, i have been reading your blog for the last couple of weeks. You are an amazing person please dont lose hope my thoughts and prayers are will you x

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  56. Louisa
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 17:22:14

    Hi Ellie,

    We only met once – when I was working at Westminster one day. I came across your beautifully written blog when a mutual acquaintance told me about it. After reading today’s post I just wanted to say I think you’re an incredible person. You can do it.

    Louisa x

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  57. Iain macgregor
    Nov 04, 2011 @ 23:59:04

    Hi Ellie
    Ive never commented before but i read your blog with probably more interest than most,i have the same cancer you see,well not primary but spread to my bones (spine,arm,pelvis,shoulder),ive had chemo but it didnt work and then
    Radiotherapy because of the pain in my hip and shoulder,im still hobbling around on 1 crutch(cant use 1 arm now due to titanium rod inserted because of cancer),anyway ellie what im trying to say is that the most important thing is that we are still here and still fighting and your an absolute inspiration to me,every time you write in your blog you could be writing about me,im really praying for you ellie and i hope to god you and i get better at the same time.

    Love iain macgregor

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 05, 2011 @ 10:42:48

      Thank you for your message Iain. It’s hard not to feel completely riddled with this disease at the moment but you are so right – for the moment my body is still winning. I still wake up in the morning, still get about, have no problems breathing and eating. It’s just tough to know I’m not in control at the moment. I’m hoping once the radio is out of the way and they put me on a news drug I can feel like I’m at least involved in getting better. Cancer really is the biggest shitter ever! I pray for your recovery too and to know the blog has been of some help really lifts my spirits – we’re STILL here – long may it continue xx

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  58. feistybluegecko
    Nov 05, 2011 @ 09:28:59

    I’m sending you love and strength. Thanks for sharing your updates, tough as they are – it truly sucks. I’m willing the rads to stall the cells in their tracks and for you to be feeling better, both physically and emotionally.
    Big hugs
    P xoxox

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  59. Paula
    Nov 05, 2011 @ 12:29:07

    Hey ellie,
    I have been following your blog since I read about you in a magazine!! You are truly inspiring your strength of character and determination never fails to amaze me, just want to let you know you and Tom are constantly in my thoughts and i send you lots of love and strength! xx

    Paula from northern Ireland

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  60. Anthony McCrossan
    Nov 05, 2011 @ 19:54:20

    Ellie, I haven’t met you but read your blog and am a friend of Orla. Sending you positive thoughts and strength. Anthony

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  61. Amanda
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 00:36:59

    Gutted to read your last 2 entries, so sorry u r feeling poorly Ellie. I’ve never heard such courage as i have reading your blog. Please dont stay in a heap too long (like most of us would) and use all your energy to find that fighter that is in u and has been inspiring each one of us! You can get on top of this honey. You can. Praying for u all. Much love, Amanda xx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 06, 2011 @ 09:40:29

      Hi Amanda, thank you for your kind message. I’m feeling so much better and actually looking forward to starting treatment tomorrow. I have to be grateful that there is still treatment being offered and unlike my old hospital my new team are far from writing me off. xx

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    • Amanda
      Nov 09, 2011 @ 23:49:32

      Hi again Ellie, hope

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  62. Joanne Hooton
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 02:46:56

    Keep going Ellie, after reading your blog I am willing you on so much, you have an amazing fighting spirit I am convinced you can do it, keep proving the pessimists wrong!!! Sending you Lots of Love and hopefully a bit of strength. Joanne, Adelaide, SA. xxx

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  63. David Beadsmore
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 05:56:57

    Hi Ellie,
    I came across your blog as the link was retweeted from Celebrity Juice. Your blog is beautifully written, very honest and open and very moving. Your amazing strength and optimism shines through it is very inspirational.
    So two days after I found your blog, I came across some links which you might find interesting. I hope you don’t mind me posting them on here and as I’m a noob I don’t know if maybe it’s something you’ve already tried, but see what you think.

    http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2007/04/17/health/webmd/main2696726.shtml

    http://www.fasebj.org/content/17/3/529.full

    I found this fascinating and i really hope it will be of use to you.
    Best Wishes, Dave

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 06, 2011 @ 09:47:11

      Thank you for your message Dave and taking the time out to provide the links – very interesting reading! I’m seeing an herbalist after the radiotherapy next week and will definitely pick his brain about this. Ellie xx

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    • Whichypoohs
      Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:48:41

      I’ve also heard that Milk Weed (Petty Spurge) which grows abundantly has also cured skin cancer.

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  64. Kym
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 11:03:42

    Hi Ellie,
    I don’t know you but I know someone who does, and loves you very much although you may not feel it right now. Our Lord Jesus loves you and has a purpose for your life even though you may not know what it is. Some words of encouragement I would like to share are Joshua 1:9 – “Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified or discouraged for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go”. We all have troubles to bear, but it is important to remember, imperative, in fact, that you are not alone. Rest in the knowledge that you have God to turn to, your husband to lean on and friends to support you. Take care Ellie and know that people are praying for you, God Bless. Kym x

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  65. Kym Murray
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 11:14:05

    Hi Ellie,
    You don’t know me but I know someone who does and loves you very much even though you may not feel it right now. Jesus, our Lord and Saviour, has a purpose for your life even if you don’t know what it is, so I would like to offer some words of encouragement. Proverbs 3:5-7 “Trust in the Lord your God and lean not on your own understanding, acknowledge him in all that you do and he will set your paths straight”. Also, Joshua 1:9 ” Be strong and brave, do not be terrified or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go”. Remember, and this is imperative, that you are not alone. You have God to turn to, your husband to lean on and your friends to support you, God Bless you Ellie, Kym x

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  66. unseenflirt
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 12:18:01

    To put it simply, you are a true testament to human spirit.

    Thank you, for your strength, wit and words.

    All the best,

    Jeffrey

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  67. Anna W
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 18:39:12

    Dear Ellie

    My very close friend has terminal cancer and like you amazes others with her tenacity and spirit; she never seems to complain when dealt the cruellest of blows and like you sets milestones to achieve. I truly hope that you get well soon. I too am getting married next June to lets make a pact to share photos after our weddings. You can do this. Good luck tomorrow. xxx

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  68. Jane Merritt
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 19:59:44

    Hiya, I’ve never left a comment before but I just wanted to say how much I’m thinking off you and what you must be going. Wishing you lots of love and don’t give up hope – you are so brave you are an inspiration

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  69. Andy Petrou
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 22:12:34

    Dear Ellie, I met Tom randomly when I bought Spencer’s Chasing the 80s book a few years ago. Tom went on to film an interview I did with one of the Goonies cast for me – he’s a very sweet guy!! I just want you to know that I think you’re an incredibly strong and brave woman. I’ve read your blog and been blown away by your courage and strength through this nightmare. You have all the determination, gusto and spirit to beat this bastard C into oblivion. I know it’s corny as hell, and that this happens to be my favourite flick, but I love the motto that Goonies never say die, so please stay strong as you face this next chapter. You have so much to look forward to and all the love and positive energy and good thoughts are coming at you from this here Goonie too. Stay strong, always!! Andy xxxx ps – I live in Brixton too, so if you ever fancy a movie session to help take your mind off things, let me know xx

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  70. Shane
    Nov 06, 2011 @ 23:38:18

    Very best of luck to you – I hope things turn a corner and things improve..

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  71. Rachel
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 01:08:28

    Much love and many prayers being sent your way Ellie. Have only just read this latest blogg and really do think you need to be given a break (big time) but with your fighting spirit I know you will face this hurdle with gritt and determination as you always do. You are an inspiration.xxx

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  72. Jo
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 01:21:08

    Hi Ellie,

    You don’t know me, but I came across your blog, and just wanted to tell you that I think you’re a very brave lady. Don’t give up – there is always hope.

    I’m a writer too, but I do a lot of work with alternative and complimentary therapies on the side. I realise this route isn’t for everyone, but I do treat a lot of cancer patients (successfully – wouldn’t be much point otherwise!). I’d be more than happy to offer suggestions if you’d be interested. I think you’ll have got my email address……or I can easily be googled……

    Do please ignore this if you’re not interested – I just didn’t want to not offer. My very best wishes to you.

    Jo x

    If not, feel free to ignore this completely!

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 16:39:16

      Hi Jo – I’ll be writing you an email this afternoon – I’m really keen to try as much alternative therapy as possible and would love to get your advice. Thank you x

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    • Ali
      Nov 10, 2011 @ 19:32:13

      On a similar note to Jo, here is a website that may be of interest http://www.yogabear.org/

      Please try and keep positive and absorb all the love and well wishes coming your way.

      Thinking of you and sending positive vibes out there for you.

      x x

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  73. Emma
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 11:25:19

    Hiya Ellie
    I also used to work at Sky News a few years ago and we know lots of the same people (altho I don’t think we were there at the same time – I moved to Sky Sports in 2007?). I found out about your blog from Orla’s Facebook page. I just wanted to say you are doing amazingly and your writing is a complete inspiration. I also wanted to share a little story that I hope will give you some strength. My dad was diagnosed with bowel cancer when I was 15. It spread to his liver and lungs and he also developed a second cancer in his prostate. He was written off by doctors on more than one occasion, told he wouldn’t survive operations, his body couldn’t handle chemo and basically all they could do was make him more comfortable. He did survive the multiple operations, he did handle the chemo and radio, and his positive attitude and refusal to be beaten meant he lived for nearly 10 years after the first tumour was found. He was able to see me through school, graduate from uni and eventually get my job at Sky – all things he was told he wouldn’t see – because he was so determined not to let this bastard illness get him. Your attitude reminds me of his – and he was a lot older and not as initially healthy as you were when you were diagnosed, so while he lived for nearly 10 years – I know you can live much much longer hon, we all believe in you
    Lots of love and hugs and huge luck with this next round of treatment
    Emma xxx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 16:41:38

      Thank you for your kind message Emma – it’s stories like your dad’s that really give me the boost I need and also the reminder that cancer is so unpredictable that no one should write anyone off. Thank you for taking the time out to share his and your story with me, Ellie xxx

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  74. Steve, Clapham
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 12:09:26

    “I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.”

    Just a reminder of the time God spoke to you in that little village church in cornwall.

    He created the he loves you, and he’s more than capable of he’s more than capable of kicking the ass of some cancerous cells.

    He’s got your back (and brain, breasts, bones etc etc).

    Ellie – praying for complete healing, marriage, babies, and old age for you – in Jesus name. Amen!

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    • Steve, Clapham
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 12:13:21

      Disastrous middle line there. Meant to say….

      “He created you and loves you, and he’s more than capable of kicking the ass of some cancerous cells.”

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 16:43:25

      As always Steve thank you for your kind, encouraging and comforting message. I am now finding my way to taking this next challenge on and am so grateful to feel Im now being looked after by the best team possible. Onwards and upwards! x

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  75. Melissa
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 13:20:42

    Dear Ellie – I am a friend of Chrissa’s who passed your blog onto me. I read it without stopping – so beautifully written and heartfelt. I have had three family members diagnosed this past few years and your story has struck quite a chord. I don’t suppose I have words that will work their way into resolving the pain and suffering you are experiencing, but know that another stranger’s thoughts are with you and that I am sending all the positive vibes I can your way.
    I also wanted to tell you about a friend of mine, who was diagnosed in her 20s. She went into remission and then it returned. In a nutshell it was a hell of a battle but she defied the odds and today has two children. Don’t stop believing. Take the love of your dearest Tom, brother, family and friends and all of us strangers and use and abuse it to get you through every moment finding the strength you need to believe and to hope. You will get there. With hearfelt love, Melissa.

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  76. Melissa
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 13:22:07

    Dear Ellie – I am a friend of Chrissa’s who passed your blog onto me. I read it without stopping – so beautifully written and heartfelt. I have had three family members diagnosed this past few years and your story has struck quite a chord. I don’t suppose I have words that will work their way into resolving the pain and suffering you are experiencing, but know that another stranger’s thoughts are with you and that I am sending all the positive vibes I can your way.
    I also wanted to tell you about a friend of mine, who was diagnosed in her 20s. She went into remission and then it returned. In a nutshell it was a hell of a battle but she defied the odds and today has two children. Don’t stop believing. Take the love of your dearest Tom, brother, family and friends and all of us strangers and use and abuse it to get you through every moment finding the strength you need to believe and to hope. You will get there. With heartfelt love, Melissa.

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  77. Jo Dixon
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 14:00:35

    Hi Ellie,
    We’ve only met once, a few years ago at Glastonbury. Back then I thought you seemed like a lovely girl. Having heard your story and read your blog (I was directed here by a mutual friend) I now have to say you are not only a lovely girl, but a totally amazing person. I’ve thought about you lots since I started reading your blog and wanted to leave a comment but couldn’t really think of anything adequate to say. Its quite obvious from the comments left on this blog you have a world of support behind you and I’m sure that all the people close to you will help pick you up from this latest blow and continue to fight against this horrible disease. I don’t think I know anyone who would be so motivated and driven as you are to beat this – you really are inspirational and put to shame those of us who take what we have for granted. Keep it up Ellie, you can do it! Lots of Love xx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 16:46:00

      Thank you Jo – I’m starting radiotherapy this week and feel ready to take on this next hurdle. The support from people like you on the blog makes every difference xx

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  78. Michelle
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 17:24:22

    You have more people pulling for you than you know. Keep up the good fight! While you may not have full control of the situation, you have absolute power over your mind and heart. Keep them safe. And I really, really hope you have asked your doctor about Parp inhibitors. Pulling for you…

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 17:45:14

      Hi Michelle – you’re the second person to mention parp inhibitors to me today – I’ll mention to Prof Hope when I see him next week. Not sure if they want to try me on a tried and tested chemo before the trials but I’ll definitely mention it to him. Thank you x

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  79. JulieGW (@Go1dfinch)
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 17:44:45

    Hi Ellie, you don’t know me I’ve been following you on Twitter. Just wanted to say thank you for your inspirational words. My friend’s brother has been diagnosed with terminal bowel cancer and, like you, he suffered negativity from his consultant. Your blog has given him the strength to look for alternative therapies and I thank you for that. Good Luck in your journey, you’re amazing. xx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 17:56:22

      Thanks for getting in touch Julie. If there’s one thing I hope to achieve with this bog it is to highlight the difference in care that is out there and I feel that It is our right to get the best care available to us. This is too big a deal not to give it your best shot and that means being able to trust in your doctors. I feel 100% happier with my new team – I hope your friend’s brother finds someone who has his best interests at heart. And as for alternative therapies I’m embracing them along with the conventional meds. Wishing him all the luck in the world xx

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  80. Lou
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 20:55:13

    Hey Ellie, can’t tell you how sorry I was to hey ellie, i was so sorry to hear your news. You have faced each challenge with such bravery and can’t believe what you are having to go through. All my thoughts and prayers are with you. Never lose the tenacious spirit that you have shown throughout. Take each day at a time and I hope you are able to take strength from the many people that love and care for you.lou x

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 07, 2011 @ 21:52:11

      Thanks Lou – I’m coming to terms with the new situation and had a really good chat with the radiotherapy consultant today. She was very positive and said all over brain radiotherapy is the best option and it doesn’t mean that in the future gamma-knife would be ruled out. She thought that all over brain radio would also open up the blood-brain barrier and so hopefully future chemo would be more effective. I was due to start today but it’s been delayed until Wednesday – just want to get started now. xxx

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      • Lou
        Nov 13, 2011 @ 22:41:28

        Hi el, what the cons said sounds really positive. Hope you have tolerated the first couple days of treatment. Read some of the comments left on your blog and you clearly are a massive source of inspiration. Hopefully some if the links others have left are proving useful too. Good luck for the rest of the course of radio and all the sandersons send you lots of love! Lou ( pips Sis) xxx

  81. Ellie Livingstone
    Nov 07, 2011 @ 23:20:56

    Dear Ellie,
    You are amazing! I get so angry that you have to go through this. I know there will be good news again but this last bit seems like a real slap in the face. I just wanted to send you my love, I know Tom and you are so stong but I hope soon that you both won’t have to be. See you soon. xxxx

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 08, 2011 @ 10:48:38

      Thanks Ellie. We’re getting there – just want to get this treatment out of the way and hopefully get on a new drug that can kick the cancer back into touch! Would be lovely to see you, Mike and the little one before Christmas, sending love xxx

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  82. Alex
    Nov 08, 2011 @ 00:19:58

    Hello Ellie

    You did nothing wrong in a former life, I think the cancer is just pissed off that in spite of everything it does, you still manage to look gorgeous.
    Please continue to kick it’s ass and write about it. Your blog is always a joy to read, even when the news is totally sh*t.
    I honestly don’t know how you do it, but you do it with wonderful style!

    A x

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  83. Ximena
    Nov 08, 2011 @ 12:11:13

    You.can.do.it.. I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you for Wednesday and for however long it takes. I know it has been said by so many people but it can’t hurt to say it again, you are an inspiration to us all.x

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  84. Leion Forry
    Nov 08, 2011 @ 12:49:45

    Well Ellie the big C didn’t know what they were taking on when they took you on!
    What a strong woman you are and anyone that has read your blog or article in Grazia can only admire your grit determination that you and Tom have shown even in what you feel are your weaker moments!
    How lucky you are to have each other, and how fortunate we are to be part of your fight. Just know that you are not alone and that there are people out there are willing you beat this and that are thinking only good thoughts to help you in your fight.
    Kindest thoughts
    Leion

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  85. Clare
    Nov 08, 2011 @ 17:19:09

    This latest news is so unfair but given time, I know you will find the energy to beat this.

    Sadly, the road we are on is a long one and we are going to get these ‘humps’ along the way. Yes, it’s a challenge (and a real shitty one at that) but in the days and weeks to come, you’ll find the strength.

    You are both never far from my thoughts

    Clare x

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Nov 08, 2011 @ 21:28:09

      Thank you Clare – we’re getting there! xx

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      • Clare
        Nov 09, 2011 @ 00:20:46

        I don’t know how true this is but I read somewhere that if a large group of people think/will the same thing at the same time that the power of positive thought can make a difference. Apparently there are recorded instances of this happening!! Not sure but anythings got to be worth a try ;o)

  86. Louise brant
    Nov 08, 2011 @ 21:10:52

    Dear Ellie, I recently read your journey in grazia, I just wanted to say I will be praying for you, sending you lots of love & that you will find some peace as you go through the next few days x x x louise

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  87. ladyleftfieldlover
    Nov 09, 2011 @ 17:26:44

    I really hope that you’ve had a good day today .

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  88. J Ingrid Stage Jakobsen
    Nov 09, 2011 @ 20:39:38

    Hi Ellie,
    So sorry to hear the bad news. I am thinking of you and sending you all my warmest thought- I wish you every strength for this next bout of radiotherapy. If anyone can do this it is you! xx Ingrid
    Ps:You haven’t done anything bad in a previous life.

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  89. Fiona Mackie
    Nov 09, 2011 @ 20:41:09

    Just catching up with your latest posts and felt compelled to drop another message.

    I too, like many of your followers, think about you often, despite not knowing you. I frowned and sighed at my screen, as I read about the latest hurdles that have popped up, but will come back next week, hoping that you’re getting over them. Virtual hugs and constant best wishes being channelled in the meantime.

    Fiona x

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  90. Sally
    Nov 09, 2011 @ 22:56:25

    Ever since I first read your blog I haven’t been able to get you out of my mind and I bet MANY others will say exactly the same. Part of me doesn’t want to read your blog. It’s disturbing and upsetting reading what you are going through and it would be so much easier to turn away, after all I don’t know you. But a stronger part of me says we OWE it to you to read on. Your blog is so honest and touching and one day ‘C’ will happen to us or someone we love, if it hasn’t already. We HAVE to face it. The comments on your blog make it obvious how much you have touched peoples hearts and I hope you know we are all thinking of you and praying for you Ellie. If you can find the energy, please set up a justgiving.com page. I will donate to the cause of your choice, and I am sure hundreds if not thousands of other readers of your blog would do the same. Yes, we could just donate to cancer research, but I want to donate in your name! (If you want someone to help, just shout. I would be humbled to do it for you if you are not feeling well enough at the moment.)
    Thinking of you always Ellie…..just hang in there! And I bet you didn’t do anything shitty in a former life, probably on the contrary!!
    Love from….. a stranger, Sally

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  91. Lynne
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 04:30:54

    Dear Ellie,
    I’ve just read your story in the Daily Mail. I have a dear friend who is going through lung cancer (she’s only in her early 30s!) and after lots of surgeries, rounds of chemo, blah, blah, blah—she’s still kicking cancer’s ass! I could go on and on (but I’ll spare you that!). However, I know too many people who have fought this tough battle and won. Good for you and your dear Tom for making plans—I look forward to following your adventures via Twitter. In the meantime, know that I am praying for you both and sending you all good wishes from chilly Canada.

    P.S. There is a charity bracelet here that bears the eloquent and inspirational quote:”Fuck Cancer”. Sorry for the swearing, but I’ll bet you’re doing just that!

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  92. Louise
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 04:39:40

    I have only one thing to say fight, fight, fight! Look up Jayne Tomlinson on the Internet, she was from Leeds, West Yorkshire and the doctors gave her so much time (breast cancer too) and she proved them wrong – she lived years longer than the doctors said. It ain’t over until the fat lady sings and I will go around and gag every last one for you :) Good luck with your fight!

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  93. Paul
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 04:43:47

    Hi Ellie,
    I’m just a random passerby who saw your story on a newspaper but for what it’s worth I just wanted to say that you are an amazing person and if I was in your shoes I hope I would show half the strength and courage you have! Keep fighting the fight and I know it’s been 7 days since your last post but chin up from what I’ve read about you if anyone can beat this it’s you!

    All the best Paul, Bradford x

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  94. Yuting Zee
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 05:01:16

    Hi Ellie,

    Stay strong!

    Yuting from Singapore

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  95. sassie83
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 05:02:37

    Hi Ellie

    I read your amazing story on the internet all the way in australia. I just think you are so amazing! Living life to the full! Thinking of you and praying for you.

    xx

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  96. Andres Eduardo
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 05:02:46

    My name is andres im 18, and i am from venezuela, i just read an article about you from dailymail, and decided to read your blog. My moms best friend passed away for cancer so she felt very emotional reading your blog. You are truly a fighter and an inspiration for us, i wish the best luck in the world and i hope god stands by your side and gives you more time to share with Tom and your family.
    me and my brother and sister will pray for you. Live life to the fullest always! xo

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  97. KOB
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 05:02:49

    http://brainmetsbc.org/en/content/support-and-stories-0
    Here is a site if you haven’t seen it. Hope you are hanging in there.

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  98. Connie, Brisbane
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 05:11:32

    Oh Ellie…..the Daily Mail brought me to your site and it has made me cry. I cannot think of anything ‘fabulous’ to say. Your strength truely humbles me. Sometimes life really stinks. I’m sending you happy thoughts and I hope you get some news in the weeks ahead that is better than bad. Everyone deserves a break eh girl?

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  99. Kristin
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 05:56:32

    I love Claire’s idea above of all your readers thinking positive thoughts for you on Wednesday for your radiotherapy session…I will be sending positive vibes all day for you.

    Thank you for sharing your experience with us. It helps us undersand, and break down that uncomfortable silence that can exist when someone we know has C and we don’t know how to respond.

    I am a true believer in attitude and positivity, and visualizing health and a gorgeous, remissioned body for that wedding dress. Keep seeing yourself walk down that aisle and you will do it, sister.

    Love from Melbourne

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  100. Corina
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 06:22:07

    Hi Ellie,

    Read your story on the daily mail website, I will be be saying a little prayer for you from Australia and hoping that you have the strength to keep fighting. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

    Corina

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  101. barry
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 07:14:41

    Your partner is very lucky to have you. You are an incredible woman. Carry on fighting.

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  102. Tom Stembridge
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 07:16:17

    Ellie, You’re clearly awesome.

    Everyone will be smiling with you…and we already know you’re going to nail this. I’m absolutely in awe of your bravery…you are something else. Tom sounds like a proper legend so I have no doubt you are in good hands.

    When you have some rough moments, we are right beside you..and know that you are far more a bad ass that any pain that will attempt to best you. You’ll be better, that’s just a fact.

    Stay strong. Tom x (rock or cena?)

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  103. Di Georgiou
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 07:25:22

    Hi there, hoping that you get to read this, have you not tried alternative cure’s? I also have cancer and decided not to have chemo etc, I have been researching natural medicine for meany yrs before i was told of my illness, did you know that 90% of Dr’s would never touch the stuff if them or a family member had cancer!!, Please look into the Gerson therapy, Oil protein diet and Essiac, to name a few, ppl who were told they only have weeks to live have made a full recovery! The medical profession will never tell you about these therapies they tell they dont work etc, go on to youtube there is load of info. I had stage 3 breast cancer i took two tumors out myself with a salve called bloodroot, i’ve had Ozone therapy and these last few weeks i’ve been taking Essiac tincture, its killing the cancer and bringing my immune system up! chemo kills the immune system and all other good cells in the body!, pls pls don’t give up!
    God Bless
    digeorgiou.dietandnutrition@gmail.com

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  104. Nele
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 07:29:20

    Dear Ellie,

    You dont know me, I came across your blog via the DM. I am very sorry to read the latest news, I was hoping after reading the DM article you would be on your way up. I wish you al lot of strength and courage to keep on fighting. Fight like hell Ellie, the fight is worth it, dig deep and please keep it up!

    Dear Tom, as many may have said before, you must be an amazing man!

    All the best to the both of you all the way from China! x

    ps. I agree with Julie Ingrid Stage Jakobsen, you havent done anything bad in a previous life.

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  105. Catherine
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 07:56:55

    I have cancer too – newly diagnosed – and I can totally relate to what you are saying. My fiance and I are also planning a June 2012 wedding.

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  106. Nicola
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 08:38:40

    Ellie, you are so very strong. I could not possibly imagine how it feels to be in your shoes right now, but i do believe that you can psychologically demand to be the upper hand of this C. A very close family friend had breast and bone C, was told she had 6 months Max but beat it for 6 years. Cry when you need to, shout, scream but keep and smug thought that you can get past this and you will walk down that aisle to your lovely man in June. Keep going chick xxx

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  107. Krystyna Hellström
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 08:50:26

    Dear Eleonor,
    pls contact dr Tullio Simoncini (in English), Youtube, Google, http://www.davidicke.com
    he is an oncologist and treats cancer differently
    he had many successfull recoveries
    I don’t know if it is not to late, but what do you have to loose?
    Also check out Jim Humble (on project Camelot/Avalon)
    There is also an Australian doctor who treats cancer with different methods
    but I have forgotten his name, I’ll try to find it and send it to you
    there is a long conference with him on Youtube
    Pls don’t give up!!

    Best wishes
    Krystyna

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  108. Julie Brooks
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:02:28

    Just read your story in the DM and it inspired me to read your blog. Not sure what I can say that hasn’t been said already but you truly are an inspiration and i hope that, should I be in your situation, I would handle it with such courage and grace as you have.

    I hope the treatment is going well and you get some positive news.

    I’m sending you as many positive thoughts as I can muster!!

    jules xxx

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  109. lesley
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:11:04

    Hey Ellie – Can you message me we produce Clinical Grade Omega 3 EPA which is the only treatment for cancer malnutrition/ and helps re the weightloss a dose of around 1800mg is required – I would like to send you some – this is fully verifiable in the science journals – it also has other applications with regards Cancer and is believed to enhance radiotherapy treatment – we do supply to NHS and private clinics for a number of conditions up here in Scotland andLondon.. We never seek publicity re this .
    I really hope you stay strong lesley

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  110. Sarah
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:17:05

    My thoughts are with u. U r an incredibly strong girl from what I have read. And u will find the strength again to fight this next step.
    My mother and sister both have breast cancer. My mother for 20 years and continual treatment during that time. Anything is possible. Just stay as strong as u can and u will find the strength to fight the horrid disease. My thoughts n prayers r with u xx

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  111. Caroline De Brun
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:19:49

    I have just read your story in the Daily Mail, and I am so sorry that you are going through all this. You seem like a wonderful couple and both so brave. I wish I had a cure for you, but I don’t, but I can see that you have a huge bunch of supporters behind you, including me, and that you and your fiance have a tremendous amount of courage. Together you sound like a winning team. I am glad that you are fighting this. We are all behind you and wishing you better health so that you can have the wonderful wedding you are planning. Take care and good luck.

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  112. Nikki
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:20:16

    I read your article in the daily mail this morning and was inspired by your courage and bravery. Naturally I came to read your blog and see that you are coping with some added hurdles on your fight. Just keep getting through one day at a time and keep believing. Wishing you all the love, peace and tranquility in the world and looking forward to seeing those wedding pictures next year. Nikki X

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  113. alex low
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:21:15

    hi ellie,
    just read ur article at the daily mail website. though i don’t know u personally, i hope all the best will come ur way. have faith…
    rgds,
    alex

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  114. Aele Jacobs
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:23:02

    http://quietviolet.typepad.com/

    Have a look at this blog :)
    It’s about a 3 or 4 time cancer survivor who got married and just had a little baby boy and is around the same age as you.
    I think you’ll like it :)

    Looking forward to reading about your wedding :)

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  115. Nikki
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:35:08

    I’ve just stumbled across your blog and your story… I just want to say Ellie, you are an amazing young woman. I’m heartbroken for you. God bless you, if ever anyone needed a miracle, I pray you get it.

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  116. sarahdiggins
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:41:25

    I am so sorry for what you are going through but you need to know that cancer is not a death sentence. I have witnessed people with cancer being healed and healing themselves through following an alkaline diet. Cancer is the body’s immune system response to excess acidity – it is a protection mechanism that gets out of hand if acidity is not kept in balance. Cancer cannot survive in an alkaline diet – it needs sugars to feed and removes these first from your food (which is why cancer sufferers are often so thin). There are many people who can help you with this – it is NOT too late. Do NOT give up. Start now by removing all sugar from your diet. No meat, coffee, artificial anythings. Switch to a mainly raw vegan diet – lots and lots of green vegetables and freshly squeezed lemons. Stay oxygenated (move around), get natural sunlight on your body (sunbathe without chemicals) so you get Vitamin D which is a fantastic way of boosting your immune system. Drink alkaline water (use a jug filter or add pH drops) and keep your diet clean and alkaline forming. Drink lots of green vegetable juices – the best by far is broccoli sprouts juice or broccoli juice that contains SGS that has been proven to slow down tumour growth (John Hopkins Institute). Get a live blood test done now and then in a weeks’ time and you will see the fungus in your body has gone and your blood is starting to clean up. There are also cancer protocols you can follow using mineral supplements. Please contact me if you want more help – I do not wish to sell you anything; I am a healer wanting to help. With love and light, Sarah x

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    • Di Georgiou
      Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:10:35

      Hi Sarah, good post, i’m also eating a more alkaline diet as well as taking Essiac tincture and its working, after having stage 3 breast cancer as well as other problems i’ve almost won the battle with cancer, i just wish more ppl would look into alternative treatments! and shame on the medical world for not allowing the treatments to be known, chemo and radiation are just poison for our bodies, if you look at it our bodies are 100% organic so why put chemicals in it, we have the means to heal ourselves! Elli pls watch Dr Burzynki, the forgotten cures, food matters, the cancer report to name a few. xx

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  117. susie kroon
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:44:09

    Hi! Ellie, I was really sad to read your blog. I am a pentecostal christian. I’m not sure what faith you belong to. But have you tried going to a christian healing service? The Lord has healed me many times, and I have shared my testimony in church before the entire congregation. I will pray for a miracle of healing for you. All things are possible with God. Do take care and God Bless!
    Susie

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  118. Margaret (Glasgow)
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:50:16

    What an incredible inspirational woman you are. You should be VERY proud of yourself the way you are dealing with this.

    Your partner obviously adores you and loves you with all his heart and I pray that you have a wonderful wedding. I will keep reading on your progress

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  119. susie kroon
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:50:35

    Hi! Ellie, If you want me to call you and pray for you over the phone, do let me know. I would love to pray with you. I live overseas, but that’s not a problem ! But please send me an email, with your contact details if you want me to call. I also have a skype account. God Bless! Susie

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  120. Niall
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:50:37

    Ellie,

    I just read your article in the paper. You and your fiancee make a very pretty couple! You are a fantastic writer by the way. You are going to be fine, I can feel it…and I am never wrong! EVER! Your spirit jumps out from your words and your image aswell. You are going to be okay, there is no other way to describe how sure I am of this other than to say I can feel it like a force of life. You’re going to be okay. I am 100% sure. I look forward to reading the best selling book you will write when you have beaten this.

    Best wishes from Dublin!

    Niall :)

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  121. Celestè Steyl
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:54:28

    You sound like an amazing person who has been put on this earth to inspire people!
    I can imagine that it is not always easy but with Tom by your side you know you can get through it!
    Just keep thinking positive thoughts about the wedding and the amazing honeymoon you will get to enjoy…nothing like a bit of self motivation to pick you up :)

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  122. Michelle Carew
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:55:19

    I just wanted to say, bloody hell you are one brave, strong, inspirational woman! The fact that this shitty disease has you in its grip is just so unfair, but reading your blog has me laughing, crying & gasping in equal measure. I imagine were I in your position I’d want to crawl into a hole & cry but you are dealing with this with pure honesty & dignity. Thank you for sharing such a personal experience please know that so many people have you & Tom in our thoughts and (for what it’s worth) prayers. Much love xxxxx

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  123. adriana
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 09:57:39

    I am so so sorry to hear that Ellie:( I wish I could be there to give you a big BIG hug. Don’t think that you’ve done something shitty,to deserve this.This is just the way life is,sometimes bad things just happen to good people.
    Please do not give up Ellie,eventhough you sometimes might feel like it.
    Cry when you have to,scream when you want to. And whenever you feel cold & weak just search for warmth& strenght in the ones who love you.
    You’re not alone in this,we’re all here with you & we are all praying for you!

    Take it one day at a time sweetie,you’ll get there.

    **Feel the struggle,but don’t give up the fight**

    xoxo,Adriana from Aruba

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  124. Samantha
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:09:48

    Ellie

    You have given me a great gift this morning .
    I’ve realised the battles I face today are insignificant . I wanted to thank you from the heart for that .

    You are in my prayers , keep fighting , keep smiling xx

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  125. Lawrence
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:11:48

    Hi Eleanor

    There are a number of cancer treatments that work, however they are hidden from the mainstream media. Take a look at Bill O’learys blog which shows that he cured his cancer using black salve, there are pictures showing the tumour at the start and finish with him being free of cancer. The same treatment is available as a black tonic for internal cancers.
    http://billolearyphuket.com/ArticleView.asp?ArticleID=33

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  126. Lawrence
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:16:56

    Hi Eleanor

    For testimonials on real cases, you should watch the video “One answer to Cancer” If you would like a free copy please say where it should be sent

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  127. Lize
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:28:40

    Your story is one of bravery and true love, all the best to you and Tom.
    Regards
    Lize
    South Africa

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  128. Gen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:33:25

    You, Tom and your family are an inspiration. I just know that you will beat this and yours will be the film with the happy ending. Keep fighting x

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  129. Zeenat
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 10:53:01

    I have just been reading the article on the Daily Mail and can only say my heart goes out to you and Tom. It is a long road ahead with treatment but may God give you the strength to get through it.
    The wedding will be something to look forward to and God willing you will see the day. You have such a great guy by your side so it will be a dream come true for you both to see that day.
    Keep the fight going and love and support from all of us here in Dubai.

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  130. James
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:09:32

    Hi Ellie.

    Have you come across Monoclonal Antibodies, Gerson Therapy and Avemar (a fermented wheat germ supplement), all of which have had superb testimonials? You’ve probably looked into all three, but it’s worth pointing out just in case. There are so many ways now to fight cancer and it is so important not to regard it as a death sentence, but to rather equip the body to self-repair.

    The only way I get through this current life is seeing beyond present struggles to a wonderful life in God’s Kingdom, knowing that if the Creator has the supreme, mind-blowing intelligence and power to create such a wondrous world, then he would also have the sense and ability to leave humanity with all the information needed for us to seek him and have indescribably wonderful hope beyond the here and now, “When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: ‘Death has been swallowed up in victory.’”

    Sending warm thoughts and wishes your way. Keep strong, keep focussed.

    Kind regards,
    James

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  131. Kate
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:12:04

    Ellie,

    We are many miles away on the other side of the world, but your story is very close to our hearts. Sending our love to you and Tom and many congrats on upcoming wedding – I attended a wedding in a lovely castle in North Yorkshire some years ago and it was utterly charming!

    ox Kate, Steve, Tom and Lola (Adelaide, S.Aust.)

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  132. julia
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:25:37

    Hi Ellie,

    You are doing incredibly well and being so strong. Your writing is brilliant and incredibly moving. Keep going. Sending you lots of love and looking forward to hearing more about the wedding planning too along the way.
    Julia (you may remember me from very long overnights on the Sky newsdesk back in the day) xxx

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  133. Jo
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:29:38

    I have just read your article on the DM website. I wish I had a magic wand for you both. Stay strong and keep fighting! good luck with your wedding :)

    Xx

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  134. Jennifer Dawson
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:35:16

    Dear Ellie … I have just read your story on the Daily Mail. You are truly inspirational and courageous and I wish you every bit of good luck because you certainly deserve it. I know that you will be there at your wedding because you will will it. And who knows what will happen after that? As a nurse in the hospice I have seen a lot of suffering. I have also seen many miracles. Doctors do not know everything. Believe in yourself and your own power to heal. I remember one patient whose body was riddled with cancer. Some time later the cancer had disappeare completely. There were no explanations for it except his sheer willpower to hang in there. I am not offering you false hopes … just saying that anything is possible. Best Wishes.

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  135. alison
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:37:05

    Hi Ellie and Tom…….I just wanted to wish you the best of luck for the future, you really are inspiring to me, and im sure to thousands of other people.
    I have a lovely friend who has been battling bone cancer since the age of 14…..she is now 19 and expecting her first baby! She has shit days and good days but most importantly she is adamant that this cancer will not get the best of her, and whatever happens we will know that she fought her hardest.
    Thinking of you, lots of love xx

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  136. Whichypoohs
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:39:39

    All my prayers and LOVE to you and Tom. x

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  137. Natalie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:45:50

    Sending BIG {{{{{{{{{{ANGEL HUGZ]]]]]]]]]]

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  138. Kitty
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:46:44

    Dear Ellie,

    Even as a total stranger to you, I think you are a true inspiration. Your story has touched me, and I am honestly heartbroken to hear what you are going through, it is horrendous that somebody so young and vibrant should have to endure this terrible illness. I wish that I could offer some form of medical advice but i really can’t, so I am simply hoping that my positive thinking and hoping will in some way help you through this, knowing that people like me who have never even met you are rooting for you.

    I hope and pray that you continue to be as strong as you have been so far- you CAN beat this, and with the love and support of your friends and family and your tireless hope and optimism I am certain that you will. Wishing you all the very best of luck with the wedding preparations, and congratulations to you and Tom. It sounds like you have a very special and beautiful relationship and I wish you both every happiness.

    Thinking of you in my thoughts and prayers,

    Kitty

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  139. Ramila
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:49:35

    Hi,
    I came across your story through the Daily Mail. I cannot imagine what I’d do if I was in the same situation you’re in. I really hope you’ll manage to get the wedding you want, and spend loads of time with your man and friends and family. I wish you the best and send you as much positive energy as I can from Paris, France :) Hope you’ll get the chance to have a perfect honeymoon in an idyllic place :)))

    Stay strong!

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  140. Wendy
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:50:09

    You are so strong and brave, just keep smiling and take each day as it comes. My heart goes out to you and Tom. Keep fighting I am sure you will beat this!

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  141. Philip Weston
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 11:56:01

    We wish you the very best in your battle. My advice is to stick with the medical solutions as these holistic cures are unproven and will just divert precious resources and time. We are thinking of you here in Poland.
    Philip & Elena
    Krakow, Poland

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  142. Lisa Facey
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:00:29

    Hi Ellie

    Just found you and what an amazing person you are. Hope you’ve picked yourself up and dusted yourself off for this next battle. With your strength and Tom at your side you will get through this one too. My thoughts are with you and I’m looking forward to more details of the wedding, I make a mean wedding cake….

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  143. Lisa Poynton
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:01:03

    Dear Ellie

    May I please implore you and all your readers who are interested in this dis-ease to read the Healing Cancer World Summit recap entries (under most recent) that will offer you more than hope. This very recent teleseminar event was held for free over 5 nights, two recognised guest speakers nightly specialising in current cancer treatment protocols including Dr Nicholas Gonzalez, Charlotte Gerson, Dr Francisco Contreras, Dr Leigh Erin Conneally, Dr Thomas Lodi, Dr David Getoff, Mike Adams and Burton Goldberg with positive results research conducted by William Kelly, Dr John Beard and Dr Robert Good, Dr Otto Warburg, Dr Allen Levin, Andreas Moritz, Dr John Cappello. I believe the audios are only available to purchase now but the recaps will offer you highlights of the key points each addressed. Having listened to the sessions myself I was absolutely blown away by the information provided (and I study in this area). Some clinicians differed widely in their approaches (some embraced integration whilst others relied purely on natural therapies so as not to harm the body), but there was a definite common theme throughout: eliminate all drivers by cleansing all energetic systems of impurities whilst building up each system simultaneously. Our entire being works in tandem. The other common denominator is that their results for survival rates will really perk up your interest if nothing else!

    http://renegadehealth.com/blog/
    http://www.oasisofhope.com/patient-survival-statistics.php

    We each need to dig deeper, research farther from the widest field, climb higher in order to educate ourselves to how best we can fuel our mind, body, soul and spirit with what each needs. Only we know our body best and ultimately only we can be responsible for deciding what the best path is for our radiant wellbeing. We in the modern world have lost the ability to connect to what is best for us. We need to trust our instincts, believe and commit to a lifestyle programme which

    If you cannot get these blog entries, please email me on lpinlondon@hotmail.com and I will happily forward my copies to you.

    I wish you all well

    Lisa Poynton

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  144. Laura Roberts
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:03:20

    Like others, I read about you in the Daily Mail and then had to read your blog.
    You are a truly inspirational woman, you have so much courage and strength, please do not let the Cancer win – Keep fighting!
    I lost my Mam far too soon to cancer, I so wish I had explored and questioned more about her diagnosis.
    With love and hope.
    Laura X

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  145. Garry Firth
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:05:06

    Hi Ellie, just read your DM story and your latest blog,I hope you can beat it love,I`ll say a prayer for you and with everyones elses will ,we can help you pull through,you have everyones love helping you.Bless you.xx

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  146. Claire
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:05:56

    Don’t give up please, you are so brave, and you beautiful. My friend has been told the same thing and we are refusing to give up. She is doing the Gerson Therapy, juicing constantly. She has also used Chelation therapy to remove the build up of mercury & aluminium in her system, she’s started improving already. My mums friend was told she was terminal almost 3 years ago. She is doing a mix of the Gerson Therapy with unusual berries and she is amazing the medical teams by shrinking her tumours. sending you lots of poitive vibes xx

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  147. Clare Rowwsome
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:06:18

    You are me… You are my little sister Jane, you are my lifelong best friend Shel.

    That very lame sounding comment only means… As you said, we become hardened (after all there’s only so much tragedy we can bear to absorb in the world), but it was after reading the email to your brother that you pushed my button (of all things?!).

    From the ironic ‘mo fo’, to the ‘lege’, and the infinitely affectionate ‘turd breath’ it was an echo of us, eerily like reading my own notes, emails, texts.

    You are everyone I love… (except the un-awesome ones obviously) and, if love can be worth anything when so far removed (which I hope it can), I love you.

    Clare, 28, Oxford

    P.S. I’m not drunk…. a tad hungover maybe.

    P.P.S. You may already know/watch this but http://www.TED.com. Every morning I watch one lecture (maybe 5 minutes, maybe 15) while putting on some makeup or eating my brekkie. It is the single most life-affirming (and entertaining) thing I have to offer. Just one a day, I promise it’s worth it.

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  148. Helen Foudls
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:06:59

    Hi Ellie, not really sure what to say except keep your head up and try and keep strong. I was diagnosed at 26 with Hodgkins Lymphoma but was lucky enough to react really well to the treatment and am ok now (touch wood) at 29. I really hope that they find something that works for you and that you reach your wedding day – I’m sure you will look amazing. Love to you and your other half, Helen F xx

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  149. Lisa
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:09:18

    Hi Ellie,

    Come across your blog after reading such an inspirational article in the Daily Mail (believe me, its probably the only one!! :P) Good luck with all of your plans and really you are an absolute fighter. Wishing you the best with the treatment.
    Lots of love,
    Lisa X

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  150. Rosie Butler
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:10:00

    Dear Ellen

    I am the mother of a childhood cancer survivor. So many times we have sat with her outside death’s door and so many times she has thumbed her nose at it. Ten years on she loves science, wants to know everything there is to know about the universe, including everything we don’t yet know.

    For all the wonder of moden medicine there is no defining the human spirit. It is truly the unknown – and yet it’s not so unknown for the human spirit lies in within us all – we just forget sometimes to look for it.

    There has to be hope – a reason to lift your head off the pillow, to have the courage to open your eyes to another day. It needn’t be a big reason, a small one will do, moment by moment, tiny step by tiny step.

    As a small child Aimee believed in fairies and wanted with all her heart to be one – fairies dont get sick they have fairy dust that makes them better when they feel sad. Her portait was painted for her by the most amazing fantasy artist Josephine Wall. When Jo asked permission to paint our daughter she told me that when she looked at Aimee she could see small lights around her face – the painting is called Fairy Lights and in the background of her splendid fairy wings Jo has painted her trademade faces – over thirty in all. For me these Fairy Lights around Aimee represent the hundreds supporters and well wishers send her way through ten gruelling years of cancer treatment including two bone marrow transplants.

    As if you were my own child I am holding you close in my heart, my arms around you, whispering this will pass, better days lie ahead

    fairy hugs and kisses

    Rosie Butler

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  151. Natasha kembrey
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:14:38

    Ellie, you are so brave and inspirational. I think that you are so lucky you have Tom to look after you and it’s lovely that you have lots of exciting things to look forward to. I can’t imagine how you must be feeling.. It makes me feel stupid for getting stressed out over stupid little things.
    I would say to you, just think of all the positive things in your life and all those things you have to look forward to next year. You can’t let this get the better of you! Keep strong xxx

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  152. Melissa
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:15:07

    Dear Ellie,
    I hope you don’t mind me adding this post to your blog but your article in The Daily Mail moved me to tears on the train this morning and I have just read your more recent post and I wish with all my heart that you can fight this. No amount of words from loved ones or strangers can change things but I hope they can make you smile and remember that you are not alone. I can only imagine half of what you are going through as I have very recently been treated for breast cancer (mastectomy, chemo and radiotherapy) and I am a similar age to you (32). Cancer is such a cruel and unfair disease and I am praying that you get some good news soon. My father gave me a card which reads “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him …” which was given to him and he carried it in his wallet during his treatment for cancer (which he won) and passed it on to me and I have carried it with me every day during my treatment (and I am not remotely religious!) I hope the words can bring you some meaning. I don’t want to say “stay positive and strong” as I know how much that irritated me when I was at my lowest! You are a beautiful young inspirational woman who sounds very determined and I hope that something good happens for you soon, you deserve it. I wish there was something I could do to change this for you.
    Sending positive thoughts and fighting spirit your way.
    Melissa xx

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  153. Jo, North Yorkshire
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:19:52

    Ellie, you dont know me, I came across your story on the DM website. As a previous cancer sufferer myself I can relate to some of the fears and thoughts that go through your mind. You are the most inspirational and brave lady and I’m totally moved by all the love and support you have on this blog – it makes you realise what wonderful people are in this world. I so hope that you continue getting the treatment you deserve and wish you all the love and luck in the world. Keep fighting xx

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  154. peppaminty
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:21:06

    I have just this minute read your story in the Daily Mail online and I came straight here to follow your blog. I will pray for you both and ask for strength, forgiveness, faith, hope and that your illness be removed. May you continue to be strong together xxx

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  155. Dave
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:24:17

    Thank you for sharing your story. Very inspiring!!

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  156. jay
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:30:23

    God bless you. Be as strong as you can but that’s easy for other people to say when they are not you. I pray for a cure asap.

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  157. Jo
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:35:41

    Dear Ellie – I don’t know you but your story in the Mail has touched me – You are an incredible lady for what you are doing and have given me an understanding to our own situation. Stay strong.

    My husband was diagnosed terminal earlier this year – I am a huge believer in the strength of the human body and we made massive changes to diet and live style as well as taking supplements. Also Apricot kernals. I have been told by at least 5 different people of the amazing power of these – there is an interesting site http://www.anticancerinfo.co.uk/cancer_prevention.html.

    I don’t know if it works – we have no idea what our bodies are doing – but my husbands cancer (advanced Melenoma) has vanished from his scans.

    We are living for the day – currently in Florida with our babies – 10 months and 2 1/2 – something we couldn’t have even dreamt of 6 months ago.

    Enjoy your wedding and sending you the very best wishes. Jo x

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  158. Chicaurbana
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:37:05

    You can do it, remember it out loud in your head and through your mouth: YOU CAN DO IT!

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  159. Harriet
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:41:11

    You’re an inspiration to everyone. Stay strong and keep fighting!

    Thinking of you,

    Harriet x

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  160. sarahdiggins
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:41:33

    To the comment left by Lisa Poynton Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:01:03 – Lisa, so glad you shared this – we must all know that there is a reason why cancer is “supposedly” so hard to treat (by conventional medicine) and why alternative therapies are so successful but not recognised and worse still suppressed or even made illegal. It’s all down to money – there is very little money to be made in non-patentable treatments. Why else would there have been a law passed that made it illegal to say cancer was curable? What a bizarre law – who does it protect? Not those who are suffereing that’s for sure.

    Throughout all of this you can help yourselves not only by alkalising and the wonderful array of healing therapies that have been listed on this site, but also by refusing to see yourselves as the victims – refuse to view yourself as anything other than 100% healthy. Law of Attraction with then guide you to the people, places, therapies that will deliver this result. It will take determination (which you clearly have in abundance) and a change in mind set (but then what do you have to lose?). If you from this day forward see yourself as healed, then your new vibration and your expectation will attract in this healing. You will need to keep alkaline but cancer can often be emotionally triggered (especially secondary cancers) from shock and that emotion resides within your cells creating acidity (stress = acidity) which ironically leads to cancer cells. So to stop the cycle, use EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) that gets deep into the subconsious and helps reverse emotional patterns.

    Sarah x

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    • Lisa Poynton
      Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:25:18

      Thanks Sarah, I echo your words especially pertaining to stress – more damaging to creating acidity within the body than any cheap fast food take-away combo.

      I am in my final year studying naturopathy and nutrition, with medicine forming the foundations and have so much to learn. I feel thankful I am chosen this path because as we are all quickly realising, what becomes of our quality of life if we do not have our health? Amounting a fortune will not save us. Nor will fame. What will it take for us all to address why year on year, decade on decade, Cancers, Heart Diseases, Diabetes Type 2, Obesity, Auto-Immune diseases (amongst many others), have all increased drastically in westernised countries despite the abundance of financing each organisation receives. Cancer is a red flag opportune call that the body needs to change in order that it may continue providing the physical support for your purpose.

      Let’s learn from research provided by studies on long-lived communities like the Okinawans, the Hunzas, the Vilcabambans, the Abkhasians, the Seventh Day Adventists of Loma Linda California, the Barbagia region of Sardinia, the Nicoya Pensinsula of Costa Rica, primitive tribal cultures etc where these illnesses rarely exist. With adaptation, we too can improve our own quality of life, happiness and effortless longevity retaining all perceptive and cognitive faculties.

      I’m hoping Ellie (and all of us presented with any challenge during our lives), can ask herself a very clear, simple and realistic question, one that unfortunately members of my own family failed to register (my B.I.L. was given 3 weeks to live (melanoma metastasised to brain, liver & lung, but passed 12 months later after 4 rounds of chemo, 2 rounds of radiation, and the latest trial drug becoming completely riddled with cancerous tumours)):

      is her current treatment plan really working for her?

      And if not, then why not take another route? What harm can be done by exploring methods used successfully from healing centres, serviced by medical professionals who understand not only how cancerous cells act within a human organism, but also how the body responds electrically and chemically to all inputs and what it naturally requires to return to homeostasis (Tree of Life Rejuvenation Centre, Gerson, Hippocrates, Oasis of Hope, Dr Gonzalez, pHmiracle). Their programmes centre on an individualised treatment plan supporting the system via enzyme therapy, oxygen therapy, detox therapy, green juicing, sprouted grass shots, organic raw sprouted vegan foods, herbalism including the powerful anti-tumour and immune strengthening medicinal mushrooms), personalised supplementation therapies (vitamin C, selenium, antioxidants, tumeric, liver detox herbs etc), far-infrared saunas, lymphatic massage, exfoliation, enemas, rebounding, hiking outdoors daily, swimming, acupuncture. moxa cupping, hands on healing, exercise sweating therapies, dancing, yoga, tai chi, qi gong, prana breathing therapy (all amazing for rejuvenating the blood) and especially laughter therapy, forgiveness therapy, mediation, visualisation, prayer, quality rest and living in the present moment. One course of action will not disable cancer from spreading. Favouring ‘system enhancing’ protocols, in combination, will be far more effective at restoring harmony within any dysfunctional system to keep mutated cancerous cells – which will all produce approximated 10,000 cells daily from the 70-100 trillion cells in the body – from developing.

      The body has an innate ability to heal itself if its provided with the right tools. Any true complementary therapist will work towards stimulating the patient’s own vital forces to promote healing reactions. FInding a centre providing everything under one roof makes life so much simpler when life already seems so overwhelming. Feed the mind, starve the cancer cell.

      What is quite beautiful to witness here is the magnificence of the human spirit. Quantum and Metaphysics shows us the power of energetic transference. Ellie and her partner are being channelled with an abundance of positivity, goodwill and love. I know I’m being bold, but because of the power of manifesting the thoughts we harbour into reality, perhaps Ellie you might start a new course of action with a new blog name … along the lines of willtolive.net, Iamwell.net etc demonstrating that you are in control of your destiny.

      3 very good naturopathic practitioners in London for interim treatment (most clinics are US/South America based)

      a) dr stephen langley. a fantastic practitioner with a wealth of experience across a wide field. he is very inspiring and can draw from many modalities. At the Hale Clinic they also offer a huge network of linked treatments under one roof ie: colonics, live blood analysis etc
      http://www.haleclinic.com/96/Mr-Stephen-Langley.html

      b) dr tatyana bosh. integrative drug free doctor and incredible being. has a subtle ability to quickly expose root causes and works on all levels guiding the patient to make better choices for themselves. adept at many discliplines.
      http://www.biomedic.co.uk/index.html

      c) rebecca edwards. very knowledgeable, extremely transparent and very good educator, she also has a monthly day at her clinic bringing cancer updates to her patients
      http://www.beingcontent.com/clinic.htm/our-naturopaths/rebecca-edwards

      Ellie – you’re life is in your hands.

      Much love

      x
      Lisa

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  161. Robin Esale
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:44:00

    you’ve inspired me to chase my dreams

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  162. nell
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:45:59

    I have read about you today on the daily mail – I was recently diagnosed with something lifechanging too and a friend recommended I read this book – The Art of Happiness by Howard Cutler – it has really helped me with the pyschological battle and I just wanted to share the name of it with you in case it can be of help to you too – best wishes – Nell Day

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  163. Alphonse
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:46:42

    Just read your story in Daily Mail and want to give you my support. I am sure you will beat it, have a beautiful wedding and spend many, many, many, many years to come with the man you love. Please stay strong and positive. Sending you lots of love, healing and strength.

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  164. Alexandra Phillips
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:50:31

    Hi Elly
    My eyes almost fell out of my head when I was flicking through the papers this morning and saw you.
    I have no words to say other than you look beautiful. You are still instantly recognisable even after the three years since we started at TTTV together.
    It’s a wonderful and inspirational thing that you are using your journalism skills to tell your story, and with such poise and courage.
    I will think about you every day and send all the positive vibes I have to you.
    Alex
    xxxxx

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  165. Lottie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:50:58

    Dear Ellie

    Ive just read your article on the DM & come straight here to read your blog..
    Your story is truly inspritational, your strength & courage is amazing. Keep fighting, keep hold of your dreams with Tom & your amazing wedding next year.

    Love Lottie

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  166. Michelle
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:52:39

    I can’t begin to imagine what life is like for you and all your family. Cancer sucks to put it mildly it’s cruel and unfair. I’m a research scientist and believe me we are working so hard to kick it’s ass! I’m applying for medical school because I desperately wanna be an oncologist I want to use my research to become the best doctor and kick cancers ass!!! Keep fighting Ellie you truly are an inspiration and hope you have lots more happy memories and pain free days
    xx

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  167. Angie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:53:54

    I read your article in todays newspaper. It made me feel so sad and yet so happy to read about a woman with such determination to ‘fight’ her way past this curse.
    I will follow your blog, and watch you shine, even through the darkest times your light will be bright and you will walk down the aisle with that handsome chappy by your side.

    All the best to you and yours.

    Angie

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  168. Penny
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:55:16

    Dear Ellie

    I read your story in the Daily Mail today and genuinely felt heartbroken. All I want to say is don’t give up. If doctors decide that they can do no more for you with conventional medicine then you should try alternative remedies.

    Bloodroot is a very potent herb which fights cancer and MMS2 is also very effective in dealing with this disease.

    All I say is that you should keep an open mind, do some research on these two remedies and trust your instincts.

    http://www.tumorx.org./

    http://jimhumble.biz/

    I wish you all the best.

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  169. Maureen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:55:27

    I second what Sarah just said.

    I am an EFT therapist and specialise in helping people with cancer. I have also experienced breast cancer.

    If you would like to try some EFT therapy I will be very happy to help at no cost. You can check out my web site if you need more info: http://www.stuffbusters.co.za

    Hang in there… xxxx Maureen

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  170. Rachel
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:56:03

    Thinking of you………..

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  171. Concas
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 12:58:04

    Dear Ellie,
    You are tremendously strong please do not give up hope, even though things may seem dark and shady remember if we look far enough the sun’s rays can surpass all darkness. You are so lucky to have Tom holding your hand and guiding you through these troubled times, but remember there is no one as remarkable as you, you have the power to let the light in. You are in my prayers, may God bless you.

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  172. Kim
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:13:16

    Ellie, I read your story in the Daily Mail this morning and then spent the rest of the morning reading your blog..should be working but couldn’t drag myself away. Your blog has helped me to have more of an insight into my sister’s struggle with cancer. She was diagnosed 2 years ago with advanced ovarian cancer and given an extremely poor prognosis. But, like you, she has tried so hard to remain positive and optimistic and along with the chemo, I know that is why she is still with us today.

    I hope you have the beautiful wedding you both want and that your life is full of every lovely thing you deserve.

    With much love, Kim x

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  173. Heather MacQueen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:13:52

    Hi Ellie,
    I read your article in Grazia a while back and again today in the Daily Mail. The strange thing was, I meant to take a note of your blog address the first time I read about you, and then lost the magazine. I go to the UK a few times a month and have been searching the Grazia magazines for your story, and nothing. I had been thinking about you only last week and then today I seen your article in the Daily Mail. Reading the heading and seeing your photo gave me goose pimples. I must say that you are one of the most inspiring women I have ever come across. Your positive mental attitude is your greatest asset, although I am sure you have many more;-)

    Planning your wedding for next year is a wonderful project to be working on, a change to your current environment will only do you good. Your story reminds us all that we must live life to the max every day, never take life or the people in our life for granted. When reading your story it always gives me goose pimples and I can feel tears in my eyes. Not because I pity you, I admire you and your great courage. You are reminding people to live a full life, love unconditionally and just be kind to others. I am sure you have your moments, who wouldn’t, like I said, I admire your strength and would like to think I would have the same courage that you are showing.

    I went through a difficult time emotionally a few years ago, (nothing in comparison to what you are going through) this changed me for the better, without sounding like a new age Evangelist:-) I used running and yoga as my vice. I filled my mind with positive stuff, read books, watched seminars and tried to laugh as much as I could. I am sure that all helped me from taking a mental breakdown!! I also planned for the future with specific goals in mind, determination and focus is a powerful tool. I was told to meditate, but I find this difficult to do. I have been to a few yoga retreats and after 20 mins I get bored and start peeking at what everyone else is doing!! I have spoke to other people that swear by it. One girl had an orgasm whilst meditating, so it must be good:-) There is a system that did help me get into a “state” and reading the success stories you can see that some people heal themselves of cancer. I do personally believe this is possible, but I also know if you believe in something enough, you can achieve it. The mind and mindset is extremely powerful. http://www.silvamethod.com/ne/Success-Stories.aspx

    You have a wonderful man by your side and I am sure a great family to give you even more strength. You have all these “strangers” that are sending you love and thinking about you everyday.

    You are a very lucky girl.

    You have touched people in a way that they will think differently, act differently. You have made a difference in other people’s lives and that is important. Keep giving that.

    You should use your blog and write a book, I am sure you have already thought of that……. This will inspire and help cancer patients in the future. Your message is not only helping you, it could literally save other people’s lives in the future. We all need inspiration and your are a great role model of that:-)

    I am looking forward to seeing your wedding photos, your going to look amazing:-)

    Heather MacQueen from Scotland, but lives in Frankfurt:-)

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  174. Ellie Burnside
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:23:19

    Hi Ellie,

    After reading your article on daily mail i was a bit nosy and snooped around on your blog. I was extremely saddened to read your latest post sharing your bad news – but lets face it, being from the north east its not in your nature to give in to a fight.

    You will fight this ellie. Just from reading your posts i can tell what a strong person you are, and how much support you have. I suppose i just wanted to comment to let you know i have your back, although im unsure if that will help at all.

    Slightly off the record, i’m from North Yorkshire (northallerton in particular) and wondered whereabouts you are from? and where you are getting married?

    with love xxx

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  175. Laura P
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:27:28

    Dear Ellie,

    I have just come across your blog and I think you are an amazing lady, keep fighting you can beat this you have so much strength.

    I hope the cancer starts to give you a break … you blinkin deserve one.

    Wishing you all the very best.

    Laura x

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  176. Chloe
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:28:50

    I read your blog entry for the first time today and it did, truly, take my breath away. What an astounding person you must be. I’m not writing that in an attempt to assuage the heartbreaking pain of what you are experiencing, but because I believe it. Your voice is so clear. I will never, ever forget reading your words for the first time. I have no words of comfort or advice, but I can say that I will never forget the clarity of your voice. You’re not a “victim” or a “cancer patient” to me – this seems to be a lyrical account of an extraordinary struggle. That makes you a witness, and I’m privileged to have seen this testimony.

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  177. Maggie Taylor
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:30:02

    Ellie,

    Just read your article in today’s Daily Mail. Thinking and praying that you will beat this dreadful disease.

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  178. Michelle
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:34:34

    Dear Ellie – just wanted you to know I am rooting for you. Keep battling, keep focussed on that wedding, you can do it.

    Having goals is so important (along with diet – yes!!) My Ma (and best friend) survived longer than her cancer prognosis. We went to the men’s finals at Wimbledon and the Strictly Come Dancing tour and she also saw one of my brothers get married and have their first child. All these things kept her going till she eventually succumbed in April.

    You sound like you have the same courage and spirit as my Ma, Ellie. And a brilliant partner in Tom. A big hug to you both. Just keep thinking of next June!

    Michelle x

    ps I DJ, so if you need a disco let me know. No charge.

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  179. Catherine
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:35:08

    Your strength is unbelievable! Belief and hope are very powerful. If we all pray with you and support you, you can get through this. I truely look forward to reading your wedding blog.
    Stay strong always

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  180. Gemma Ryan
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:40:49

    Hey there Ellie,
    I have just read about You and Tom on the net. You look like such a lovely couple and I can’t tell you how much I hope you have lots more time to spend together and enjoy not only each other but married life. You WILL BE a stunning bride.
    You are a inspriational lady Ellie, you are fighting hard and your positive attitude is bound to help so keep it up. You will now be in my thoughts and prayers every day.
    You go girl!!!!
    Gem xx

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  181. sarahw1sarah waterhouse
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:43:43

    Hello – I am on my lunch break and thought I would read the Daily Mail and I came across your article. I really really hope you beat this, you seem like such a lovely person who deserves a happy life.

    Please don’t give up!
    Sarah

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  182. Sun
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:44:47

    I just read your story on the Daily Mail site. Just to give you a little hope, i know a women who was told that she had only 3 months to live she lived 8 years…she was a wonderfully inspirational woman like you. May you achieve all your dreams and i pray for you to be able to see your wedding day, you deserve it xx

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  183. Diana
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 13:45:44

    Dear Ellie
    I just read your story on the Mail online. I wanted to write to say stay strong, keep believing in yourself. I think you are amazing. I look forward to reading all about your wedding, you will be a gorgeous bridge.
    Keep strong
    Diana xx

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  184. Diane Stevens
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:03:32

    Hi,

    We are fighting my husband’s precancerous pancreatic cancer lesions with medical help and healing prayer. Please, please consider contacting Christian Healing Ministries in Jacksonville, Florida, or another (reputable) Christian community. I took a risk in writing this because I know it is not politically correct to share such things. Your story takes my breath away. I really am praying.

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  185. Toks (South Africa)
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:10:35

    Hi Ell,

    Found your blog today after reading an article about your engagement (can’t remember the website). I’ve read a few of your posts and i’m very sorry to hear about your suffering, but I must say you sound like a real fight & I pray to God that he gives you strength to fight this, stay positive girl you can fight this

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  186. Pat Sweeney
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:14:06

    I have just read your story in today’s Daily Mail and want to join with all the other people who are thinking of and praying for you. xxx Smile. Hug from Pat

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  187. John Luty
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:24:48

    I’m sure you must have looked at all the alternative treatments but have you looked at Hemp Oil? That’s not “Hemp Seed Oil” that they sell in Holland & Barrett’s, you have to get some cannabis and extract the THC from it, which is much easier than it sounds. It is all explained in a video called “Run from the cure” at http://www.phoenixtears.ca. My brother had a tumour on his oesophagus and would not have it operated on. He took some oil and the surgeon said he was surprised at how little it had grown after a few months. OK , so it’s illegal but if “they” can’t do anything for you then why not try it? All the best.

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  188. Steph Smith
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:25:48

    You are incredible Ellie – I hope you can keep on fighting this – everyone who has seen the article on Daily Mail today will think you are as awesome as I do!! Congratulations on your engagement and I hope you have a really nice day when it comes round, because it will be here before you know it! Kick the ass of this illness!! Girl power! Love Steph xxx <3

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  189. Carol Devine
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:25:57

    Hi Ellie,
    I’ll keep you in my prayers. Keep strong and continue to be positive!
    God bless!

    Carol Devine x

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  190. Ismena Clout (@issyclout)
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:25:59

    I’ve been reading your blog for the first time today and want to say don’t give up! We are in very similary positions but I have been very lucky to have an amazing team around me from diagnosis of part two and only told what I needed to hear and no more. I’m stable now, just and hope to keep it that way for as long as I can.

    I do think it’s a fight, and one day in chemo when I was feeling particularly low an older lady told me off and said you must fight, fight till the last breath leaves your body.

    Issy
    x

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    • Ismena Clout (@issyclout)
      Nov 11, 2011 @ 20:11:41

      Hilarious really, there I was writing to you yesterday with confidence saying I was stable and today I’m told not so stable after all…

      This cancer things a bugger isn’t it!

      whisky.. good nights sleep (with the help of sleeping tablets) and face it again in the morning.

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  191. OLGA BROWN
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:27:14

    Hi Ellie, I have just picked up your story adn found your blog from the Daily Mail, from cyprus where I live. Finding words to consol you is difficult for me at the moment, but I promise I will pray to God for you and Tom, to give you the strength and courage needed to pull through this difficult ordeal. You are a LIVING INSPIRATION to me, and numerous others who are reading your story, keep fighting ! OLGA (Cyprus)

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  192. christine
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:27:25

    Hi Ellie,

    I have just read about your ‘trial’ on the Daily Mail and it has really touched me. I pray that you and Tom will achieve yor goal to ‘be one’ by June next year. I will always remember you in my prayers. Put your trust in Him-his purposes will not fail…

    Christinexxx

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  193. Linda
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:30:18

    Hi Ellie i have just come across your heart warming story and like many have had experience of cancer in my family. I love the way you talk about your experiences, it is very refreshing. I hope that your determination wins through and I can’t wait to celebrate your wedding next June, best wishes and have a hug from me xx Love Linda

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  194. Violet
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:32:21

    Hello Ellie, Please listen carefully what I am about to say: There ARE cures for cancer, but medics do NOT tell people (cancer is big business to pharmaceutical companies)

    Have you heard of David Icke? Sign up on his forum : http://forum.davidicke.com/
    When you get your membership (allow 24/48 hrs) then post a link from your story on the Daily Mail & this blog and introduce yourself and ask they provide you with the links to the cures for cancer. You`ll be given a whole mountain of advice about `natural` products & yes you`ll have to decide for yourself which one (or combination) might give you the best chance. Of course, this would have been better had you got this info sooner, but I`ve only just read your story, so got to believe its never to late to try. I can only tell you what they`ll tell you & that is: chemo is not the answer.

    In the meantime, I will keep you in my prayers that He will bring total healing to you, and grant you and your future husband a long and happy marriage.
    May God bless you xx

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  195. Karen Bayliss
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:32:30

    Read your story today and it really touched me. Keep on fighting for the amazing person that is you and for that amazing man that is with you – I look forward to hearing that you are beating it. Wishing you strength and determination – if you need a photographer for that wedding of yours happy to oblige and capture it for you both for posterity, my gift to you both. Hugs Karen

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  196. Carol Devine
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:32:32

    Hi Ellie,
    Just finished reading about you in the Daily Mail today. I felt I had to get in touch and say that you’ll be remembered in my prayers each night. Keep strong and continue to be positive!

    God Bless!

    Carol Devine x

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  197. Jess
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:34:25

    Hi, I don’t know you but was pointed to your blog via @beautycoccoon and just wanted to say though it’s a hard situation the hope and determination in your voice is amazing, please be encouraged, I’m sure you are inspiring lots of fellow sufferers, thanks

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  198. Katie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:39:09

    Hi Ellie
    Do you have a copy of Louise Hay’s book You Can Heal Your Life? I strongly recommend you google her and find out for yourself what an amazing and inspirational lady she is. And she fought ‘terminal’ cancer herself by the way. Next suggestion – do you know about the cancer centre in Mexico? The Clinic is called the Hoxley BioMedical Center and further information is available from their website at http://www.cancure.org/hoxsey_clinic.htm Their success rates make them worth consideration I believe. There are plenty of people out there who have beaten their ‘terminal’ prognosis so please try to keep positive and find out about these people. For example I think one of Prince Charles’ friends won their cancer battle with the Gerson diet so if you google it you will find out more. Also try the Cancer centre in Bristol for great advice and support. Finally you might also like to read a so-called ‘terminal’ survivor’s account A Time to Heal: My Triumph over Cancer – Beata Bishop.
    Keep thinking positive
    Katie x

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  199. Lisa
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:39:33

    Hi Ellie
    Just read your story in the Daily Mail online. So came onto your blog to leave words of encouragement, got here and am now stuck for something suitable to say. So hard to know what could make you smile and pick you up, at least for a while. In the end I have decided to just say, I am in awe of your ability to deal with everything you are at such a young age. Your story is truly one of courage and love. I send you as many positive thoughts as is possible and wish you lots more up days than down. Kindest.xxx

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  200. Bill Pitcaithley
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:40:03

    For what is it worth – there are 2 doctors whose work I have read quite a bit – and they take a different view of the causes of ilness.

    see Dr. Robert Young at http://www.phmiracleliving.com – and read his Articles – or even ring him later.

    And Dr. Hulda Clark – who died recently at aged 84 I think – she has written a number of books on HER approach to cancer treatment – and cure –

    http://drclark.net

    http://drclark.com

    Her latest book would be the one the read – “The Cure and Prevention of All Cancers”

    Either or both approaches may well be worth testing.

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  201. Bernie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:43:43

    Hi Ellie
    I just read an article on you in the daily mail. And felt I wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you. You sound like such a positive, graceful person. This is my first time reading your blog and I am so upset to hear your latest news. Sending you big hugs, you’re both in my prayers.

    Ber x

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  202. Penny
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:44:48

    My thoughts are with you Ellie; you’re not forgotten and are certainly not alone.

    Penny xxx

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  203. Claire N
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:46:59

    I have just read your story in the Daily Mail and read more on this blog. I have to say your strength and positivity is a complete inspiration. I will be thinking of you and praying for you xx

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  204. Jo
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:52:55

    Hi Ellie,

    I’ve just found your blog as well, after the article on the Daily Mail’s website. I was so inspired by you and your story and wanted to say how incredible I think you and your fiancé are, and also wanted to send mega positive vibes your way. It must be so hard for you both, but so many people are thinking of you and praying. My Dad’s fighting cancer at the moment, so I have a clue how hard it can be.

    I believe that there is always hope, even in the most dire of situations and I really feel you can beat this. Stay strong & focus on that fabulous wedding.

    Jo xxx
    Dorset. England

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  205. Sarah MacG.
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 14:56:31

    I read about you in the Daily Mail article. My mother died of breast cancer in both breasts. Since I have a similar health profile to her I have always been interested in treatments for cancer. I have found a protocol which is used by women who have breast disease of any kind called the Iodine Protocol. You can find the scientific publications about this treatment on the iodine page in http://www.optimox.com and other information at http://www.breastcancerchoices.org (go to iodine protocol). This treatment has been developed by Doctor Guy Abraham, a former lecturer at USLA school of Medicine, who has won two prizes for his work and who is an endocrinologist and gynecologist obstetrician. I used this protocol for fibrocystic breast disease and oestrogen dominance which I had for years and which stubbornly resisted treatment. This condition is often a precursor to cancer. The Iodine Protocol cleared it up in about 3 weeks.
    There is also a product called Low Dose Naltrexone which is supposed to be very good against cancer. If you google Low Dose Naltrexone you will find there are many websites about it. This treatment is very simple and cheap. You can buy the tablets at http://www.goldpharma.com. (Revia).
    I use both of these treatments and have enjoyed vastly improved health. Although I do not have cancer, they have both delivered what they promised when mainstream medicine did not.
    Both of these treatments are cheap. They do not have very unpleasant side effects. Neither of them interfere with more traditional cancer treatment, so you do not have to choose one type of treatment over another. The components of the Iodine Protocol can be obtained over the counter. Both of these treatments have Yahoo Health support groups. I hope this helps you. My thoughts are with you. Sarah MacG.

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  206. Ruth
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:08:48

    Hi Ellie
    I read your article in the Daily Mail, and just wanted to send you a message, as your story moved me so much. I hope you kick this diseases ass and I will say a prayer for you tonight. Its so nice to know you have someone like Tom who is also fighting along with you every step of the way.

    Take care and stay strong.
    God bless
    Ruth x

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  207. Amanda
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:14:54

    Ellie,

    Your story is inspirational. You were first brought to my attention today when I read an article on dailymail.co.uk today. My heart breaks for you, I don’t understand how life could be so cruel to both you and Tom. You may not feel it now but you are amazing. I really do believe that you are going to pull through and make it down the aisle for your wedding day. I wish there was something more that I could do for you, but I am going to pray for you everyday going forward. I really hope that this new prognosis will not break you down, as you need to stay strong and keep pushing forward because I really do believe that you will get through this. You are absolutely gorgeous and you WILL BE the most amazing bride ever.

    My thoughts and prayers will be with both you and TOM

    COME ON ELLIE CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!

    Much Love from Ireland

    Amanda

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  208. Beany
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:19:23

    Hi Ellie
    I am off work sick today and frankly feel like a bit of a fraud after reading all you have been through. I just read your story in the Daily Mail and felt, like many others, that I just wanted to offer you support and prayers. I have just read your whole blog and all the comments in one go and am blown away by your fortitude and your talent.
    Firstly, wowsers, how hot is Tom? Now there’s a good advert for internet dating if ever I saw one.
    Secondly, keep up that fighting spirit. It’s permissable during this shit-fest that life has thrown at you to have down days. Let that happen, cry it out ( I always think a good cry is good for the soul) and then grab back onto that indomitable spirit that has won you so many followers and supporters. How lucky are your friends and family to have someone like you in their lives – stunningly beautiful, captivatingly eloquent and brilliantly funny (loved how you signed off that letter to your brother – genius!) And I am so so relieved and happy for you that you have the support of your Tom, John and briliant friends. I am not particularly religious but I will be giving it my all praying in support of them and your good self in the next stage of the battle ahead. And each night before I go to sleep I too will think of that nasty little bastard cancer getting its arse kicked so it will leave your brilliant brain and the rest of you alone
    Much love and kind thoughts

    Beany
    xxxx

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  209. Ashleigh
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:24:52

    Ellie,

    Stay strong and positive…you can fight it and you will.

    I know someone who was told she had terminal cancer (only 17 years old) and she has had the all clear….you can do it too!!!

    All the best for the future and your wedding!!

    Ashleigh xx

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  210. Laura
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:32:14

    Hi Ellie, I just read an article on the Daily Mail website about your story and have since found your blog. I just wanted to say thank you. As a 29 year old mother of 2 girls breast cancer is a big worry for me. Your story shows that you should fight and that if any lump is found not to take no for an answer. My Aunt has been fighting cancer for the last 8 years and is still going strong, she starts more treatment this week.

    I so hope that you and Tom enjoy your wedding next year. I will keep a closer eye on your blog.

    My thoughts are with you and your family. Keep fighting!

    Love from Laura xxx

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  211. Julia Begg
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:38:40

    I’m so sad to read your story, – I hope you will consider my suggestion that you research glutathione. Our company spoke at the World Cancer Congress in Kerala and Singapore – our product is the only clinically proven way to make glutathione naturally in the body, and what that can do for you is to make T cells and NK cells – it also is the master detoxifier, and over here in the USA the FDA know that glutathione alleviates many of the side effects of chemo and radiation, but they don’t want you to know that…..we have had many great success stories – in fact this product is the first product drug or natural (and this is natural) to bring stage 4 lung cancer patients out of Cachexia, the end of life syndrome associated with Cancer and AIDS. When your cells become depleted of glutathione, they either program themselves to die, or they mutate,m resulting eventually in a tumor. It is being researched here by Moffitt Cancer Center as a treatment for lung cancer. With brain cancer it has been shown to be very important to increase melatonin levels naturally, and that can be done by taking a tart cherry supplement which is the only berry that contains melatonin. This increases the amount of glutathione that can be made in the brain. We have had many success with brain cancer. http://www.immunocal.ca is the doctors website – here it is a natural prescribable treatment for cancer, and it is actually patented as cancer preventative therapy if you are susceptible to cancer – my website is http://www.glutathionegirl.com. There are no guarantees in anything, but as you likely have cancer because your glutathione levels became too low, this would be a good thing for you to look at. There are lots of double blind clinical trials and patents for cancer with this product, so you don’t need to worry that you would be wasting your time with it. Nobel Prize Winner Dr Luc Montagnier devoted a whole chapter in his book to its application in cancer. Dosage is different for different cancer stages, as you have to achieve something called ‘negative feedback inhibition’, which can allow the body’s immune system to overcome the cancer.

    I wish you all the best in your efforts to beat this – stay positive and juice green veggies!

    Julia

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  212. Sandra
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:42:27

    Hello Ellie,
    I just read your article on the Daily Mail and it moved me so much. I am 27 years old, and I have been through some bad moments in my life which makes me feel like I am a strong person, but after reading your story I think you are by far the strongest, most amazing person I have ever seen. You are amazingly courageous, and your courage makes me feel ashamed of myself for worrying about the little things. I would never be able to fight this piece of shit like you do. You are such a fighter and I pray with all my heart and soul that you beat the shit out of this asshole. I am sorry to use angry words, but I am just so upset that you have to go through this. I will pray for you during the day and before I go to sleep and I will ask God to help you get through this and live happily ever after with your fiance. And I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and you are not fighting this alone. Please dont let yourself be discouraged by this setback. You can soooooooo do it because you are stronger than “it”. And we are all with you and praying for you. We all love you very much and we all think of you <3 Please keep up the fight

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  213. Pam
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:44:52

    susun weed brest cancer breast health! is a great book for building immunity, helping yourself, anti-cancer foods, psycology, and the classic path too. Great book. You can heal your life by louise hay.

    A friend of my husband was given 3 weeks to live and they all flew to his bedside to say goodbye and I guess he just decided to live and made a full recovery and died many (20? 30?) years later at 92.

    A consultant radiologist once said that the people who survive cancer belive they will live. Decide to live. A point of decision.

    courage and lots of love

    Pam

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  214. Andrea Richardson
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:45:09

    Dear Ellie,

    I have just come across your article in the Daily Mail and went on immediately to read your blog. I would just like to say that I am so incredibly moved and inspired by your courage to beat this awful thing. My thoughts and prayers go with you as you continue to fight this battle and have your beautiful wedding.

    Much love,

    Andrea
    xxx

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  215. sarah sweet
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:48:19

    Hi Ellie,
    So sorry you are having to deal with this cancer shit at such a young age, I am also struck with the same thing, found out this March that I had a primary lump in my right breast and that it had spread via my lymph nodes to my lungs, good news is that I have finished chemo which was not as bad as you imagine its going to be, surgery was doable, now got rads. The lung mets have gotten smaller and so I am responding well to treatment.

    In addition to the conventional treatments that I have mentioned I also take hemp oil in a capsule form by mouth once a day you will need to google Rick Simpson and ‘the cure’, more info can be found at the ‘apache tears website’ that rick set up, please goggle his name there are a few videos on ‘you tube’ that might help. I also speak to a lady in america who was dx with the same as me and she’s been just on the hemp oil now for 3 years and doing well, considering she was only given 6 months to live that was 6 years ago!!! Of course she also did all the conventional treatments as well, basically just chuck everything you got at this shit we have nothing to loose. I dont buy my hemp oil I grow and make my own via Rick Simpsons instructions certainly helped me through chemo and helps me to sleep, the lady in america lives in a state where medicinal cannabis is legal, obviously its not legal here in england but I dont care or worry anymore I just want to try everything I can to mend myself and by the sounds of it you do too. I also have been going to spiritual healing and reflexology both of these help relax me and put me in a better frame of mind especially when I am having a bad day. I also have changed my diet no red meat, green veg juice at least once a day etc. If you would like to chat it would be a pleasure to tell you all I have learned since I was dx. Just keep on keeping on and fight it you will come through we both will.
    Sending you love, light and healing vibes
    SarahXXXX
    P.S. I’m not as young as you although they still class me as young to be having breast cancer I’m 43.

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  216. Jan
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:48:40

    Hi Ellie,

    You might have done something shitty in a previous life but you and Tom have certainly done something great in a previous life to have found each other in this one. I read about you in the Dailymail in the morning and have been thinking about you and Tom ever since. You will make a stunning bride and Tom the most handsome bridegroom EVER. Fight hard and stay positive. You will always be in my prayers.

    xx

    Jan

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  217. Ann Newman
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:50:27

    Like all those before me, I have just read your article in the Daily Mail and found it very moving. Having now read your blog through to today, it is inspiring and sad at the same time. You are having an absolutely sh** time of it and I join everyone else in wishing you all the strength you can gather to help you and Tom through all of this. Love and best wishes. Ann x

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  218. jo
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:54:19

    I found your blog via an article i read today in the Daily MAil. I have had to come and read and leave you a comment. I will pray for you every single night in hope you far and beyond your wedding day. So not only will you be cinderella for one day but also spend time within a marriage to your prince.

    God bless
    jo x

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  219. Viv Meylan
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:56:30

    Ellie, I have just extended my lunch hour to read all of your blogs, you are so brave and you will make it to your wedding, I find the way you write touching but comical, you talk to Cancer as though it were a person, and this is such a good way to deal with it. I have lost many family members to cancer and none of them have had the determination or courage that you portray in your blog. Keep fighting and I will keep reading for many a year to come. X

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  220. DEBORAH MORGAN-SMITH...........Surrey
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:57:10

    Dear Ellie
    I read the article about you in The Daily Mail today and I felt compelled to refer to your blog, for a couple of reasons….firstly, breast cancer found me too 9yrs ago, and secondly, I have a daughter of your age. But most importantly, I was reading about a beautiful, intelligent YOUNG woman whose wonderful future is being greatly and brutally challenged. To be honest Ellie I just wanted to give you a big hug!!And Tom, who is going through the mill too, but in a different way.
    What can I say to you at a time when you sound as though you are understandably all but at the end of your tether? And what right do I have to tell you anything? I don’t even know you. But you don’t have to know someone to feel their pain, and to want to do or say anything that might strike a chord. When I was receiving treatment, and not knowing what the future held, I only read about breast cancer survivors who were beating the odds,(there are more around than we think, myself included). At the time I hung on to 2 in particular. One was Jane Tomlinson and the other was Lance Armstrong. Both were written off and given 3 month sentences. Reading their books inspired me to kick any odds in to touch and follow their example. On difficult days I constantly urged myself to think about their successful battles and those of similar others that I had found to read about.I fought to overcome that fear that makes you sick to your stomach by believing that it could be me who defies the medics too.
    I also prayed an awful lot, and I got as many people as I possibly could to pray too. The power of prayer must never be underestimated. It is not the last resort, it is a constant at a difficult time when you are exhausted both physically and emotionally, and you need strength. Maybe Tom could set up a “pray for Ellie” blog or twitter following,then you will have many more people walking alongside you as you travel this journey.People rooting for you is the most incredible source of comfort and strength. Unfortunately people only get to realise this when they are in tragic situations.
    I don’t know if you already do this Ellie, but eventually I began to live day by day. I had always been a planner aheader and a worrier until I had to deal with the shit of tests, results, treatment, waiting, more waiting, reading doctors faces, laying awake at night……..you know the drill, I’m not telling you anything you don’t already know too well. Eventually, I trained my mind to only go ahead as far as the end of each day, and I managed to shelve any plans, worries or needs until the next day. I was really shocked at how it helped me to cope, but I was more astounded that some-one like me had managed to achieve this technique at all!! It was as if I gave myself permission to stop and start my life when it suited me and surprisingly it was a huge relief and it unburdened me considerably.
    I also wrote it all down. My writings were where I cried, yelled, questioned, swore,let it all out, said it all,just like you are doing with the blog
    .
    I shall be following your progress Ellie, and progress it shall be, and I wish you continued courage, faith and strength.
    Always remember, God will walk beside you and when you feel you cannot walk anymore, he will carry you.
    I heard a phrase only last week that said:
    ” You may be going through the Valley of Death, but you don’t have to pitch a tent there!”

    BIG HUGS to you both

    Deborah

    Wishing

    Ellie, I do hope that

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  221. Corinna
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:58:57

    Just found this blog, I am praying for you.
    I have had cancer, I survived, dont give up hope.
    Much love
    Corinna
    x
    Could you email me please?

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  222. Bel
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 15:59:45

    Thinking of you and sending hugs, pats on the back, chocolate hobnobs and a whole lot of love xxx

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  223. Helen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:00:11

    I have just read your story and now your blog, just to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Will continue to follow your story and will try to think of stuff to cheer you a bit! My mum is a breast cancer survivor and she told me that silly stories helped her through the rough patches. Sending you warm, positive thoughts,
    Helen x

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  224. Kathie Elsworth
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:05:52

    Dear Ellie,
    I just read your story on the Daily Mail page….I am so sorry for your ordeal and I will think of you and hope that the treatment gives you more time. You are a very brave and beautiful young lady and I wish you all the best. Much love and hugs to you and your young man.
    Kathie xx

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  225. Kirsty Sanderson
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:06:39

    Hi Ellie,
    I am so sorry to read everything you are going through, life is very cruel.
    I have just read about you in an article in the Mail. I am very touched by your story, and so touched that you are going to still marry Tom, a special man.
    I am a graphic designer, and would like to offer to design your invitations. Please don’t feel you have to, but I wanted to offer.
    My dad has cancer too. It’s really horrific, and I wish you all the best. Kirsty xxxx

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  226. Ali Barrett (@ali_barrett)
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:08:30

    Pffffft. I hate the thought of writing that I am praying for you because I don’t believe in God and I hate the thought of saying that you are so brave because in my eyes you were just given cancer with no choice – I’m sure if someone gave it to you on a plate and said “hey do you want this” you’d kick them in the bollocks and say “jog on smeg.” What I will say, is that your blogs are amazingly bittersweet. You penmanship is incredible and I feel like I know you based alone on the words you write. You are a funny, wonderfully pretty woman, the same age as me.

    You cancer seems like an immensely arrogant fucker and is cropping up in many areas. I think it’s time to call in Kim and Aggie so they can give you a good clean up.

    What do you say to someone like this? It’s ridiculous. Maybe you DID do something really shitty. Maybe in your next life you will be born into the Beckhams family! Imagine that.

    I have no idea what you are gonig through but you have made every problem I have shrink to insignificance and I only hope the same can be said for that dirty disease.

    I checked my back pockets – nothing but an old washed receipt.

    I hope that every moment you have in your life is second to none. You are right – it isn’t fair. If Cancer were a person I’d kick it in the fanny (assuming its female because it’s a right bitch).

    To you and yours : – Have a very Merry Christmas and a miraculous new year. I will actually toast you at the table this year. So listen out.

    Ali B.

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  227. Christina
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:14:44

    Dear Ellie,

    Me too I just read the article in the Daily Mail and have just read your blog. You must be feeling crap and tired. Myself, I was 27 when I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and I’ve been fighting this ever since ( now am 42 ). It’s exhausting yet I am lucky to be still alive. I am afraid I do not have advice on how to cope best with all this shit. I believe that what is meant to be will be. My own prayers will now have you inside them. Prayers towards the universe, prayers for more acceptance, less anger and the existence of hope to help us through every day. Substitute your fear with curiosity. Appreciate every second. Live here and now. All the best from the bottom of my heart.X

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  228. Cristina
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:23:15

    Its not that you must have done something really shitty in a previous life, it just shows how strong of a woman you are in this life. The battle you are facing is long and up hill one but it is a battle worth fighting. Life is something that we all take for granted until it starts to slip away. After reading your story I will not take my life for granted anymore and I have you to thank for that. I will pray for you and your fiance and I will be waiting until next year to see you post your wedding pictures. I believe in you and miracles and you deserve a big one!

    Stay strong and positive..YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS

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  229. Frances
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:25:59

    For some I have been following the work of Dr Joseph Gold of the Syracuse Cancer Institute, New York and I would love you to read about it – you never know, it just might help you. I wish you all the best.

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  230. N
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:26:32

    Hi Ellie, like many I’ve read your blog through the Daily Mail, thank you for sharing. Just wanted to send you a quick note to wish you well, I’m sorry for what you are going through, its so unfair, stay strong. Keep us up to date with your wedding plans, you two make a lovely couple, I wish you all the best. Your attitude is inspiring, I think you are a very brave clever lady.

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  231. Helen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:40:35

    Dear fine and precious lady. I don’t know you but I’m very mad at the world on your behalf. You deserve your anger, this is BULLSHIT! SO unfair. You’ve made such a mark on the world by your honesty. I’m going to get my mammogram right away and I’ll bless you every step. You and Tom are the best of people. Much love. Helen.

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  232. Lindy Stocker
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 16:41:52

    I too came across your article in today’s Daily Mail and sat weeping at my desk – have done NO work today, as I had to go right back to the beginning of your blog and read up to the most recent and heart-breaking entry. If your courage, great honesty, skillful writing and bang-on humour in the face of such shittiness, coupled with the massive and totally justified support and love you are getting from your ever-growing band of followers, never mind the delicious-sounding Tom and your friends and family, are anything to go by, you are winning this battle already. But what a fight you are having to put up and no wonder you have bad days. Keep the faith! Please forgive me if you know all about her, or if she’s your sister or something – she really could be, you two are uncannily alike in every way, from where you come from, your ages, special relationship with your men (I include brothers in this!), your amazing writing and medical histories – but if not, please look up Lisa Lynch’s blog and find out that you have a cyber-twin: http://www.alrighttit.com. You speak with the same voice, it’s quite weird, so perhaps can help sustain each other if you’re not already doing so. BIG HUG xx

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  233. Virginie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:00:37

    Hi Ellie,

    I dont know you but the article I read in the dailymail, brought me to tears!!! I had 4 people in my family who had cancer and I know how much of a fight you have to put up with right now.. but please keep you chin up for all the people who are behind you and believe in you and most importantly for Tom and yourself..
    I believe in you and I would love to read in your next article that you are strong and ready for another battle as much as difficult it can be!!!
    Stay strooooooooooong girl!!!
    Cant wait for the wedding pictures….
    With love
    Virginie xxx

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  234. Catherine
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:09:14

    I’ve just read an article about you online in today’s Daily Mail and I just had to write here to say that I am truly inspired by your courage. I lost my best friend to breast cancer in January. She was 37 and had fought it and fought it for many years. Like you, she was given only a few months to live at one point, but she was determined that cancer would not end her having fun and living life to the full. I’ve read through your blog and I read so much of her in them. She would tell you to fight, fight, fight for what you want. Keep thinking positive thoughts and don’t listen to anyone who says you won’t be around in June 2012. Spend your time planning for the most amazing day of your life.
    Lots of love and my very best wishes
    Catherine

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  235. Karen Rogerson
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:10:13

    Hello Ellie,
    your story moved me as well as confirming once again the incredible strength that women can pull out from somewhere deep inside when they have a an battle such as cancer to fight. I organize medical conferences in Italy and abroad, mainly on Breast Cancer and meet the world’s experts (oncologists/researchers/therapists) that are right there with you trying to find ammunition to fight the bastard – big-ugly- Mister C. They are getting close. They are working hard and understanding so much more every day. You keep up the amazing battle you are fighting, even though each individual therapy seems to work for a short time, it will be enough to get you to the time when something else will be found.
    You are an inspiration for anyone that reads your blog, and I will try to get some passages translated for some Italian cancer blogger “sisters” that you don’t know, but have so much in common with you, if that is OK.
    I have never left a message on a blog before, but couldn’t resist in sending a warm “abbraccio” to let you know that you have reached so many souls with your words. Karen, Milan – Italy

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  236. Kirsty
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:15:30

    Ellie
    You are an inspiration. You are teaching me to truly appreciate what I have & not to take anything for granted. You will make a beautiful bride, inside & out! Keep up the fighting girl!!

    I’ll pray for you each morning :0)

    Kirsty x

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  237. Vanessa
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:32:13

    Hi, I don’t know you, so please excuse this personal note. Like many of the other folk, I read the Daily Mail piece and ended up here. I can’t help in any meaningful way, I just wanted to wish you and Tom well. Stay strong, you have the prayers of hundreds of people holding you both. I’ll be popping in again, so see you soon x

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  238. Helen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:44:48

    Hi Ellie

    Only heard aboutyou today and have read your blog – whew it makes me feel tired so I can only guess how you have felt. There are a lot of “bad” people out there and I know it is not kind to wish ill on anyone but sometimes…….. if there is a higher force they sure do cock it up at times. They say everything happens for a reason but I am struggling to see the reason in your suffering. I truly hope you [& Tom] find the strength to battle this and look forward to your blog about your amazing wedding day. Keep Strong x

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  239. charlie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:49:04

    Hello Ellie,
    Just read your story on the dm site and have read your blog. I think you are a remarkable woman and i hope that your wedding is all you ever dreamed of and more. my thoughts and prayers are with you both x

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  240. Yvette jones
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 17:50:39

    Dear Ellie,
    I read your story several weeks back I grazia and wanted to follow your progress but I forgot what the blog address was,and then I saw you today on the daily mail website and thought ‘that’s her’!! You truly are inspirational,what a brave lady you are,i am really sorry to hear of your latest setback but I’m sure you can kick it’s arse! All the very best with your latest treatment,I’m praying for you.
    Lots of love. Yvette.xx

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  241. Katy
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:01:40

    Hi Ellie,
    I just read your story on Daily Mail and feel absolutely sick to my stomach. I’m sat here at work dreading the commute home and am so depressed at the moment for various reasons, one being that my father passed away unexpectedly last year. I’m still only young so this is a huge shock to me but I’ve realised after reading your story that life goes on and you must remain positive and strong in everything you do.
    Thank you so much for publishing your story, you have given people like me – someone not even suffering from this terrible illness – a new lease of hope and a fighting spirit to continue. There are so many people worse off than me in life like yourself and I prey that you keep well, safe and happy for as long as physically possible.
    Your body is only the shell in which your soul is contained, your spirit and your beautiful self will live on forever in those that you love and those that you have touched.
    If you go, you can wait for Tom on the other side. I always think my dad is waiting for me in this next life and I know that he is looking down on me and is proud of me for carrying on and being strong for him.
    All the love and empathy in the world
    Katy

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  242. Victoria
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:01:58

    Hi Ellie

    I feel like I have to write here after reading your article in the Mail (I see many other visitors have arrived too!). I just wanted to send you my warmest and best wishes for recovery… I mainly wanted to say that I can’t wait to follow your blog and read your wedding day post! :) :) :)

    I will be following your postings and keeping you in my prayers. I’m only 23 myself, I’m so sorry you have had to go through something whilst being so young. Your strength and courage have made me realise I really should not fret or moan about the little things, I’m actually in tears writing this.

    Love and best wishes – you can beat this thing!!!

    Victoria

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  243. Angela Pickles
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:06:58

    Dear Elie,
    My heart goes out to you and I will add my prayers to those of everyone else who has come across your story. I have not had time to read your whole website – have you considered doing things yourself to complement what the doctors are doing for you?
    I am a breast cancer survivor, and I believe that there are many things that you can do to improve your quality of life and prognosis. Have a look at:
    http://www.worldwithoutcancer.org.uk/aboutb17.html
    for example. If you are interested, I can let you know all of the beneficial things that I do which can only improve health and prognosis. I wish you all the very best, brave girl.

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  244. Katie Milton
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:22:04

    Hi Ellie
    I have just read your story in the Daily Mail and had to look up your blog because you touched me so deeply. I am 26 and I just can’t even imagine having to face what you do every single day. I hope with all my heart that you beat this awful heartbreaking disease. You and your fiance are an absolute inspiration. It feels weird to say this because I don’t even know you but I wish you all the love, luck and happiness in the world.

    I will keep my fingers crossed for you always.

    Love, Katie

    p.s. I am planning my own wedding and found beautiful bridesmaid dresses on the M&S website today, £99 each, bargain!!!! They also do great cakes!!

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  245. jane felton
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:26:55

    Hi ellie, I just wanted to tell you that you are so inspiring ! After reading your story I am just stunned at your courage and fighting spirit. I honestly, from the bottom of my heart, believe that if anyone can beat this you can; you should be so proud at what you have already achieved, much much much luck and love for the future xxxxxxxx

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  246. Sarah L.
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:32:58

    Hang in there Ellie. You’re a wonderful writer, and it sounds as if you have a truly wonderful fiance, family and friends. It’s a bastard disease, but as others have already pointed out it’s very unpredictable [my Mother is still here and in remission 11 years after one consultant said her Ovarian cancer was terminal], and nothing is ever set in stone. Your writing is so vibrant and life-filled and you sound such a positive and interesting person, I wish you every strength in tackling this awful challenge. Tom sounds amazing, as do your friends and family. You have every reason I can think of to fight this. Good luck and hang in there. x

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  247. laura gaughan
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:54:45

    Hi, I,ve just read the article in the Mail today and wanted to let you and those close to you know that i,m thinking of you. I wanted to mention a name to you- its Jono Wilson. He was given 3 months following a diagnosis of terminal cancer and went on to have another 5 years. He wrote a column in a sunday magazine called ‘Dead man writing’ and i believe you can still access it online. Sending a big hug, look forward to seeing pix of you in your wedding dress :) Laura x

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  248. c
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:54:55

    Oh, Ellie, I dont know you but I am in awe of your fighting spirit. And the love that keeps you going.

    My best wishes that you get your strength back to fight this !

    all the best,
    C, in Finland

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  249. Sarah
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 18:58:02

    Hello Ellie,
    I came across your story today and have not stopped thinking about you. My brother in law has recently been told that his cancer is terminal and like you he has a full life ahead of him. With positive thinking and a strong determination I hope that you, my brother in law and all those affected by this awful disease can fight this illness and live a happy and healthy life. I will read your blog with interest and will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
    All the very best.
    Sarah xx

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  250. Patricia
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 19:11:58

    Dear Ellie,

    My heart breaks for you – you are an inspiration to many. I can’t say anything else as I’m choking with tears, I really, really hope you’ll stay strong. Keep fighting. Look forward to seeing the wedding pictures.

    Hugs from Dubai.
    Patricia

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  251. Connie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 19:16:06

    Hi Ellie

    So sorry to hear what you are going through. Just read your story on DM and i am moved with compassion for you. May the God above that i believe in, stretch forth his healing hand upon you and heal you completely in Jesus name! May he destroy this illness for you. You are his daughter, He loves you and he will do it for you.

    I pronounce that you will live a long, healthy and fulfilled life in Jesus name. Marriage and children are your portion! I will continue to pray earnestly for you. I am a firm believer in the power of healing prayer. I have experienced it first hand. God will not fail you. Please try him!

    God bless you always..xxx

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  252. Nicole
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 19:48:29

    Hi Ellie,
    I’ve read your story on DM and was linked to your page. I don’t know what to say, but I just want you to know that you are such an inspiring person! So many people can learn from your spirit!!! I once heard, death is the biggest adventure, that is why they save it till last. But hopefully you will have much more other adventures before and you and your lovely man can live the life where you always have dreamed of.

    Love from Holland,
    Nicole

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  253. Julie Marie Adams
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 19:54:25

    Don’t give up Ellie! We are all with you, here and now. Be strong – take a deep breath, straighten up and live YOUR life the way YOU want to. Here is something that has always held me up and I hope you can lean on it too…xx with love and prayers to you and all your loved ones xx

    “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

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  254. Michael Mathäß
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 19:55:29

    Keep up the fight girl and stay strong!

    Mike in Germany

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  255. helena H
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:01:19

    I like many others here came after reading a bit about your story on the Daily Mail website. I’m looking forward to seeing your wedding photos. Thinking of you and sending you best wishes.

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  256. Emma
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:07:29

    Hey Ellie,

    I read your story on ‘Daily Mail’ online today. Such a moving story. I won’t bore you with how my heart felt such a pull when I read your story, I am sure you have read that over and over again. What I will say is you are a beautiful girl with a fantastically strong resolve. You have a wonderful man and a wonderful family to support you through this time, but I am sure no matter what, you want what is so frequently taken for granted in life. I can only reach out as a stranger and offer a hug over the airwaves, tell you that you are very very special and i pray from my heart that things turn out to be as you want them to be.

    Much love to you Ellie

    Emma

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  257. Ramona
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:07:59

    Don’t give up Ellie ! My sister was in a similar situation where doctors gave her 9 moths the most to live and today she is cancer free. She won because she never stopped believing. Nobody says it’s easy, cause it’s not, but it’s inside you to find the power to keep fighting !
    Lots of love ,
    Ramona from Cayman Islands

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  258. Charlotte
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:08:01

    Oh sweetie, there’s one more Scripture I just have to share with you~For I know the plans I have for you,”declares the Lord,” plans to prosper you and not to harm you,plans to give you hope and a future,(Jer 29:11) Hallelujah! ^_^

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  259. Alison
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:09:20

    Give yourself and those around you only love.
    You are one beautiful and brave woman.
    May God be with you always.
    Alison

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  260. Mark
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:20:08

    Dear Ellie
    Having just read your article in the daily mail i just wanted to send you a message of support. I am also suffering from cancer which has spread to my pelvis. Unfortunately Chemoradiation has failed for me but we have to keep strong and keep going. Don’t give up hope as sometimes that is all we have left. Laugh when you can and stick 2 fingers up at the Cancer. Aim for your wedding and you will get there and far beyond
    Mark – Yorkshire
    xxxxx

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  261. Annie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:54:04

    Ellie,

    Read your article in the Daily Mail today, and it was truly heart breaking to hear what you had been going through. I still to this day don’t understand how people find the strength in themselves to fight that awful illness, and I think its amazing and beautiful how people put up the most incredible fights, and I have a lot of faith in you. I just wanted to say all the best with everything, and you sound like an incredible person and I will hope and pray for you every day.

    x
    P.s I am a musician and I believe that listening to some things can put your mind at peace. Through my hard times these are the songs that have helped me, and I hope in some way you can share that passion and it just helps in anyway whatsoever..So please, relax, breathe, smile, and enjoy. It’s the music rather than the words.


    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLpsDamWdIM

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  262. healthhappinessandheaven
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:54:31

    Ellie, I dedicated my post to you today….my new friend who is fighting cancer. With love and my prayers, Karen
    http://www.healthhappinessandheaven.com

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  263. Paglam Kelsang
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 20:56:04

    Dear Ellie, Your blog has moved my mind, and as everyone else I would like to help in anyway since I wish you to get better and have a meaningful life with your partner.

    I’m a Buddhist Nun and we have a practice of Taking and Giving that can be of benefit when we are suffering life threatening diseases there is a free ebook (www.emodernbuddhism.com) and if you download it you can read in the first part on page 87 about this practice. I hope that if you try it it will benefit you. Just wanted to mention this practice for you, as I think everything is worth trying when we are in such a serious condition.

    I will keep you in my prayers, and I wish you all the best in your treatment.

    Much Love
    Paglam

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  264. Ann Nordsell
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:03:51

    Hello Miss Ellie,

    I have been doing a lot of research on the body and cancer. I send you all good wishes and will pray hard for you, but I am writing to tell you to please know that cancer feeds on sugar. Sugar can be sweets OR SIMPLE CARBS (crisps, chips, breads, etc.) What you want to do is make your body as ALKALINE as possible. 1st thing in the morning, drink warm water with fresh lemons squeezed in them. Even though lemons are acidic, the results on the body alkalize it. It is proven. No more sweets, or simple carbs…in fact, keep carbs to an absolute minimum. Eat tons of vegetables, some–only some–fruits. Fruits have sugar. Please google how to alkalize your body through food. That will tell you all you need to be doing right now to stop giving fuel to the cancer. It will be a radical diet change, but I know it will help. Why not try it? Please do it. All my best to you, dear girl. Ann in Chicago.

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  265. Maureen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:07:43

    Ellie, I read your story today in the Daily Mail online. I am a Scot living in Canada. I have been volunteering and working with the Healing and Cancer Foundation here in Nova Scotia. A local Oncologist with a heart of gold is working in his spare time to make life easier for cancer patients. Why don’t you visit our website, all the Retreats etc are free, you have nothing to lose by having a read. One of our board members wasn’t given much hope but she’s here today and well. I can send you a book for free if you are interested. I love your story, you are a wonderful person, if there is nayhting I or the foundation can do to help or encourage you please email me anytime. I am so looking forward to seeing you in your wedding dress – you are so pretty. May the universe give you all the positive energy you need to get through this journey. Best wishes, M

    info@healingandcancer.org

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  266. Ann
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:09:41

    Hi Ellie,

    Please read about this Dr. Simoncini in Italy. He uses sodium bicarbonate as treatment for cancer….Sodium bicarbonate does not harm you as it is natural and it alkalizes the body. Here is the link…http://www.curenaturalicancro.com/therapy-simoncini-short.html

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  267. Janet Smith
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:22:56

    Have just read about you in the online Daily Mail and then went to your blog. I do hope everything goes well for you, your positive attitude must be a huge help! My thoughts are with you. You are a brave young woman and with the lovely Tom with you every step of the way I’m sure you will beat this thing.

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  268. Katie M
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:26:05

    Hi Ellie,

    Not long found your blog but wanted you to know that I am thinking you and your family. Of course you will beat this too, how could you not share your wedding pics with us!?

    Stay strong and we will all stay positive for you

    Katie M

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  269. Dr Rohen Kapur (@Dr_RohenKapur)
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:34:05

    The best way of getting rid of cancer is to starve it. That means eating a ketogenic diet, your normal cells can use ketones but cancer cells prefer sugar and thrive on glucose and fructose. So you need to eat a diet with no carbs in it.
    That is the major part No one said it would be easy though.
    The other thing to do is to boost your immune system with high dose Vitamin D3 and we are talking megadoses here, Like 100000 iu daily for about two weeks and then maybe half of that a day for a year or so. Don’t worry about the overdosage You won’t have side effects from it apart from killing off any cancer cells that are floating about. Though a level of 95ng/ml is optimal for getting rid of cancer. and also for preventing it in the first place. The cannabis oil is also a curative but obviously it has legal implications unless you live in California and have a note to say you can buy it , and its freely available there over the counter/ or on prescription.

    ( there are cures for cancer that are two to three thousand years old that use cannabis they were written up in the Vedas) You can thank the european patent office for that information. So you now have the knowledge of how to beat your cancer desperate as it is. Good Luck.

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  270. Chloe G
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:39:03

    Hi Ellie, I’ve just found out about your blog via the Daily Mail website.We don’t know each other but we are almost the same age and I too am getting married next year.
    I thank you for being brave enough to share your difficult journey. You really are an incredible woman! I am sending you lots of love and I’m rooting for your girl!!! Keep fighting and PLEASE DO NOT EVER GIVE UP ELLIE!
    You are so lucky to have a lovely man like Tom by your side and I wish you both the very best in your fight to beat this evil, evil disease. Stay strong lovely lady and I’m thinking of you and wishing you the very best xxxx

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  271. lauren dell
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:41:10

    will be praying for you… really moving reading all of your work, I don’t know if the words ‘stay strong’ really make any impact and don’t know where strength comes from anyway but I really do pray that you find peace in your heart and courage to face the bad moments. May you be covered with mercy and surrounded with light, much love

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  272. Mojo
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 21:44:54

    Hi Ellie
    Like a few people before me, I’ve picked up your blog from the DM and I’ve spent the last hour or so reading your story so far. I don’t really know what else to say other than My God, you are an amazing woman and your Tom is a very lucky man! I send you love and continued strength in your fight and whilst I’ve never met you, I want you to know that you are in my thoughts. With love xxx

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  273. Martin Slater
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:11:19

    Dear Eleanor,

    I read your article today in the Daily Mail, I have to say that it reduced me to tears, which was a little embarrasing as I was at work in an office of 7 people at the time.
    I will start by saying that I admire your courage and willingness to share your journey with others.
    My reply to your post will be a little long winded but I hope you can bear with me.

    In August 2004 my wife Hazel found a tiny lump in her right breast, a visit to her GP gave us the response that it was nothing to worry about but she was sent to the local hospital for tests, as the GP was not overly concerned the process took a number of weeks and on the 5th October she was told it was Breast Cancer, two weeks later after a lumpectomy we we informed that she needed a Mastectomy, feeling a little bewildered by the whole situation we requested a body scan. Unfortunately the results from that were that the cancer had already spread to her bones, basically within four weeks of being informed that she had cancer we were told that her condition was terminal. As a result of this we postponed the date for the Mastectomy.
    In January 2005 while at work I received a phone call from one of my daughters that Hazel had collapsed at home, that evening after several hours of waiting I was told that she had brain lesions (plural) when I asked how many lesions (tumours) The reply I got from the consultant was ‘undetermined’ the tumours were overlapping each other and so a precise number could not be ascertained.
    Hazel’s oncologist told us that at best she had 2 months to live and she was unlikely to ever leave the hospital.
    Now here is the positive side of my story. After 10 days in hospital Hazel came home, within a month she had radiotherapy treatment to the whole of the brain and she lost her hair, her only other treatment for the cancer was tamoxifen and zolodronic acid infusions once a month.
    For the next six months or so we lived our lives the best way that we could but in the back of both of our minds was the fact the the 2 month life expectancy had come and gone, our girls were 8 and 12yrs at the time and so we did whatever we could to lead as normal a life as possible. On Hazel’s 37th birthday she told me that cancer was no longer going to rule her life. We turned our attentions to natural supplements from the holistic cancer centre and Hazel lived life to the full. Holidays within the UK, A trip to Portugal to swim with Dolphins, making the most of Birthdays, Christmas’s and anniversaries.
    Every month we trailed to and from the Oncologists, the only treatment being palliative care and before long his standing comment when we entered the room was ‘are you still with us’.
    Over the last year we went on two cruises, the second one in July 2011 we renewed our wedding vows with the girls in attendance, it was a fantastic and memorable experience.

    Unfortunately within ten days of returning home from the cruise the cancer finally overwhelmed her and she passed away.

    My point is simple, please, please do not ever let the cancer rule your life. It is obvious from your article and this blog that you have a partner who loves you dearly and who you love in return.
    Enjoy your life, be strong and live for the moment, living with cancer is an emotional roller coaster from hell, everybody’s journey is unique and you need to draw strength from your loved ones around you.Continue to make your plans, be positive and enjoy your wedding next year.

    I apologise if my post causes any upset, it is certainly not my intention , I am trying to get across that while not every story has a happy ending, the story itself can be pretty damn good. Hazel, our girls and I have had some amazing experiences over the last 6 years and created memories we will have forever and so while cancer has shortened the time we had together, it made us all focus on what is important in life.
    I wish you, Tom and your families all the best, you are in our prayers, be strong and no matter what the cancer throws at you, fight back with every ounce of strength that you have, I promise you it is worth it.

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  274. L x
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:22:07

    Hi Ellie,
    I have just read your story tonight and it brought tears to my eyes. You are amazingly brave and I pray that you will get better and have that wedding of yours!!
    However, I would also like to tell you that its not all bad news if it were to ho wrong…there is someone who loves you more than even the closest to you: and that’s Jesus. If you believe in him and what he did for you on the cross ( forgave your sin if you have repented of it) then you will be with him forever in a far greater place than this world will ever have to offer. So be comforted that although we pray from the bottom of our hearts for you to get through this terrible time; there is sooo much to look forward to in the future as well. You and Tom take care and I will pray for you everyday x

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  275. Teresa Dwyer
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:22:45

    From a total stranger… Keep fighting! X

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  276. julia knowles
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:27:58

    Ellie, i have just read your article in the Daily Mail & i would just like to say that my heart goes out to you & i pray that you beat this wicked disease. You are an inspiration & the love that you & Tom clearly have for each other is amazing.
    Sending my love & thoughts to you and your families. xx

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  277. Seaneen
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:44:36

    I hope you kick its arse, lady. I’m sorry that this is happening to you. You’re in my thoughts. x

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  278. Cath Sheldrake
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 22:56:46

    Dear Ellie

    I’ve just been reading your story in the Daily Mail and my heart and prayers go out to you and Tom. I lost my beautiful best friend to this awful disease 6 years ago and watched her go through the illness stages. I’m only telling you that bit to give you a bit of context and hopefully a bit of inspiration. She was called Kerry and, like you, she was a positive fighter with a huge heart and spirit. Her positive attitude was amazing and she outlived the doctors diagnosis almost twice over.We planned and did loads of things she always wanted to do, we had holidays and watched dolphins swim, she had tea at the Ritz, she was there to see her niece achieve her GCSEs, the birth of her youngest nephew and the wedding of our other best friend. She tried different skills and found that she enjoyed painting, writing and music therapy – she even wrote music and produced a CD called “With No Regrets”. She accomplished everything she wanted to and often said that she did so much more in those 3.5 years than she had ever done in the 30 or so years that had gone before. She loved life and lived it to the full each and every day and I wish you could have known her. Keep fighting Ellie, you have your wonderful wedding to Tom to look forward to next year and I know that will give you a focus and something to look forward to as you go through your next bout of treatment – you will get there and it will be a wonderful day. God bless you and I will pray for you over the coming days, weeks and months. Please feel free to contact me at any time if you feel it would be helpful.

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  279. Fiona
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:03:05

    I have just read you blog and have found your courage and bravery in fighting this illness totally I inspirational. I would truly like to wish you and Tom the best of luck and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Spend time with the people that matter and stay positive and focused. All the best to you xxx

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  280. Elna Davis
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:03:45

    Thinking of you,stay strong :) Elna

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  281. Tash
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:07:38

    Hi Ellie,
    I’ve never written on anyone’s blog before but was so moved by your story that I felt you deserved to know that your words were reaching more people than you could possibly imagine. While your story is one which needs to be told the way in which you write it allows the words to flow off the page and be embraced by the hearts of those who read it. While I know I should be devastated for you and Tom, you present your life without knowing it as being full of riches most people can only dream about. You must continue to look to your future together. While it might sound crazy you have to start to create a timeline of all the things you want to do together, your Wedding, the trip to Africa, move house. Get photo’s or pictures which represent those things and put them on a wall in full view of you. And everyday spend a couple of minutes focusing on these things. It is all about the power of positive thinking. Build a mood board around each one which includes dates, ideas, things to do and see, people you want there. You are entitled to want all of these things and if you can really open your mind to the power of positive thought who knows what could happen. I have heard of some miraculous stories and am always suprised by peoples own inner strength.
    Take care will be waiting to hear your good news!! x Tash

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  282. adela
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:09:17

    http://germanic-new-medicine.com/index.php

    it must not be a fight
    you just can search for your attitude that make the body answer with producing more cells, distroing cells, or stoping the functioning of an organ
    after finding what bodered him, you just change your attitude and your body enters the street of self reparation

    adela

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  283. Angela Jones
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:11:23

    Please Google Kris Carr, she is amazing, she is a similar age to you and has been living (very well I might add) with terminal liver cancer for about 9 years now, she has a book called Carzy Sexy Life and a brilliant website full of really helpful information, are you doing the acid vs. alkaline idea? I am wishing all of the luck in the world in your fight against this vile disease which has touched everybody’s life, your story has touched me and so many others and I pray for a cure every day xxx

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  284. matthew richardson
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:55:25

    “Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.”

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  285. Angie
    Nov 10, 2011 @ 23:56:36

    Hi.
    I’ve just read about you on the DM site. You are both incredibly strong. My best mate has ovarian cancer. It’s terminal. They gave her 2 years to live, that was 5 years ago x she fights it like a ninja every day. She has 2 beautiful children x a lovely husband. She won’t give up on her life and I don’t blame her. As sick as she gets life is precious x fleeting. Hang onto your precious Tom . Every life is worth living x fighting for.. I wish you strength x happiness.

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  286. Dave Hollingdale
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:28:46

    Young Ellie How proud people must be of you.I read the article in the Daily Mail today and here I am doing something I have never done and commenting on your blog.
    Your bravery and fortitude are magnificent and you exude being positive which is inspiration in itself.Your Chap Tom realises his luck in having Your love and you two will continue to stand shoulder to shoulder.
    No words of mine can do you justice Ellie.
    Take Care Dave

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  287. Rachel
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:33:37

    I’ve just read your article in today’s paper – please dont give up fighting and hoping that the treatment will slow the cancer down, you are an inspiration for all of us and sound as though you have amazing support around you which will carry you through the dark days. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers xxx

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  288. Darlene
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:35:42

    Well Hi there…
    Today you get a moment to “be on the floor”..then when you think you can’t handle any more….something greater than you will take over…and the sun will shine tomorrow. Ellen, I am a survivor that after being diagnosed in 2003, still have ongoing diagnosis from the side effects of treatment. To put it simply, I am the “highly unlikely” case. IF there is a highly unlikely side effect or diagnosis..that would be me. It is almost getting too funny how many diagnosis I keep getting. They just keep coming one after another. I have also seen a metamorphisis of me over time. HUGE from steroids, bald and boney from chemo and radiation, a capitol B from premature forced menopause, a freak sideshow at the gym for my balance problems, and then of course there is the lack of full range of motion of my limbs anymore. So here is some hope for you. A friend/chemo buddy said something so profound to me. On the day I received a Bone Marrow transplant, frightened to undergo the procedure, she said “fight till you can’t fight anymore..go get life”. Well, unbeknownst to me at the time she was dying and she knew it…but she was more concerned that I find HOPE. She was out of options. I had to dig deep, and say why me? Why do I get to survive? She had so much more to lose in life than I. Ellen, I was told more than once to prepare myself and my family. But I am here today. We may not know our purpose here on this earth, but THERE IS ONE for each of us! I had many a day of pity parties for myself..and dammit..I am allowed. The important thing is that it is a momentary thing. Remember this! So. okay, go scream out, post on your blog…then come back! YOU ARE HERE! Tom loves you and needs you. Funny, my husbands name is Tom. THe poeple reading this are looking to you for strength, not just giving you advice. why else would they have found your blog.? Think about it! They were and are searching for something..as am I..right? So keep writing on your BLOG. Not only will your experiences benefit the greater good, but it will give you strength and hopefully the wisdom to know, you are needed in more places than you know.
    One last thing, my friend, Ellen…go with your instnict, and stop worrying. Life is a journey. There will always be bumps in the road, so if you are waiting for it to be perfect..you are wasting time. Enjoy every day for what it brings, and I think you already know that for every bad day, there is usually a good one soon after. So let yourself grieve..then pick yourself up…do what makes you feel calm and smile, smile, smile. You are beautiful! You have Life right now..don’t waste it!

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    • Darlene
      Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:44:14

      Oh and of course this is usual for me. Ellie, the show Ellen is on in the background..and look what I have done? I typed you as Ellen instead of Ellie. I hope you can forgive me. Oh and my Mom’s name is Ellie, by the way.
      So you have a Tom, as do I. You are an Ellie, and I have an Ellie. You have cancer, and I have had it. THERE IS A PURPOSE!

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  289. Sascha
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:44:14

    Hi Ellie, an article about you touched me. My mum has survived breast cancer seven times against ALL odds over a 22 year period. She has just had more surgery this week. She, my brother and I have spent HOURS researching treatments etc. You may have already read it, but she has made the decision to cut dairy from her diet based on a book by Professor Jane Plant. It is called Your Life in Your Hands. My mum has always eaten extremely healthily except she has eaten dairy. We believe we have found the missing link to why her cancer kept returning. I don’t know if you have explored this avenue but I couldn’t read your article without sharing this. Be encouraged, you can survive this and NEVER listen to the doctors odds for survival. Praying for you. Xxx

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  290. Susan Hodges
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:52:54

    Hi Ellie
    Just read the article in the Daily Mail about you and Tom and of course it was a tearful read for me as a wife whose husband has cancer and as a mum whose daughter is planning her wedding for next October. Planning your wedding is the very best distraction for you while you deal with the job of getting as well as you can for your special day in June. Getting out and trying on those beautiful dresses is a really wonderful experience and I would urge you to do this as soon as you feel well enough. I will be following your blog closely and wish you all the strength and courage you will need to get through this horrible time in your life. After reading your words I am confident that you will. With love, Susan

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  291. Alex
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 00:58:23

    Just read your article in the Daily Mail and it brought me to tears in a Starbucks. Keep fighting Ellie. <3 Sending you all the love, strength, and hugs the world has to offer.
    –from a stranger in Texas.

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  292. Anna
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 01:07:56

    Sending so many positive thoughts and feelings your way. You have so much love, respect and support.

    xx

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  293. Andrew
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 01:14:38

    Hi Ellie,

    I have just stumbled upon your story by chance, but have not been able to stop reading more and more of it as it has deeply touched me. You are truly an amazing, strong, beautiful person and have an enormous heart. I am so sorry to read about what you and Tom have had to put up with and I send you my prayers and best wishes that you are able to overcome. You deserve to defeat this and live a long, fulfilling life in which so many people will be lucky to have you in theirs.

    With love from Texas,
    Andrew

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  294. Mary
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 01:20:04

    Just wanted you to know that I read your story on the Daily Mail website and so admire your courage and attitude. So sorry to hear your latest news and I and sending positive vibes and hugs to you and Tom xx

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  295. vanessa Kimbell
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 01:21:07

    You fight. Every minute. Every day. Keep writing. You are amazing.

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  296. Cindy
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 01:53:37

    Dear Ellie,
    You are fearless and so strong! You will get this through this latest challenge and come through even stronger. Please know that they are so many people praying for you, loving you and thinking of you every minute of every day.
    Sending strength your way,

    Cindy

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  297. Tom D
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 02:51:42

    Hi Ellie,

    What an inspiring person you are!

    I believe you have already found the path that will heal your body. As someone who has been a fan of wheatgrass juice for many years I would recommend that you drink it fresh. Grass powder is expensive and does not have the same incredible benefits fresh juice has. I would recommend that you get a wheatgrass juicer and learn to grow it yourself (in the meantime you can buy trays of wheatgrass in London at Planet Organic for £7.50 but grow it yourself and it will cost you pennies). Drink one or two ounce shots regularly throughout the day. Aim for at least six ounces a day. You will get over the strong taste, believe me! After a while your body will welcome it and it will taste almost like milk! (Strange, you may think, but cows eat grass, don’t they!)

    I hope this helps. No need to respond. Good luck!

    You can do it!

    Best wishes,

    Tom D

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  298. Anonymous
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 02:58:02

    Dearest Ellie,

    Your story touches me greatly. If there is one bit of advice or words of warmth that I could give to you it would be this….

    I myself am a huge believer in the power of thought and manifestation. See yourself as the beautiful, powerful and healthy woman that you ALREADY are ;)
    Life is about the journey and not the destination. When you hold Tom in your arms, know that regardless of the prognosis or the time on earth doctors say you have left, know that those moments will last forever.

    Don’t give up… Believe in yourself, as many others do ;)
    Much love xoxoxox

    Heather from Australia

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  299. TA Loeffler
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 03:09:26

    Thanks for your courage in sharing this with us. I’m sending lots of healing energy your way and I’m so glad you are a fighter. I’m cheering you on.

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  300. Gail
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 03:44:27

    Keep up the good fight—you are amazing!!!!!-looking forward hearing about your wedding celebration and some pictures?

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  301. Jenni
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 03:55:11

    Hey Ellie,

    In the last 2hrs of finding your page and drinking the rest of the bottle of red that me and my partner Darren were suppose to drink but he fell asleep and thought…well it would be rude not too..I have been absolutely hooked reading about you.

    Like you we share common ground, tenuous as it maybe…Blogs!!…this is my first time reading and responding to a blog and of course you writing one. Now just to explain I’m not a nut but I do believe nothing is coincidence. I know this very moment in your life now is not how I envisaged meeting you. But Every letter you type I feel your emotion whether it be despair or elation, frustration, impatience, regret, guilt, or just plain old happy. I see your through your words and you have a beautiful strong soul, stronger than you think. My Names Jenni and I will be continuing to read, not out of morbid curiosity but because you with all your trials and tribulations you are still being unselfish and sharing your time…. and your time is precious more than most because you have the gift of foresight and know the time you have must be spent wisely…even though some day you don’t feel like living up to your own expectation you do. Your bloody funny too….

    This is also a another first for me to say with all my heart to a complete stranger I have never met … I love you Hun, speaking from one special soul to another (Ps not the drink talking lol)

    Be rest assured…. this earthly realm is not the end babe….Xxxx

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  302. Colleen
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 04:11:37

    JUICING raw vegetables (research it)….it is a proven way to cure cancer naturally. So many people have cured their cancer this way. There is the Gershon Therapy in which you juice a cup of carrot/apple juice every hour that you are awake. I know it sounds like a joke but seriously isn’t. I juice everyday, I know the benefits. Look online at how many people have juiced raw veggies to cure their Cancers and read how they did it.
    http://www.cancertutor.com/Cancer/RawFood.html
    Book….”Eat to beat cancer”

    I wish you luck….
    Colleen

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  303. Rachael Divers
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 04:29:07

    Ellie, I read about you in the Daily Mail and have sat in floods of tears reading about the horrible time you are having. Also, what made me cry in a strange way was your utter determination and fight inside – don’t ever lose that. A positive mental attitude is what will get you through.

    I’m so glad you have decided to write about this, what a wonderful gift for you to share with others who may be suffering the same ailment and needing a bit of compassion and empathy. I’ll say my prayers for you and sincerely wish that you manage to live out your life the way you had imagined.

    I would love to speak with you to feature you on the magazine I write for as I believe your story could help a lot of people in the same position. Please do email me anytime if you’d like to talk further. I fully understand that you have quite enough to deal with right now.

    What an inspiration you are Ellie. No matter what happens, nobody can ever take your dreams or your love away. Stay strong. All my love & prayers to you xxx

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  304. ashley kara
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 05:25:15

    Dear Eleanor,
    I just read the article about you in the Daily Mail and I wanted to send you some smiles from California…I know that you feel that every time you pick yourself up and start walking there’s another stone to trip you. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer at 35 and survived 11 years and something she was missing you already have and that is someone to lean on. I don’t know if your doctors keep in touch with american universities but the school my husband graduated from UCSD University of California San Diego has done amazing work with their cancer research. Our bodies are amazing things and the best thing you can do is doing things that make you happy. I know I am far away but there is always help and hope if you seek it. I hope that you are surviving the troubles of the month and I will keep you in my thoughts. P.S drink lots of water with electrolytes

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  305. Pamela Hines
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 05:48:59

    Hi Ellie, I came across your blog via the Mail website during a period of insomnia…soul searching etc. I am both saddened and inspired by your story and determination to beat this thing. I can’t say anything else other than I truly wish you the best.

    Pam

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  306. Khadija
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 10:07:25

    Ellie I stumbled upon your blog yesterday, and since then have read all your entries. My heart goes out to you and I wish I could hold your hand through all this. Sending you loads of prayers and a big warm hug. Chin up sister! X
    p.s You write beautifully.

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  307. Gemma Smith
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 10:47:18

    Hi Ellie,

    I’ve just stumbled across your blog whilst reading an article that you have written in the Daily Mail.

    Your story has touched me so much that I followed the link to your blog and wanted to leave you a message.

    You are an inspiration to me and have made me realise in a flash that whatever troubles life throws at me I must always look on the bright side.

    I was married last year and I am praying that you get your chance to be a beautiful bride.

    Big hugs Ellie

    Gemma

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  308. catharina
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 11:40:08

    Hello Ellie. I’m catharina from the Netherlands and a read you’r blog…..deep respect for you’r strength and positivity. You’r too young to face this! I wish you all the love and strength in the world and hope you fullfil you’r dream, married in June. I wil pray for you strong woman. My thoughts are with you and Tom!
    Many hugsss from the Netherlands

    (forgive my bad english)

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  309. Marianna Hadjipateras
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 12:05:33

    Please try and think of what a lovely couple you and Tom will make next year…..I am wishing you with all my heart strength to get through this latest treatment. Praying and sending you many positive thoughts. And you didn’t do anything shitty

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  310. Sarah
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 12:29:26

    Hi Ellie,

    I am so sorry to hear of your latest news. I know how hard it is to keep positive when the bad news keeps coming, but don’t give up. You are already doing better than your original prognosis and I truly believe your amazing positivity and spirit is the reason for this.

    As my friends keep telling me, we have to go through all this shit to get better. So focus on coming through this and sticking two fingers up at this horrible disease.

    Sarah xx

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  311. laura
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 13:46:20

    Ellie, I know you must be feeling so so so shitty right now, and nobody blames you for that. I hope your fighting spirit keeps you going. xxx

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  312. caroline
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 14:00:30

    You are so brave, I cried at your story, I just want you better, good luck xxxxxxxxx

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  313. Jana
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 15:28:41

    Ellie , I have discovered your blog today after reading an article about it on Czech news website. Your writting made me cry on several ocassions .You carry your burden with such a bravery and grace …I will pray for you Jana xxx

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  314. Jackie
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 15:44:57

    You are inspirational, keep fighting and keep thinking of the wonderful wedding you are going to have next year. My thoughta are with you, take care xxx

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  315. Natasha
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 15:49:17

    The number of beautiful comments is truly a testment to how inspirational you are. Though many of us do not know you after reading your story we shall carry with us a piece of you in our hearts and in our hopes. I, like others cannot imagine the daily battle you must fight but i hope when the day draws to a near and you are tired you find strength from these words, ‘courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.’ You are so brave and I know that you will battle on and win. I wish you every happiness for the future and I hope you have a beautiful wedding. You deserve it.

    All my love

    N

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  316. kerry
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 15:55:58

    Ellie I read about your life in the newspaper yesterday, and I wanted to come and find you, and tell you that reading your words stopped my life in its tracks for a moment, because alongside all your suffering Ellie, you are ‘living and breathing and loving’ with this disease. We each of us face death and live with death, it is the only certainty of our lives, but I can so understand that you’re not ready to have time called just yet. It seems you have a fantastic team, and are totally clued up on whats happending currently medically. My love to you Ellie….truely, all the love that is in a mothers heart, come on! climb another hurdle and get back to the really important business of living. ‘Team Ellie’ is growing…..xxxx

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  317. maureen
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 16:04:43

    Stay strong xxx

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  318. DEBORAH MORGAN-SMITH...........Surrey
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 16:15:03

    Hi Ellie
    I wrote you a message yesterday afternoon including a suggestion about starting a prayer blog/website.How silly do I feel now?! It’s become obvious that you don’t need to, judging from the overwhelming number of comments that are being left for you now from all over the world.The amount of power from all these well wishers must be generating enough positive energy for you to light up the whole of the country! I have been so impressed by the all the love and encouragement that you are receiving from complete strangers who have fallen in love with you and your story, and who want to help in any way they can.
    Two things I forgot to include yesterday……..firstly, you didn’t do anything wrong in a previous life, quite the reverse! You have such a developed spirit that you are considered able to take on the hardest of experiences that life can throw at you. God only gives such terrible times to those who are advanced enough spiritually, and who need further development. We are on this earth to learn.
    Finally, I pray not only for strength for you and Tom, but also for your mum and dad who must be going through hell too.
    Hope all the messages have helped Ellie, and that even if today you are feeling physically wrecked, emotionally you are benefiting from all the love and energy.

    Lots of Love
    XXXX

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  319. DEBORAH MORGAN-SMITH...........Surrey
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 16:18:49

    PS
    Hope the venue for your wedding is a large one cos there may be an awful lot of unfamiliar faces clapping you as you walk from the church with your beloved Tom!!
    Deborah

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  320. Sinead
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 16:33:58

    I don’t know you, and our paths will probably never cross, but YOU ARE INSPIRING. This new diagnosis is just another battle for you, and you MUST get up and fight it, I have just read your whole blog sitting here at my desk and I am so encouraged by your writing, I know you will beat this cancer, please keep fighting, you give us all hope.

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  321. Rachel M
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 16:34:08

    Dear Ellie,

    I read your article in the Daily Mail that somehow found its way to Uganda, East Africa. Yours is a story of hope and i pray to God that He continues to bless you and heal you. Will pray for you and Tom and you will come through this one even stronger.

    Love Rachel

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  322. Šárka
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 17:11:16

    Hi Ellie. I read your story in the czech internet. I am from Czech republik. I know, this time is for you very hard. I wish you good luck in your cancer and keep thinking of the wonderful wedding with your boyfriend. Sorry for my english.
    Šárka

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  323. Matt Kneale
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 17:25:45

    I read your article in the Daily Mail (10/11/2011) and just want to say what a wonderfully positive and optimistic person you are. I’m sure you will inspire many people also going through a similar ordeal. I will continue to follow your blog and truly wish you a long and happy future. ‘When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place’

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  324. Affie
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 17:27:01

    Ellie,

    I came across this after seeing your story in the Daily Mail and haven’t been able to stop reading. I’ve been in tears the whole time and yet at the same time, filled with hope and faith. You’re a fighter who won’t give up and I cannot tell you how much respect and admiration I have for you. I just hope someone upstairs is listening and gives you a break, because you deserve it more than anyone.

    I am doing the Race for Life next year and initially was doing if for myself have beaten skin cancer and to help raise money to beat the Big C. You however have reminded me what it means to live, what it means to never take life for granted and to enjoy every single second. I will run for you Ellie. In tribute to you and your constant battle and sheer determination and look forward to updating you when I do to tell you about the day’s antics and how slow I was! :)

    I wish you and your fiance all the best for the future and hope and pray it’s a damn, long one together. You are an inspiration and a real life role model – someone for us all to aspire to and learn from.

    Always,
    Affie

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  325. Millie
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 18:00:38

    What an amazing woman you are. If wishes, prayers, thoughts and hope could make you well, you’d be better in an instant. With all the strength and best wishes in the world to you and Tom xxx

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  326. Erin
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 18:23:26

    Hi Ellie,
    I just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking of you and sending you all my wishes and love after finding your blog. I’m also getting married next year and I can’t even begin to imagine what you must be going through. Thank you for inspiring me.
    Much love,
    Erin x

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  327. Angie
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 18:28:27

    Hi Eliie I’m Pete Boyes’ wife, I just wanted you to know we are thinking of you and Tom. Your blog is totally amazing and it’s left us both astounded as to how you deal with your situation so courageously!!! Your writing is fantatstic and I don’t think there will be a single person you don’t inspire with your grit and determination!!!
    We’ll be thinking of you everyday Ellie
    Love
    Pete & Angie Boyes

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  328. BJ
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 18:38:48

    Eleanor,

    The saying that love conquers all is something that can be attributed to ones own health and well being. The body works in mysterious ways and your desire to reach that magical date in June can push you to make it there. The burning desire within you is all that you need to believe in. Trust in yourself and the support of your fiancee and others and you can find the strength you need.

    I wish you the best and look forward to reading about your wedding day in the future.

    Take care and god bless.

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  329. dee
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 19:06:08

    Ellie,
    I read your story and I wanted to reach out to you. There is a website called a world without cancer. Not sure if you are familiar with it or not or if you are seeking any type of alternative treatment. If you are I think you may get some very informative information from there. Hang in there and know that we all are pulling for you.

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  330. Lisa McBurnie
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 19:13:11

    Ellie, I read your story in the Daily Mail and think you fighting spirit it remarkable.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Tom and all the people who know and love you.

    Lisa McBurnie

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  331. Kevin McEwen
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 20:27:04

    Hi Ellie

    I’m just one of the many people you don’t know, but who does care. I came across your blog and just felt compelled to drop you a line.

    Ellie, you’re a great example to me. Don’t give up, don’t give in.

    Kevin

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  332. Carol
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 21:02:46

    Hi Ellie your a beautiful girl with such fighting spirit and a very special way with words! keep up the fight..but be kind to yourself..nuture yourself…..
    whilst i was reading about your story in the Daily Mail last night ,i felt an red hot itch in my left breast and as i was scratching it….guess what i found a lump .straight to the docs this morning and she found a ‘thickening’ plus other stuff too! a friend of mine has just started the journey too ..she has her first chemo next week….its a bugger…but i’m a lot older than you and i have had a life…

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  333. Faye Ashton
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 21:08:16

    I read your article in the Mail yesterday and just had to write to tell you how inspirational I think you are. Your strength and bravery is amazing…
    Sending you lots of prayers and good thoughts (if only all these messages could be bottled and given out as medicine)

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  334. ChloeGreene21
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 22:52:51

    So much love in these comments Ellie. So much support to you. So many positive thoughts and prayers. I add my own. They will make a difference.

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  335. Barbara
    Nov 11, 2011 @ 23:31:47

    Having read your story in the Daily Mail I just had to check out your blog. My heart goes out to you in all that you are going through and it seems like how could I ever say anything that would be of help.

    I admire your overcoming spirit and your humour and can only say that I will pray for you, that you will be overwhelmed with the peace that only God can give in these horrendous circumstances. That you will have wisdom to take the next step whatever it is and to know that your life is touching many. Blessings & Prayers.

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  336. Francesca saville
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 00:49:21

    Dear Ellie,

    After reading your story in grazia, something occurred to me to check your blog to see how your doing this evening, I don’t know why it just popped into my head just now. I was hoping the news would be more positive than the last time, I remember thinking how amazing and courageous you are and how inspiring I found reading the article. I really hope u never let that go, never give up, I want to say something that would really spur you on… Something that would really stand out in your mind to give you another kick of positivity that would make all the difference. But I’m just an ordinary girl your age that doesn’t know you. I guess what I’m trying to say is there is nothing fancy I can say that someone hasnt said in a better way. But reading about you and your story has compelled me to want to to say something that makes all the difference. That must say a lot about you! Keep going… I wish you everything I would wish myself. Don’t let the bad news bog you down and never stop laughing- that always helps me! Take Care of yourself. I wish you better every day…. Francesca saville x x x x

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  337. Deb
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 04:53:46

    Ellie, It is clear from these responses that you have inspired and touched the lives of people all over the world. I pray that all of our positive thoughts and love will carry you and Tom forward. . It sounds like you have a great team helping you along the way, but if you ever want another opinion, I cannot speak highly enough of the wonderful doctors at Sloan-Kettering Hospital. I have a dear friend in Indonesia who has fought her way back from the brink with cancer several times in her 36 years, so keep fighting. Just remember, where there is life, there is hope. My love to you and Tom from Deb in New York

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  338. Catt
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 04:59:10

    Dearest Ellie,

    I read your story in the Daily Mail and immediately thought what a brave, inspirational, and special person you must be. When you have your moments of doubt and defeat, focus on your wedding day; focus on your hubby-to-be; and focus on what you want (not what you don’t want want). You are in my thoughts and prayers, and I am looking forward to reading the follow up article in the Daily Mail about your fabulous wedding day.

    Much love,
    Catt

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  339. Matilde
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 06:17:50

    Whenever I feel spectacularly shitty I raid Youtube for something a bit crazy to laugh at and post it on my Facebook wall where it remains top of the leader board for me to dip into when needed. This is one for you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuTaSHajFbM&feature=related

    You are winning of that I have no doubt.

    Big love and prayers x

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  340. Hazel Shaw
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 11:11:45

    Ellie, I have just found your blog and am lost in admiration of your bravery and humour.

    Like all of your other blog friends I am going to be saying a prayer for you and sending you positive vibes.

    I’m so glad that your Prof is so supportive – he will guide you through this latest setback so that you can continue the fight.

    All love

    Haze xxxx

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  341. Paul Spitere
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 12:19:25

    Your tale reminds me of a classic story. Boy meets girl… they (slowly!) fall in love and begin to see that their lives are inextricably linked and deeply entwined with the others.
    In that story the heroes of the piece are faced with what seems like an insurmountable challenge. In one chapter there is something that happens that keeps our heroes going, a small victory. Other days all hope and despair is lost.
    It is on those days that our characters earn their “hero” status…. They still carry on, one step at a time, they keep going in spite of the terrible anguish that they suffer. That is what a hero is and that is what you both are. These are the bad days but better times can be but a simple turning of the page away.
    I don’t have medical expertise to offer, I have but my words and prayers. I hope they and other peoples words help you to keep making that one step forward.
    One day, one hour, one minute, one second at a time. Stay present, your battles only exist here in this current breath. Do not look forward or back. All you have is now….

    It takes a single flame to see the light

    Paul

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  342. Michelle from Nashville
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 13:54:37

    I read your story online at the Daily Mail. I found your blog and read your posts. I am a native Texan and we are tough as nails – feminine and strong at the same time. If I could, I would wave a magic wand and make you cancer free and an honary Texan at the same time. Keep fighting the good fight. I will keep you in my prayers (sincerely) and I hope faith is a large part of your healing. Peace and blessings to you and all your loved ones.

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  343. Jan
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 14:24:32

    Hello Ellie,
    I have just read your moving story in the Daily Mail and could not get you out of my mind, I laid in bed thinking about how you must be feeling so felt compelled to check out your blog . I cannot put into words how saddened I was to read your latest entry , it is so easy for people to tell you to be strong , to keep going, and to fight, and of course you are doing all of those things and more. You sound like you have an amazing support from your family and partner and I hope you are drawing on that support right now. You need time now to re-assess the way forward and to plan your next course of action. Your biggest assets Ellie are your determination, your strong will and the love you have for those around you, I hope you can find the strength to carry on with the treatment and to be positive that you WILL beat this thing!!
    I will be looking out for your next entries , in the meantime please know that I am thinking of you and praying that things start to go well for you
    Jan x

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  344. Ingrid
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 15:36:14

    I just read about your fight in a newspaper here in Norway, and my heart goes out to you. Stay strong!

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  345. Joan Zia
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 22:50:18

    Hello Ellie, I read your story in the Daily Mail – I was very moved by your bravery and beauty.
    Please know, that so many many people must be saying prayers for you!
    I too will hold up your name to God every day, and meantime I send you all my love.
    I am honoured to have “met” you. You are a really special girl.
    God bless you.
    Love Joan xxxx

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  346. Karen
    Dec 02, 2011 @ 15:14:17

    Hi Ellie,

    I was pointed towards your blog through twitter. Keep fighting! you have been able to put into words things I can’t.

    Like you, I’ve recently been diagnosed with brain mets and have just finished 5 sessions of radiotherapy. it’s been a trying week. It feels like the start of a very rocky road.

    keep smiling. Keep strong. I’m thinking of you.

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    • Sarah MacG.
      Dec 02, 2011 @ 17:31:57

      Low Dose Naltrexone and the Iodine Protocol. You need to get someone to google these quickly, if you are not feeling up to it. These treatments are non-invasive and do not have unpleasant side effects. They are also compatible with mainstream treatment so you do not have to choose which treatment you follow. You can have the best of both worlds. There are support groups for them on the Internet. There is no law in UK against treating yourself! You may yet turn this situation around. I posted more about this in greater detail on 10th November. I imagine with all you have been through you must feel quite low at the moment, but you can still save yourself. All the best.

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    • Ellie Jeffery
      Dec 05, 2011 @ 18:16:10

      Hi Karen – I hope the WBR went ok. I just feel a bit ditzy at the moment and finished three weeks ago. The hair stayed on until this weekend and I shaved it off but it’s the second time I’ve lost it and this time it was liberating to just chop it off! Sending lots of good wishes your way. P.S I was told juicing carrot and beetroot was a good idea when going through and after radiotherapy, I did but now I can only handle carrot but it’s better than nothing I guess! x

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  347. Di Georgiou
    Dec 02, 2011 @ 17:22:10

    Please visit the web link below, Laura also has brain tumors non operable and has gone to see Dr Berzyinksi and the tumors are now shrinking!! pls pls see this post and visit the link!!

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  348. hairdresser angel
    Aug 28, 2013 @ 06:24:39

    You can definitely see your enthusiasm within the work you write.
    The world hopes for more passionate writers like you who aren’t afraid to say how they believe. At all times follow your heart.

    Reply

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